I’m tired of sinning

[Luffy]

I fail to appreciate the love and support that my God has given me constantly. The loneliness I have can be filled my God, but instead I fill it with sin and sorrow. And everytime I ask myself the same question, why? Why do I sin? Why can’t I control myself? Why can’t I stop lusting and watching porn? Why am I such a failure? Idk the answer too these questions, but Ik my God does. And yet I still continue to rely on myself and not prayer. Ik I have to pray if I feel lustful but I don’t, I let my hormones and my flesh get the best of me everytime. And this sin just leads me into deeper and deeper depression, regret, and overall horrible state of mind. And I hate the fact that I feel like I used Jesus’s sacrifice as a get out of jail free card m, when I know it’s much more than that, it’s a symbol of his love and his compassion. I will change for the better no matter how long it takes, my faith must grow for me to want to live.

TLDR: I tried of fail God and coming short of his glory. And sin leads me to a bad mental state. I must stop

 

[Br4va]

Fr