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Hey everyone, I feel like it's a bit late to introduce myself, knowing that I've been on the website for quite some time now, I wanted to do it nevertheless. Sorry for a long post in advance.
This will be also an apology for the mess that I've done or the messages that might have annoyed or irritated anyone. I wanted to leave a little piece of myself or of whatever that is left.
I'm Arzzey, 20, male and I'm from Ukraine, Kharkiv, the second largest city in Ukraine 30 km away from the border.
Ever since I've gotten into loksmaxxing/blackpill it has been a fascinating thing for me, and it has helped me a lot getting through the stuff that I've had in my life. Considering even more personal things that I won't share here.
I have started it all about 4 years ago with mewing, and in 2025 I began to work on myself harder, with much more effort. I'm currently working on my physique, diet and lifestyle habits to optimize my looks in a healty way.
I have tried my best to stay critical and objective, without hate or any prejudice. Tried to help out using the knowledge I had. I don't think im grey anymore as my ratings have gotten much more accurate, so I guess that should make me feel better.
I am currently working on a thesis on softmaxxing that I want to share with you all to make some sort of a contribution to the community. And I am ttrying my best to make it good and informative, to share the info I will find to help us all ascend. It focuses on skincare, techniques and all the stuff I can find through research. If you want me to go in detail about something specific just let me know!
It hasn't really been all good ever since the Covid started, the lack of interaction just took me and put me inside out. It has been going down ever since. The night when the war started was when the switch flipped, I was in denial but then after seeing and living through more and more of that hell just gradually torn my soul down. It has left a big scar on my life and my perception of self and I don't think that will ever go away. I didn't choose it.
I just lost the ability to feel happy. I just can't do it. No matter what I do. I don't feel anything but the nothingness gnawing in my stomach. Been numb ever since. I need something to hold on to just to not disconnect every 5 minutes and lose my own self. That's why I took the personality I had, I tried different new things out and I think I was acting a little bit off.
I just wanted to be a part of a commuity and feel like I matter to someone. I am trying a lot of different things in life to make it as bright as possible, not looking at all the bad things that happened before. I am sorry if I have been annoying to any of you or has been saying shit, I just wanted to be noticed. I will try to work on that. And I really hope that one day I will be able to recover just a slightest bit to feel a bit of happiness like before.
So, please, don't judge me very hard, I really don't want to stress anyone out or make a mess, it's all on me.
Thank you for reading to this point, I really appreciate it.
Take care everyone.
This will be also an apology for the mess that I've done or the messages that might have annoyed or irritated anyone. I wanted to leave a little piece of myself or of whatever that is left.
I'm Arzzey, 20, male and I'm from Ukraine, Kharkiv, the second largest city in Ukraine 30 km away from the border.
Ever since I've gotten into loksmaxxing/blackpill it has been a fascinating thing for me, and it has helped me a lot getting through the stuff that I've had in my life. Considering even more personal things that I won't share here.
I have started it all about 4 years ago with mewing, and in 2025 I began to work on myself harder, with much more effort. I'm currently working on my physique, diet and lifestyle habits to optimize my looks in a healty way.
I have tried my best to stay critical and objective, without hate or any prejudice. Tried to help out using the knowledge I had. I don't think im grey anymore as my ratings have gotten much more accurate, so I guess that should make me feel better.
I am currently working on a thesis on softmaxxing that I want to share with you all to make some sort of a contribution to the community. And I am ttrying my best to make it good and informative, to share the info I will find to help us all ascend. It focuses on skincare, techniques and all the stuff I can find through research. If you want me to go in detail about something specific just let me know!
It hasn't really been all good ever since the Covid started, the lack of interaction just took me and put me inside out. It has been going down ever since. The night when the war started was when the switch flipped, I was in denial but then after seeing and living through more and more of that hell just gradually torn my soul down. It has left a big scar on my life and my perception of self and I don't think that will ever go away. I didn't choose it.
I just lost the ability to feel happy. I just can't do it. No matter what I do. I don't feel anything but the nothingness gnawing in my stomach. Been numb ever since. I need something to hold on to just to not disconnect every 5 minutes and lose my own self. That's why I took the personality I had, I tried different new things out and I think I was acting a little bit off.
I just wanted to be a part of a commuity and feel like I matter to someone. I am trying a lot of different things in life to make it as bright as possible, not looking at all the bad things that happened before. I am sorry if I have been annoying to any of you or has been saying shit, I just wanted to be noticed. I will try to work on that. And I really hope that one day I will be able to recover just a slightest bit to feel a bit of happiness like before.
So, please, don't judge me very hard, I really don't want to stress anyone out or make a mess, it's all on me.
Thank you for reading to this point, I really appreciate it.
Take care everyone.
