fuck my stupid chudlife

[Evilemofoid]

i ate twice today because i went out
i had a poutine on my date
and a veggie sub when i got home
thats an easy like 700 cals which is fucking gross
but everyone in the house is sleeping so i cant shower and binge and purge
so now i have to climb on my roof through my window and puke off my roof
why do i do this to myself why cant i have just eaten noirmally today and not like an obese fuckinmg freak

 

[Deleted Member 86515]

bro it’s all good just chill out and try to go to bed

 

[Mogden]

i ate twice today because i went out
i had a poutine on my date
and a veggie sub when i got home
thats an easy like 700 cals which is fucking gross
but everyone in the house is sleeping so i cant shower and binge and purge
so now i have to climb on my roof through my window and puke off my roof
why do i do this to myself why cant i have just eaten noirmally today and not like an obese fuckinmg freak

Try taking adderall. It’s eliminates the urge to throw up food cuz it eliminates the urge for you to eat. Also chew on ice wrapped in a towel.

 

[Evilemofoid]

bro it’s all good just chill out and try to go to bed

no i cant im scared im gonna wake up fat tommorow im really scared

 

[Evilemofoid]

Try taking adderall. It’s eliminates the urge to throw up food cuz it eliminates the urge for you to eat. Also chew on ice wrapped in a towel.

my problem isnt usually self control
i already have no appetite
first meal was to seem normal
and 2nd was simply for seratonin

 

[Deleted Member 86515]

no i cant im scared im gonna wake up fat tommorow im really scared

I understand, but there’s no need to freak out. You’ll be fine tomorrow

 

[Mogden]

my problem isnt usually self control
i already have no appetite
first meal was to seem normal
and 2nd was simply for seratonin

How much sleep do you get

 

[Evilemofoid]

How much sleep do you get

usually 4-5 hours

 

[Evilemofoid]

I understand, but there’s no need to freak out. You’ll be fine tomorrow

i feel like i can already feel weight on me it wont be fine i wont be fine

 

[KittyBreath]

i ate twice today because i went out
i had a poutine on my date
and a veggie sub when i got home
thats an easy like 700 cals which is fucking gross
but everyone in the house is sleeping so i cant shower and binge and purge
so now i have to climb on my roof through my window and puke off my roof
why do i do this to myself why cant i have just eaten noirmally today and not like an obese fuckinmg freak

calories is a horrible way to measure fat gain btw you gotta consider your age gender and how active you are and how fast your metabolism is and theres so much more stuff 700 calories isnt doing anything your probably going to lose weight

 

[Mogden]

usually 4-5 hours

Start taking melatonin to get 8 and force yourself to drink at least 3 glasses of water a day. Eat light vegetable based meals if you can. Avoid all heavy foods. Snack on iceberg lettuce or carrots

 

[Evilemofoid]

calories is a horrible way to measure fat gain btw you gotta consider your age gender and how active you are and how fast your metabolism is and theres so much more stuff 700 calories isnt doing anything your probably going to lose weight

no i am NAWT
im 15 5'5, I go on 1-2 hour walks everyday, and my metabolism is shit slow due to 6 year ed
i usually eat at MOST 100cals a day and im BARELY losing
700 is gonna fucking screw me so bad

 

[KittyBreath]

no i am NAWT
im 15 5'5, I go on 1-2 hour walks everyday, and my metabolism is shit slow due to 6 year ed
i usually eat at MOST 100cals a day and im BARELY losing
700 is gonna fucking screw me so bad

if your going to eat js eat meat your metabolism isnt going to work any better if your eating like that

 

[Evilemofoid]

if your going to eat js eat meat your metabolism isnt going to work any better if your eating like that

my eating disorder isnt purely weightloss based
im also just terrified of food
most of the time i have 0 appetite
sometimes ill bawl for hours if i even see food
very randomly ill get little specific cravings and be okay to eat
i cant just start eating meat
meats also a huge fear food for me its so gross

 

[Blackpillirony]

my eating disorder isnt purely weightloss based
im also just terrified of food
most of the time i have 0 appetite
sometimes ill bawl for hours if i even see food
very randomly ill get little specific cravings and be okay to eat
i cant just start eating meat
meats also a huge fear food for me its so gross

What do you like to eat ?

