How GOD has cuckolded me.

[50pushupseverymorning]

How YHWH has cuckolded me. Firstly I respect God a lot. Secondly, this is how God has cucked me.

He knew in the future due to all my trauma or perhaps just because I am a sick fuck with these fetishes, I would read and goon to smutt cuck stories of Mary mother of Jesus. For this, he has foreknew and punished me in my life.

For instance: I am such a heavy porn addict from 9 years old, I can rarely get hard with a girl, my hormones are so fucked up and beta, the few times I can fuck a ugly girl, I go hard, but God purposely made it so when I am with a hot girl, grinding with them at the club, or a party, the FEW chances I get, or a hot teen girl is in my bed, I can never get hard or horny. My testosterone, my libido is tanked. My brain is desenstized.
I developed severe PTSD, in which once I went to a bar on New Years and a blonde girl with a nice ass grinded on me after praying to me, since I looked like Jesus with my long hair. I moved away... I didn't want do it for the 100th time and NOT have a boner. I went in fight or flight mode, I couldn't think only run run run run. PANIC

Or the time I was high,, embracing the moment the edibles kicking in at a bar.. I'm dancing happy. A blonde girl sees me and smiles... we talk, she laughs, she asks me what's my name, cuz of my cool fun energy she sensed.

I later walk away, I LEAVE because I know it'll end bad all the time.
Girl sees I can't get hard, leaves.

 

[BigDihDiddy]

Ong n***a even Hitler, Stalin and Genghis Kong will suffer less than a n***a rubbing it to that

Can’t even say the words

 

[over0]

I don't think that's on god My g

 

[rovea]

@DNR

 

[vespertine]

dodging accountability like you're in the matrix.

 

[BigDihDiddy]

dodging accountability like you're in the matrix.

I swear not even lucifer would go that far tbh n***a making him look good

 

[its0ver]

I swear not even lucifer would go that far tbh n***a making him look good

Ngl yes he would? satan would kill God if he could while op says he respects God. You really are a toxic pos may God have mercy on you.

 

[its0ver]

So sorry bro that sucks. And lay off the porn ik you struggling with it g.

 

[BigDihDiddy]

Ngl yes he would? satan would kill God if he could while op says he respects God. You really are a toxic pos may God have mercy on you.

n***a OP IS LOOKING AT A STATUE OF MARRY AND BEATING HIS MEAT TO IT!!??

Id respect a n***a who wanna kill me more than him jerking off to my mom n***a wih

 

[its0ver]

n***a OP IS LOOKING AT A STATUE OF MARRY AND BEATING HIS MEAT TO IT!!??

Oh that's as bad as satan ok fuck off kid. He's clearly regretful

 

[wildfrost11]

tough shit

 

[its0ver]

n***a OP IS LOOKING AT A STATUE OF MARRY AND BEATING HIS MEAT TO IT!!??

Id respect a n***a who wanna kill me more than him jerking off to my mom n***a wih

Wow that's so fucked up for you to say that that's actually just being a negative Piece of shit to OP ngl. Trying to make him feel bad nah honestly kys