he is right

[Barbie]

but like that hurt because 99.9% people feel the same/tell me the exact same but I can't shut the fuck up. I just have so much to say and nowhere to say it all.

 

[Deleted Member 88936]

Posting whatever it is that you wanna say is a good cope tbh cause whoever's bothered by it can just put you on ignore. Also not being able to stfu is another thing that's linked to adhd lol

 

[Barbie]

Posting whatever it is that you wanna say is a good cope tbh cause whoever's bothered by it can just put you on ignore. Also not being able to stfu is another thing that's linked to adhd lol

im just going to say fuck it and take adderall once a week

 

[Schizotypalcel]

adhd

so adhdcore and knowledgeable
Stfu r****d and let them go to a psych cause this can be many things like autism too

 

[Xyn]

your opinion matters

 

[rovea]

but like that hurt because 99.9% people feel the same/tell me the exact same but I can't shut the fuck up. I just have so much to say and nowhere to say it all.

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You just overthinking tbh

 

[Schizotypalcel]

im just going to say fuck it and take adderall once a week

Get a XR script of adderall 10 mg take daily every morning

 

[Barbie]

so adhdcore and knowledgeable
Stfu r****d and let them go to a psych cause this can be many things like autism too

people tell me all sort of different illnesses, it's all too much. I just want to crawl up into a hole and never go outside or speak again. I dont know what is wrong with me im sorry

 

[Deleted Member 88936]

so adhdcore and knowledgeable
Stfu r****d and let them go to a psych cause this can be many things like autism too

I mean it's objectively true that it's linked to adhd, I pointed it out cause that's a reoccurring trend in OP's posts. I don't get why you're being hostile

 

[Frickmychudlife]

Post whatever you want bro I’ll listen

 

[Barbie]

Get a XR script of adderall 10 mg take daily every morning

im scared of addiction if I get addicted ill die

 

[ADAM]

He is mean don’t listen to him

 

[Logicmaxxer]

I MISS TIMES WHEN BARBIE HAD AURA
我怀念芭比有光环的时代

 

[Schizotypalcel]

I mean it's objectively true that it's linked to adhd, I pointed it out cause that's a reoccurring trend in OP's posts. I don't get why you're being hostile

Autistic people sometimes post or talk a lot online as a way to express themselves freely, process thoughts externally, and get thoughts out that they can't in real words. ADHD people come to online spaces out of impulsivity and existential boredom, the impulse to share things overly is stimulation seeking which can be linked to autism as well.

You can't just say adhd is the only thing linked to stimulation seeking, she can have BPD if all we know going off that.

 

[Deleted Member 88936]

You can't just say adhd is the only thing linked to stimulation seeking

Thing is I never said that I really don't get what you're so mad about

 

[Barbie]

im scared of addiction if I get addicted ill die

also a psych and diagnosis is hard to find. option A) through the state which takes years and it is crappy option B) getting it private which is too expensive for someone like me. I dont want to get into my financial situation and blah blah but it is hard + everyone around me is evil and doesn't understand anything.

I can source adderall unethically but it is expensive and I'm naturally prone to addiction. if I get addicted I dont know what ill do I already have so many problems

 

[Barbie]

I MISS TIMES WHEN BARBIE HAD AURA
我怀念芭比有光环的时代

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Die

 

[Schizotypalcel]

Thing is I never said that I really don't get what you're so mad about

I'm not pressed it's how i interact, stimulation seeking is overly expressive gestures and oversharing impulsively, objectively.

 

[Barbie]

I need to fucking delete my .com account

 

[Barbie]

also a psych and diagnosis is hard to find. option A) through the state which takes years and it is crappy option B) getting it private which is too expensive for someone like me. I dont want to get into my financial situation and blah blah but it is hard + everyone around me is evil and doesn't understand anything.

I can source adderall unethically but it is expensive and I'm naturally prone to addiction. if I get addicted I dont know what ill do I already have so many problems

its like I know what to do but I'm not allowed to do anything, I feel oppressed

 

[ADAM]

I need to fucking delete my .com account

first give me your snap

 

[Schizotypalcel]

its like I know what to do but I'm not allowed to do anything, I feel oppressed

I feel that, you feel everything is being laid out in front of you but no option to conquer it.
It happens, that's life, you just have to keep trying at it. A different route to your problems and the only way to figure this out is through self reflection not someone's spontaneous word usage to make you feel better or you will fall into the same hole again.

 

[Logicmaxxer]

I need to fucking delete my .com account

 

[apatheia]

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its like I know what to do but I'm not allowed to do anything, I feel oppressed

Do you mean on .com, real life or both? Because if it is .com who cares.

