So this story starts off when I was a younging in secondary school I was not a behaved kid i constantly got in trouble for not doing homework or not paying attention in class cause I never had a clue what was going on in class.So inevitably I dropped out after my first year and I spent a year cleaning and fixing boats at my local boat club.Best year of my fucking life icl I was the happiest I’ve ever been.I genuinely had a blast and I learned more than I ever did in school,but the time the next school year rolls by,I’m forced to go back to school by tusla(cps for Americans)And then I went into back into school after missing a whole year and I was suspected to catch up but I couldn’t i was too lazy and I had been outta school for quite a bit so it was hard.I ended up failing half my exams and got disqualified from 2 for cheating on them.For the next year,in ireland we have the option to skip the 4th year which I did skip because I wanted to get out of school as fast as possible and then I entered 5th year I actually took the year actually pretty seriously.For the last 3 years I slacked off and I wanted to turn my life around and get away from my parents.I knew my life was destined for failure and it lit something inside of me.I couldn’t live in my abusive addict parents house for the rest of my life.So I locked in,studied at every moment i got,I never had a set time I would study I would just study for as long as I could.My routine was just sleep,eat,study repeat.I used to watch tiktok in the shower because that was the only place I couldn’t study,I also never had any friends or girlfriends so I had no distractions.i could dedicate 100% of my time to studying.The time I get to 6th year(final year of school) I was totally prepared for my leaving cert.And I got a perfect score,8 H1s (8 A+ equivalent).Which means I should get my dream college right? Due to random selection I was denied.Despite getting a perfect score in my leaving cert I was still rejected from my dream university.Only 1.2% of people every year get a perfect score.I basically traded my soul for this exam.I gave my everything and I didn’t even get a place.Some dibshit with a lower score than me probably got in.Even though I put in the hours,the effort and the dedication.And to make it even worse there is only 2 universities that offered the course I want to study and both of them rejected me.So now I have 2 choices.(A) suck it up and study something else.(B) reapply next year,but at the risk I might get rejected again and face unemployment for longer while getting older and watching my peers outdo me in life which would slowly kill me inside.
