How I realized bp and where you were raised decides you whole life

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This is what I look like at 19-20 (6'1, Ethnicity is German-Nigerian), I grew up in a high GDP city, which led to me being NT through puberty due to consistent social stimulation from school, parties, and being a athlete. Before going to college, I took a copious amount of shrooms not knowing it would completely shatter my inner ego and once it did I discovered bp. It forced me to recognize that every moment I have lived has been the way it has just because of my face and frame. I want help from anyone on these forums who has ascended at all, I've tried every softmaxx there is and I know there's a gap I need to cover before I can hit CL. If you see this and you have any serious tips shoot me a pm.