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i wasnt there in 2018-2024, i barely know surface level people and i barely looksmaxx, i am stuck with a long ass midface and the cognitive ability of a doctor and engineer, i cant focus on anything and i know that i will never be able to afford the surgerys i need, i dont know if im growing or just loosing my shit, i have a 18 inch bidlet and that will never change, i am addicted to so many things and they are genuinly ruining my life, everythime i make a connection i always end up being the looser incel of the group, i dont know why i was born this way. i dont understand social cues and i cannot understand how other people think/feel, i am being led by my emotions like a pig with a carrot and i cant decide on if its over or if i am the best humen that ever existed, i used to be a normal kid but since corona i wasnt able to talk to people the same and was just a looser since then. i am a fucking r****d, i cant read and hear what other people say and i keep coping with the fact that "maybe im just a late bloomer" meanwhile deep down i know that i will end up alone and dead like all the other times. i cope with the fact that i can just gymmax and make connections there but i know that it will never be more then a surface level relationship. i keep larping about things that dont matter anywhere and it doesnt even matter becauce people know that i always lie. i dont know who i am what i want. im a dissapointment to my parents and im just wasting money for eating the food they cooked, the only reason i am still here is bc im scared to end it all. i cant bring myself to do anything, i dont have any real talents and if i do have any i dont do them enough for it to make a differance, i am gifted and could have achived so much but now its to late and i will never achive anything and amount to nothing