hating yourself deeply while also being overly obsessed with yourself is so tiring (nomi ramblings pt.13)

[nomi]

I hate everything about myself but majority of the day I'm focusing on my looks, my mannerisms, I stare in the mirror for at least 2 hours straight (daily) wondering why facial features look like that, making sure my lashes are always curled

me me me me is the only thing that really goes thru my head tbh, it's not even in a narcissistic way (from my pov) but it's like I'm jealous of myself but also hate myself at the same time..? it's so weird

and being a perfectionist doesn't make my situation any better

 

[Deleted Member 129933]

Yeah that’s what being a narcissist is

 

[nomi]

Yeah that’s what being a narcissist is

wait is this a bad thing
like I show tons of care towards other people and shit like that

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

I hate everything about myself but majority of the day I'm focusing on my looks, my mannerisms, I stare in the mirror for at least 2 hours straight (daily) wondering why facial features look like that, making sure my lashes are always curled

me me me me is the only thing that really goes thru my head tbh, it's not even in a narcissistic way (from my pov) but it's like I'm jealous of myself but also hate myself at the same time..? it's so weird

and being a perfectionist doesn't make my situation any better

Me but more literate

 

[nomi]

Me but more literate

what is your avi supposed to be

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

what is your avi supposed to be
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Some bullshit I cobbled together

 

[Gesandt]

I hate everything about myself but majority of the day I'm focusing on my looks, my mannerisms, I stare in the mirror for at least 2 hours straight (daily) wondering why facial features look like that, making sure my lashes are always curled

me me me me is the only thing that really goes thru my head tbh, it's not even in a narcissistic way (from my pov) but it's like I'm jealous of myself but also hate myself at the same time..? it's so weird

and being a perfectionist doesn't make my situation any better

bum

 

[nomi]

bum

butthead

 

[Gesandt]

butthead

butt on my face

 

[nomi]

butt on my face

booty face