gabethecat904
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I am a 16 year old male and my gf (now ex) is 16 aswell, takes place this summer.
I remember just hoping I would find a girl who loves me this year, well I did but first girl was a big bop, second girl was fat. My mom is fat so I dont really wanna hate, I just prefer someone who is more fit. So after a while of not talking to any girls, coming back to second semester a new girl comes to school, I didnt really think much of her, I see her sitting alone at lunch most of the times and in my last period. I never expected that she would like me, until one day in class after getting new seats and she now sits right across me. Firstly she complimented my jeans, I was a little nervous talked a little, and didnt really talk after that. It became obvious she liked me after that including the fact that other kids were telling me that she did. Eventually I would talk to her almost everyday during last period, till I built the confidence to ask for her instagram. We started hanging out during lunch and walking home together (she lives very close to me which was even better). About 2 months after talking to her I asked her out to be my girlfriend, she said yeah and it was great from there. We did agree on what we considered cheating, including watching porn. I thought that it would be easy to avoid that, even though I used to have a bad addiction to jerking off. Well I did not care about that rule later and I jerked off to porn, I never told her so it was good until she asked me if i did watch porn recently, I was honest and told her I did, thinking it wasnt a big deal. No suprise she was very upset and didnt talk to me for most of the day. I was very worried that she was gonna break up with me, I was also on adderall which didnt help( I use it recreationally, yes im kinda addicted to stimulants.) I was crying, getting mad, I was feeling a lot of emotions at the time and I did say some disrespectful stuff cant really remember since I was also high (weed) at this time. This was the first time I felt this way for someone, I felt almost obsessed with her which probably isnt that good, and because I wanted to goon I ruined it. We talked in person the next day, to which we broke up. I went home and started crying like a bitch I felt horrible, I started taking a lot of Adderall after this which really doesnt help, ive been doing better coping with these feelings though. There is more to this but thats all im gonna say for now.
This is not very detailed but just a story I wanted to share, ask questions or give advice, thanks for reading.
I remember just hoping I would find a girl who loves me this year, well I did but first girl was a big bop, second girl was fat. My mom is fat so I dont really wanna hate, I just prefer someone who is more fit. So after a while of not talking to any girls, coming back to second semester a new girl comes to school, I didnt really think much of her, I see her sitting alone at lunch most of the times and in my last period. I never expected that she would like me, until one day in class after getting new seats and she now sits right across me. Firstly she complimented my jeans, I was a little nervous talked a little, and didnt really talk after that. It became obvious she liked me after that including the fact that other kids were telling me that she did. Eventually I would talk to her almost everyday during last period, till I built the confidence to ask for her instagram. We started hanging out during lunch and walking home together (she lives very close to me which was even better). About 2 months after talking to her I asked her out to be my girlfriend, she said yeah and it was great from there. We did agree on what we considered cheating, including watching porn. I thought that it would be easy to avoid that, even though I used to have a bad addiction to jerking off. Well I did not care about that rule later and I jerked off to porn, I never told her so it was good until she asked me if i did watch porn recently, I was honest and told her I did, thinking it wasnt a big deal. No suprise she was very upset and didnt talk to me for most of the day. I was very worried that she was gonna break up with me, I was also on adderall which didnt help( I use it recreationally, yes im kinda addicted to stimulants.) I was crying, getting mad, I was feeling a lot of emotions at the time and I did say some disrespectful stuff cant really remember since I was also high (weed) at this time. This was the first time I felt this way for someone, I felt almost obsessed with her which probably isnt that good, and because I wanted to goon I ruined it. We talked in person the next day, to which we broke up. I went home and started crying like a bitch I felt horrible, I started taking a lot of Adderall after this which really doesnt help, ive been doing better coping with these feelings though. There is more to this but thats all im gonna say for now.
This is not very detailed but just a story I wanted to share, ask questions or give advice, thanks for reading.
