actually im not even sure, as a kid i was really sweet to everyone, then ppl took advantage of it and ive experienced lots of bs which made me change when i was around 12? and then at some point i was full of hatred and knew nothing else, then it got better and i was sweet again and all, then somehow everything got to me after a while again. Well now im not really hateful im actually doing good so far, but i also cant help it and i just try my best to hide it. Letting it out made me feel worse, not bc i felt bad for sm but bc things from there with others just got worse yk


so yeah i try to hide it and yk make the best of it.
cant really tell if it gets better 100% since its still a part of me now so ig its a cycle