fortnite

[limo8]

 

[limo8]

am i really being ignored or they forgot about me

 

[over0]

Brutal self reply pill

 

[limo8]

Brutal self reply pill

have no choice at this point will talk to myself

 

[Deleted Member 75068]

have no choice at this point will talk to myself

Hi

 

[limo8]

yea i mean im not nearly as funny as some people here but man that's actually brutal

 

[limo8]

Hi

hey

 

[Deleted Member 75068]

yea i mean im not nearly as funny as some people here but man that's actually brutal

make a thread titled “did *insert forum user* really do that??!!” and you’ll get like 200 replies

 

[limo8]

and i don't really know what i did wrong someone said yea let's play together squads in fortnite and i waited thought i missed that but ig they had plans so they moved it to weekends and now its 22:26 for me so yea

 

[limo8]

make a thread titled “did *insert forum user* really do that??!!” and you’ll get like 200 replies

thanks but i dont really know people that good like i had somewhat decent convos with some users but i dont want to talk about something when i dont know about it or not sure enough

 

[limo8]

maybe they too busy so that's probably why they didn't called me or msged, ig that's could be true and i just have to much free time to spare well that's on me for sure. why did i even think that wasn't just a joke it could be that, but what about when i asked them and they said later, then it wasn't a joke so that means that they had plans about calling me. oh yea right why did i forget about time zones haha that explains a lot actually

 

[SubhumanEyes]

ive not played fort in so long....cs mogs tbh

 

[limo8]

ive not played fort in so long....cs mogs tbh

depends i play cs only because of cases and friends nothing about this game is good honestly, for me at least

 

[limo8]

if playing alone that's just a gamble did you had good luck with being put with decent team or absolute lunatics flip a coin and find out

 

[SubhumanEyes]

friends

none of my friends play fort anymore tbh,its either roblox or cs mostly

 

[limo8]

i liked cs:go that was fun but well actually i almost never played alone i dont know i feel i didnt like that game from begging just followed my friend he introtuced me to minecraft and well to internet as a whole on like 2016 november or something

 

[limo8]

none of my friends play fort anymore tbh,its either roblox or cs mostly

same my friend just makes money from fort but refuses to play i dont know why he says he wants to be good at this not just run around

 

[limo8]

it's super easy actually i could do that too and well everyone with decent pc could too really but i don't have motivation to do so like yea sure money and i can buy stuff whatever but i dont want to i dont know why maybe really depressed or something

 

[limo8]

i just don't care

 

[limo8]

need to pick route in life because mom and grandma pushes me to apply to go to some uni but i dont have clear step by step future as some people do i was playing around too much when i talked with chat gpt and some other ai's i figured out i have super bad mental when nothing brings joy duh ofc not nothing only cheap fast dophamine can but i dont have discipline to do basic stuff so i just rot away even when i have rare motivation for like a day or two max and nothing for a month something like that idk chat gpt said i'm not broken but i feel like broken one

 

[faithful]

and i don't really know what i did wrong someone said yea let's play together squads in fortnite and i waited thought i missed that but ig they had plans so they moved it to weekends and now its 22:26 for me so yea

ur first mistake was playing fortnite

 

[limo8]

will be my diary for today chat gpt said i need to journal stuff or something like that even tho it's not exactly helpful especially when i clearly beg for attention but i just can't help myself

 

[SubhumanEyes]

brutal no reply pill reality as a male on here

 

[limo8]

ur first mistake was playing fortnite

well i first did that with crappy pc with a same friend and we just booted in and died due zombies and zone like in 2018? 2019? i think my first mistake was choosing pc over real friends

 

[limo8]

brutal no reply pill reality as a male on here

why would someone reply especially if they don't know me

 

[faithful]

well i first did that with crappy pc with a same friend and we just booted in and died due zombies and zone like in 2018? 2019? i think my first mistake was choosing pc over real friends

u can game online with real friends.

 

[SubhumanEyes]

why would someone reply especially if they don't know me

make conversation o algo

 

[limo8]

at this point i just farm rep because like my reply's out of pity ig

 

[limo8]

u can game online with real friends.

we played time to time but when last class in highschool started they locked in. they are in other city the one they want to study in rn and live there like for one week or less and then main friend travels with mom to bulgaria for another week or two and like one week of whatever they decide they kinda slowly move away from me so kinda last time we played ig

 

[limo8]

make conversation o algo

what?

 

[SubhumanEyes]

what?

