i’m filled with hate and envy, i find it hard to appreciate what i have been given in life and always find something wrong no matter what i do. i hate myself, i hate others (mostly out of envy), and i hate the world. im filled with all of this terrible negativity and im not sure where it came from or how to stop feeling so much hate. i find myself hating and wishing ill on people who haven’t really done me any wrong simply because i envy them or believe they don’t deserve to live a good life and be happy because im not. its very childish and immature but honestly i dont know where it comes from like what is causing me to feel this way.