doyekz195
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i struggled talking with others and getting to know them deeper since kindergarten. i've never really been much talkative in my life. the only person i have proper convos with is my mom (deep and actually informative) and on rare occasions my brother (repetitive lectures). he told me to have MY OWN opinion on things but never share it with my environment, as they can and will disagree hard. i asked him "if you can't share your full and honest opinion on something with your friends, does that not mean that you're in the wrong environment?". he said "you need first get to know them to see if you're in the wrong place. try to be friends with all kinds of people". and im not sure but he also said something like "act the way THEY are around THEM but be yourself when you're not with them". now i let him continue, but after he left a question appeared in my head:
if i have to fake some part of my identity in front of them just so i can fit in, does that not mean they're not the people i should be around with?
i live in a country where a very minority of people think like me. i don't wanna be friends with just everyone and anyone. and i cant seem to find like-minded individuals. yet when i do it turns out that they're a bad person or their beliefs do not match with this country's so im not allowed to talk with them.
however, my brother DID help me make SOME quote unquote "friends". although i do not like being around them a single bit. yet when i go out with him and his friends it's as if im a side dude who's there just to be there. we do not share anything in common. i'm being mentioned around them only for my recent wrongdoings or some dumb shit i did on accident 3 years ago. yet he asks me "why arent you talking with them?". hm, i wonder.
the only friends i have are online yet we barely talk. i mean it's much easier for me to make friends ONLINE than OFFLINE, but it doesnt feel the same. because online you can just ask "i think you're really cool can we be friends?" but offline you need go and ask "yo bro where did you get that [something you noticed about them]?'. it's like the halo effect where you see a person with a cool outfit and think they must be pretty cool but end up being the worst imaginable person ever.
any advice?
if i have to fake some part of my identity in front of them just so i can fit in, does that not mean they're not the people i should be around with?
i live in a country where a very minority of people think like me. i don't wanna be friends with just everyone and anyone. and i cant seem to find like-minded individuals. yet when i do it turns out that they're a bad person or their beliefs do not match with this country's so im not allowed to talk with them.
however, my brother DID help me make SOME quote unquote "friends". although i do not like being around them a single bit. yet when i go out with him and his friends it's as if im a side dude who's there just to be there. we do not share anything in common. i'm being mentioned around them only for my recent wrongdoings or some dumb shit i did on accident 3 years ago. yet he asks me "why arent you talking with them?". hm, i wonder.
the only friends i have are online yet we barely talk. i mean it's much easier for me to make friends ONLINE than OFFLINE, but it doesnt feel the same. because online you can just ask "i think you're really cool can we be friends?" but offline you need go and ask "yo bro where did you get that [something you noticed about them]?'. it's like the halo effect where you see a person with a cool outfit and think they must be pretty cool but end up being the worst imaginable person ever.
any advice?
