u can read it or u dont need to idc.
what i said: "can i be honest i rlly think we should break up and im sorry for all the pain and false hope ive put you through. I think i just didnt want to let go of you but after the whole argument I feel like we arent good for each other and i rlly dont want this to turn into a big convo again but i dont feel a romantic connection with you like i used to. and im so sorry"
bpi's words:
"I mean you aren't willing to say anything real so we can at least end on good terms. And yeah I want you to feel guilty in some way so you can at least feel as shitty as me off a while." AND "I mean if you don't want to explain then I just have to cope to make this less painful and think you never liked me like you used to claim when we were on the verge of breaking up. I mean yeah these words still stuck to me but I still was willing to continue what we had with you. I also thought I couldn't like you like I used to but after 2-3 days I loved you like nothing changed. I saved money to see you y'know, I really wanted to meet you. When we were about to go back together I specifically told you if you really wanted to and to not give me false hopes so idk I feel played and used. I don't know if I was too persistent or insecure. Can't you just say all you hate about me to make it easier ?"
mine:
"I hear what you’re saying, and I can see how much pain and confusion this is causing you. I know it feels like I’ve been leading you on, and for that, I am truly sorry.The truth is, when we got back together, I really did believe we could make it work. When I told you I loved you and missed you, I meant it with everything I had at the time. I wasn't trying to be manipulative or pull you back in just to let you go again since I was genuinely trying to hold onto what we had because I didn't want to lose you.But as we moved forward, I started feeling things I didn't know how to put into words. I couldn't quite explain even to myself. I realize now that by staying silent and not telling you exactly what I was feeling as it happened, I took away your chance to understand where we stood. I thought I was protecting us by trying to push through those feelings, but I see now that it only made things more confusing for you.
I understand why you feel let down, especially after you specifically asked me if I was sure. I own that I wasn't as honest with myself as I should have been, and I hate that you’re the one paying the price for my own lack of clarity. You deserved more transparency than I was able to give you, and I’m deeply sorry for the hurt this has caused. But I also did talk about how I felt and I've said im kind of unsure in the first place, I explained to you already WHY I am breaking up with you and I think this conversation has confirmed my thoughts. I expected our conversation yesterday to be our last and it wasn't, and since you dont want to end it here i will do it for you by leaving the pm. Goodbye have a good day."
wasnt even being manipulative. i explained why i broke up with you in the kindest way possible bro.