Having a lot of issues with guilt and anxiety, like I'm doing something wrong or have the feeling that something is suddenly going to go wrong, like someone might attack me or yell at me suddenly, I kinda feel like a ticking time bomb like I'm going to just break soon or have an outburst of negative emotions, I have a lot of issues just like a lot of the people who frequent the forums, a lot of you know that I'm schizophrenic and I want to go off my meds because I feel like they're amplifying negative character traits like being anti social (the medication is known to do that), but if I feel like this now on the meds it would be ten times worse off the meds. Life is so difficult when you don't have much money or a vehicle to go anywhere, and I know some of you think I should get a job but its not that simple, it is but its also not, I try to avoid stress because it can cause me to have a psychotic episode where I have delusions, I even stopped playing most computer games because it was too stressful and frustrating, I called about a mental health appointment a while back and they never got back to me so I guess I will have to call again.
