is really what blackpilled me , when i was 14-15 i was the fattest i ever been and god the way i was treated was insane , i felt like everywhere i went people just saw me as a joke , constantly giggling whispering and shit , also around my "friends" i obviously was always the butt of the joke and had to humiliate myself to make them laugh constantly , after i lost all that weight , it felt so weird being treated with respect , it kinda felt off when people were just being nice to me without a little jab at the end , that's really what opened my eyes to the shallowness of this world , i grew up with this disney mindset that everyone can have a happy life if they're just nice to people , but truth is if you don't fit a certain standard you're look at as less than human . that's also when i started watching faceandlms and rehab room lol