 

[limo8]

we played time to time but when last class in highschool started they locked in. they are in other city the one they want to study in rn and live there like for one week or less and then main friend travels with mom to bulgaria for another week or two and like one week of whatever they decide they kinda slowly move away from me so kinda last time we played ig

well actually we had great summer before last class we just were outside all the time like almost every other day we spend time together

 

[limo8]

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kinda looks like me

 

[limo8]

kinda looks like me

being real rn well i don't have wrinkles and glasses are rectangular

 

[limo8]

i don't really have what to say or talk about but still want some attention so like let's see oh yea i did sports from 6 to 15 y o 17 now this fall third year will start without sport and well i liked it i just didn't won anything at all for at least 5 or 6 years in the row my spirit is fragile and every lost tourney my coach just was scolding and practically bullying me into this state that i am rn i just cant over come that yes i am have no will to fight yes i feel ashamed for that i lost and name of my small town just said to other that heard it "oh, that one, nice easy win" and when i quit i think i regret that i did quit almost 3 years ago i still have some mass just a little but more that someone that doesn't lift at all.
everything i do is rot all day in my room not even sitting half of the time just laying and watching anime or yt sit at late night usually and to sleep when i feel like i want to, not by being tired but by do i want to watch useless 2 hour video and lose sleep for another day and fall asleep like 26 hours after that like rn im on like erm like something 27 or more hours and will consider sleep in the morning like 4 am or something i can't stop its a loop and i grown to it without selfless help i just cant do that but my mom is toxic so i just cant have help from special doctors or i dont ask to buy something like toothpaste i just forget about it and move on thru the day or well night or just basic stuff i never asked for those stuff only thing i asked for was tablet which i got some old one with 4 android that i filmed few videos when i was like 6 or 7 y o and then in 2016 was first pc and wifi that was fun i stopped going out with friends that i used to play pc broke and well stuff happend and then i got in 2021 or so maybe 2020 new one better one half of which i use now i changed power supply and gpu and ig in 7 grade i fully started rotting away in pc in the phone when that was when i broke my rib or something cant remember then a hand then had problems with knees and stayed home knees bothered me for very long time i took a lot of time off from sports and just was rotting gave up on studying always was stressed like what lie i need to say now to stay home and etc all that stuff i did for all the winters even before my last summer in the wrestling they took me to the vacation - hell of the training it was extremly fun like working until i cant even move even when i was ill just because i pushed thru i had motivation but i think my last straw was my shoulder pain when i tried to lift something 30 or 40 kg on each side like in front of me with cables that was a machine and when i tried i just regretted it so hard thankfully that was almost last day of hell but well we did something 4 or 5 days of training and other time we were in mountains or shopping in Bukovel like tourist stuff photos and etc that was gin while it lasted and when we came back i remember it blurry probably nothing happend at all ig

 

[limo8]

was trying to fix spelling mistakes for so long i just lost track of time usually i talk very long with ai ig if you want to know some random's lore you could read it but idk ofc i hope for people to read my lore but if you don't want to just say something like dnr or what people here say

 

[limo8]

I fell asleep while reading so ig i will sleep sooner than i thought

 

[limo8]

Soon will go to rest want to read something before that

 

[limo8]

ig i was right when i said i will go to sleep when it's gonna be 4 am because rn i don't feel that tired maybe eyes like little dry but only a lil

 

[limo8]

or no head started to hurt in the back of it on the right part like from eye socket thru skull like straight line to the back of the head it's bothering me but i dont really that bored from pc i found new hobby rotting here and just talking sometimes with people if want or needed

 

[limo8]

while was typing that out it passed so now i just feel blood pressure in the heart a lil like that scary feeling like i'm afraid of something like before doing something

 

[limo8]

ok ig i will just continue renting about everything that hurts and passes while i write about it rn my left hand hurts in the elbow but like beetwen idk what it's called so yea like that

 

[limo8]

listening to a music playlist on yt rn it's cool o think i like most of the songs there i will add link to it dont know if it will work tho

 

[limo8]

here the playlist i mentioned i think it's cool if you want check it out but aware everyone has a diffrent taste in music so try not to judge too hard ty

 

[limo8]

i see that i have some people checking what do i do here but i dont think you guys will stick and read what i talk about it here there nothing intresting honestly

 

[limo8]

aw that was bad now my heart kinda hurts but like easy and managable pain so kinda no problem

 

[limo8]

well i think heart rate of 102bpm which is awful for resting when i was healthy resting one was like 54 or something that

 

[limo8]

yea seems like 102 just did that again

 

[limo8]

why that could be tbh probably because im super stressed from not sleeping and kinda dying ig idk know how that works i make things up rn dont mind me

 

[limo8]

okay im kinda calm now music clamed me down not heart rate no just nothing feels werid or hurts so that's good