 

[Paolo Maldini]

He is mean don’t listen to him

Thank you

 

[Barbie]

I feel that, you feel everything is being laid out in front of you but no option to conquer it.
It happens, that's life, you just have to keep trying at it. A different route to your problems and the only way to figure this out is through self reflection not someone's spontaneous word usage to make you feel better or you will fall into the same hole again.

thanks but the more I think about myself the more I want to crawl up and die, I think its better to just distract myself from the real world but then what happens when I have to do actually do things. when I Get a chance to live a real life I won't be able to do it so now im stuck in crossroads for such a long time. yeah ill distract myself but then once in a while I just get impulsive and have the urge to just throw everything to shit like even these posts I feel horrible because im usually so private but I feel impulsive and just need to say this all. ive always had this cycle even irl I just dont know anything anymore

 

[Barbie]

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Do you mean on .com, real life or both? Because if it is .com who cares.

Everywhere

 

[Barbie]

first give me your snap

I already have the biggest crush in the world that will eventually destroy me so fuck off

 

[Barbie]

making threads like these are pointless I should learn better, no one can help me only pity which I fucking detest

 

[Schizotypalcel]

thanks but the more I think about myself the more I want to crawl up and die, I think its better to just distract myself from the real world but then what happens when I have to do actually do things. when I Get a chance to live a real life I won't be able to do it so now im stuck in crossroads for such a long time. yeah ill distract myself but then once in a while I just get impulsive and have the urge to just throw everything to shit like even these posts I feel horrible because im usually so private but I feel impulsive and just need to say this all. ive always had this cycle even irl I just dont know anything anymore

Does mental health issues run in your family?
This sounds like a influx of just depression and self sabotaging behavior due to maybe a perfection you are chasing that no one gets in this life.. You have to understand, that no matter how much you conquer in a time span that you think wasn't good enough is. You get good, you throw it away, not because you think it's useless or that you aren't good enough, but because you are tired and afraid of stepping out of your comfort zone, that being crawling into a hole and wanting to die.

Nothin in this life is meant to be perfect, it's a route of who does what 'best' where how and when. Some people don't even get that chance and 'best' is what they make of their lives. There is no answer to life, there is only what you make of it. And impulsivity isn't always a main factor, it's something deeper you need to think about or the cycle will continue dramatically or not.

 

[Barbie]

Does mental health issues run in your family?

Yes but denied

This sounds like a influx of just depression and self sabotaging behavior due to maybe a perfection you are chasing that no one gets in this life.

I never self sabotage on purpose. idk there is too much to unpack I want to run away actually. But no one has large expectations of me. I want simple things but no one lets me have them. Ugh I cant there is too much I dont want to trauma dump on this shit forum.

You have to understand, that no matter how much you conquer in a time span that you think wasn't good enough is.

I cant physically conquer anything but one day I'll have to do scary things that people want me to do. I want to do other things but I'll never do it because my life is like a cult. I feel like an unironic cult member. Someone tells me what to do and ill just have to do it.

You get good, you throw it away,

The good things I get leave me, im insufferable. no one stays with me for a long time and I dont blame them. I have a lack of good things in my life but im okay with it except for emotional moments because when I have good im scared and get neurotic that good will leave me. if I do get good things, I will have to throw it away not because I want to but because I have to because they will be hurt and I would rather stab myself 1000000 times then hurt the good people in my life. Im just a fucking cuck.

not because you think it's useless or that you aren't good enough, but because you are tired and afraid of stepping out of your comfort zone, that being crawling into a hole and wanting to die.

True to an extent but im physically censored and trapped. to leave my comfort zone is much bigger than someone else's comfort zone, its too much I cant say and it isn't a competition

Nothin in this life is meant to be perfect, it's a route of who does what 'best' where how and when. Some people don't even get that chance and 'best' is what they make of their lives. There is no answer to life, there is only what you make of it.

yeah, thanks

And impulsivity isn't always a main factor, it's something deeper you need to think about or the cycle will continue dramatically or not.

im thinking back to old moments, whenever ive been vulnerable or tried to get help ive been ignored by everyone, no one takes me seriously and everyone enjoys watching me suffer. to be impulsive is to feel something that isn't sadness or oppression yeah idk its just a ramble

 

[Barbie]

why do some people enjoy being mean to the people they love

 

[Schizotypalcel]

to be impulsive is to feel something that isn't sadness or oppression yeah idk its just a ramble

I wish i had answers, we have a similar situation.
It's a time game, and you gotta be ready to jump on any opportunity taht comes forth.

 

[Barbie]

I wish i had answers, we have a similar situation.
It's a time game, and you gotta be ready to jump on any opportunity taht comes forth.

one day ill change but today ill cry

 

[a1adenn]

but like that hurt because 99.9% people feel the same/tell me the exact same but I can't shut the fuck up. I just have so much to say and nowhere to say it all.

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[Barbie]

why do some people enjoy being mean to the people they love

Like how can you be so violent to someone so innocent that is not fair or right

 

[a1adenn]

Like how can you be so violent to someone so innocent that is not fair or right