Discussion Hey i just wanted to tell you this one thing

[Orobas]

I guess i use food as a way to feel a sense of safety and belonging. It’s very easy to access and doesn’t kill you immediately. It just makes you fat and it’s impact is therefore less noticeable. But now that i’m on a diet i have less access to food or well maybe i do have access to it but it’s out of reach i because chose so. That makes me feel depressed in a way that i don’t usually feel. It’s kind of an experience that you can look forward to and escape to but i don’t intend to do that. I intend to improve myself and that makes me a better person.

 

[nomi]

I guess i use food as a way to feel a sense of safety and belonging. It’s very easy to access and doesn’t kill you immediately. It just makes you fat and it’s impact is therefore less noticeable. But now that i’m on a diet i have less access to food or well maybe i do have access to it but it’s out of reach i because chose so. That makes me feel depressed in a way that i don’t usually feel. It’s kind of an experience that you can look forward to and escape to but i don’t intend to do that. I intend to improve myself and that makes me a better person.

what

 

[Orobas]

what

Here we are

 

[LeoK]

Yea I don’t like fat people

 

[Orobas]

Yea I don’t like fat people

I’m not even fat for my height (195cm) 90kg i just want to be thin

 

[wildfrost11]

if u get too much inti this shit u will start feeling guikty and bad after you eat something “unnecessary”

 

[LeoK]

I’m not even fat for my height (195cm) 90kg i just want to be thin

I think that’s good for your height though

 

[Orobas]

if u get too much inti this shit u will start feeling guikty and bad after you eat something “unnecessary”

Bullimia wins the day when that happens

 

[wildfrost11]

Bullimia wins the day when that happens

what is that

 

[Orobas]

I think that’s good for your height though

Thanks. I want to go to 86kg until the end of the month. Which is still too much but it’s the only weight goal i can motivate myself for because it’s close enough.

 

[Orobas]

what is that

I actually have a way to push food back up without puking. It’s kind of useful but disgusting. But Bulimia is just eating then puking.

 

[wildfrost11]

I actually have a way to push food back up without puking. It’s kind of useful but disgusting. But Bulimia is just eating then puking.

how to take it out without puking?

 

[Orobas]

how to take it out without puking?

Rumination syndrome

 

[wildfrost11]

Rumination syndrome

what is that

 

[viasco]

ik you be studying ts mane. your reddening process wont advance forward if you cant master control over the self. the way you express your feelings doesnt matter fr just focus on the root of the problem yk. control your emotions brother

 

[Orobas]

how to take it out without puking?

I don’t even know if you can learn to do it. It’s just

what is that

It feels like you first tighten your stomach muscles from bottom up while causing a vacuum with your throat. I’m not sure tbh its just a thing i can do

 

[wildfrost11]

I don’t even know if you can learn to do it. It’s just

It feels like you first tighten your stomach muscles from bottom up while causing a vacuum with your throat. I’m not sure tbh its just a thing i can do

how is this not puking?

 

[Orobas]

how is this not puking?

the food tastes the same because it hasnt been digested. your not having that disgusting stomach acid it just water and food but it has to be shortly after eating.

 

[viasco]

the food tastes the same because it hasnt been digested. your not having that disgusting stomach acid it just water and food but it has to be shortly after eating.

bro youre puking

 

[Orobas]

the food tastes the same because it hasnt been digested. your not having that disgusting stomach acid it just water and food but it has to be shortly after eating.

puking is a disgust reflex. this isnt that at all. its not a reflex i can control it

 

[Orobas]

bro youre puking

thats not puking

 

[viasco]

puking is a disgust reflex. this isnt that at all. its not a reflex i can control it

brother
you
are
throwing
up
your
food
that
is
puking

 

[wildfrost11]

the food tastes the same because it hasnt been digested. your not having that disgusting stomach acid it just water and food but it has to be shortly after eating.

dude instead of this u can just chew and spit tbf

 

[Orobas]

brother
you
are
throwing
up
your
food
that
is
puking

nope. i can rechew my food multiple times even when im just walking somewhere. thats not puking. its regurgitating

 

[Orobas]

dude instead of this u can just chew and spit tbf

ye its disgusting obviously

 

[viasco]

nope. i can rechew my food multiple times even when im just walking somewhere. thats not puking. its regurgitating

ok. im sorry youre so right