 

[Evilemofoid]

What do you like to eat ?

mostly specificly prepared veggies
shredded cucumber or carrot
diced pickle
sometimes just shredded lettuce

 

[Blackpillirony]

mostly specificly prepared veggies
shredded cucumber or carrot
diced pickle
sometimes just shredded lettuce

That's good, you can make a good salad to eat instead of skipping meals or making yourself puke

 

[pompompurino]

no i am NAWT
im 15 5'5, I go on 1-2 hour walks everyday, and my metabolism is shit slow due to 6 year ed
i usually eat at MOST 100cals a day and im BARELY losing
700 is gonna fucking screw me so bad

have u ever had binge eating issues?

 

[Evilemofoid]

That's good, you can make a good salad to eat instead of skipping meals or making yourself puke

its still very rare that i can even bring myself to eat
and either way isnt it much easier to throw up even tiny meals anyway?
every bit counts in my head

 

[Evilemofoid]

have u ever had binge eating issues?

i did for a little bit, when i was 14, my (basically) fiancee at the time had noticed i got freaky skinny and finally told me he liked bigger girls and threatened to leave if i didnt gain, so i ate like 5-7k cals a day, and went from around 75lbs to 160lbs in about 5 or 6 months
it was bad bad

 

[Blackpillirony]

its still very rare that i can even bring myself to eat
and either way isnt it much easier to throw up even tiny meals anyway?
every bit counts in my head

You're killing yourself, try to reflect on why you're so afraid of eating. Is it because of the modern Occidental beauty standards you've been subjected to since you were a little girl or is it something else ? Once you find why it'll be much easier to not be a victim of fear and killing yourself day by day instead of living your life, especially considering you're not even 16.

 

[slopslinger]

can't relate im skinny and don't think about food at all. but I ask you, the spiritually fat. how long do you think you can keep this up before you give in to your gluttonous impulses and end up obese?

 

[Evilemofoid]

You're killing yourself, try to reflect on why you're so afraid of eating. Is it because of the modern Occidental beauty standards you've been subjected to since you were a little girl or is it something else ? Once you find why it'll be much easier to not be a victim of fear and killing yourself day by day instead of living your life, especially considering you're not even 16.

im not sure even, i started starving myself around only 9
but
i grew up with a mom who was 250lbs, she always had guys just use her for her body and leave, and she never called herself pretty, and from the youngest i can remember i remember telling her i "never wanna be fluffy like mommy" she also kinda starved me and fatshamed me alot when i was younger to avoid me being like her so alot of it is prolly that
along with growing up being the chubby weird kid, always being the "fat" gf of cool skinny guys, and being exposed to blackpill at 12

 

[Blackpillirony]

im not sure even, i started starving myself around only 9
but
i grew up with a mom who was 250lbs, she always had guys just use her for her body and leave, and she never called herself pretty, and from the youngest i can remember i remember telling her i "never wanna be fluffy like mommy" she also kinda starved me and fatshamed me alot when i was younger to avoid me being like her so alot of it is prolly that
along with growing up being the chubby weird kid, always being the "fat" gf of cool skinny guys, and being exposed to blackpill at 12

Nice introspection ( no sarcasm ), now you gotta act on it. You gotta realize that being a victim of anorexia is just as bad as being a victim of obesity if not worse. Your body is still developing and it'll be much better that you get the calories and the nutrients you'd need. I promise, if you just get a decent diet without much junk you'd be perfectly fine in your alimentation. Hope you do better.

 

[zombiebeatz2006]

Fuck you

 

[cstcstcst]

my problem isnt usually self control
i already have no appetite
first meal was to seem normal
and 2nd was simply for seratonin

You're literally me jakdjska what the fuck

 

[matiaslikeseveryone]

i ate twice today because i went out
i had a poutine on my date
and a veggie sub when i got home
thats an easy like 700 cals which is fucking gross
but everyone in the house is sleeping so i cant shower and binge and purge
so now i have to climb on my roof through my window and puke off my roof
why do i do this to myself why cant i have just eaten noirmally today and not like an obese fuckinmg freak

just take mounjaro and eat like a pig that's what I do