i cant do this anymore

[mango_nectar]

i was doomed since the day i was born. im autistic and shit at speaking to people. i have no friends noone ever really checks up on me. i feel like such a waste of space. im going to be alone for the rest of my stupid life. noone has ever asked me out or had a crush on me irl. im going to live and die alone. there is no hope for me to be happy anymore. ive been alone for most of my life and i just cant do this anymore. im tired of being bullied and teased just for being born. i didnt choose to be born and it pisses me off so bad that my parents gave birth to me. if they just didnt give birth i wouldnt have to go through all of this bullshit. i hope reincarnation is real hopefully ill have a better life idk. i would kill myself but all of the medication and sharp objects are locked up in a safe i cant break in. im so stupid i should of just killed myself back then when i had the chance

 

[Deleted Member 128134]

i was doomed since the day i was born. im autistic and shit at speaking to people. i have no friends noone ever really checks up on me. i feel like such a waste of space. im going to be alone for the rest of my stupid life. noone has ever asked me out or had a crush on me irl. im going to live and die alone. there is no hope for me to be happy anymore. ive been alone for most of my life and i just cant do this anymore. im tired of being bullied and teased just for being born. i didnt choose to be born and it pisses me off so bad that my parents gave birth to me. if they just didnt give birth i wouldnt have to go through all of this bullshit. i hope reincarnation is real hopefully ill have a better life idk. i would kill myself but all of the medication and sharp objects are locked up in a safe i cant break in. im so stupid i should of just killed myself back then when i had the chance

This forum still got you. I'm glad it's a safe space enough for you to vent.

 

[mango_nectar]

This forum still got you. I'm glad it's a safe space enough for you to vent.

alot of people here want me dead for legit no reason tbh. its not really a safe space but its like the only space i can vent cuz i dont have anywhere else

 

[Deleted Member 128134]

alot of people here want me dead for legit no reason tbh. its not really a safe space but its like the only space i can vent cuz i dont have anywhere else

A lot of users there are assholes for shit and giggles because they have nothing going on in their life, and they think hiding behind an anonymous identity is going to protect them from the mean shit they say to others; in real life, they're all cowards and quiet, they never have the courage to say this to anyone infront of them. It's like giving a wig to a cat, so it can pass as a lion.

 

[Nothing.special]

dude i was gonna kms but pussied out

 

[Deleted Member 128134]

dude i was gonna kms but pussied out

Whatever pulled you back have saved your life.

 

[Deleted Member 115357]

@#sensitiveyoungwoman must be genuinely happy reading all ur going through

 

[mango_nectar]

@#sensitiveyoungwoman must be genuinely happy reading all ur going through

yeah idk why she hates me so bad even after i apologised and stopped being annoying

 

[Nothing.special]

yeah idk why she hates me so bad even after i apologised and stopped being annoying

she hates me now too

 

[mango_nectar]

dude i was gonna kms but pussied out

glad you didnt do it. as much as death can be seen as a pleasing way to get rid of all of your problems there will always be other ways never give up hope i promise

 

[h4untara]

hope it gets better for you

 

[CesarZet]

I also feel like my life is shit and I want to kill myself. I hope things get better someday

I hope your days go by faster so you don't have to suffer all that crap

 

[h4untara]

I also feel like my life is shit and I want to kill myself.

this

 

[sensitiveyoungwoman]

she hates me now too

I hate you cause you wanted to kys

 

[sensitiveyoungwoman]

I hate you cause you wanted to kys

Not anymore

 

[sensitiveyoungwoman]

@#sensitiveyoungwoman must be genuinely happy reading all ur going through

Not really, I only hate people for some reasons, but at some points, when they need help, I’m still there for them

 

[Rololongs]

alot of people here want me dead for legit no reason tbh. its not really a safe space but its like the only space i can vent cuz i dont have anywhere else

yo what

 

[mango_nectar]

I also feel like my life is shit and I want to kill myself. I hope things get better someday

I hope your days go by faster so you don't have to suffer all that crap

thanks i hope you feel better oneday ,noone deserves to feel like this

 

[mango_nectar]

yo what

idk people are just mad asf here and take it out on other people and i happen to be a common target

 

[Rololongs]

idk people are just mad asf here and take it out on other people and i happen to be a common target

i'm sorry if i ever caused any harm to you over your time here

 

[mango_nectar]

i'm sorry if i ever caused any harm to you over your time here

its okay i dont think you were one of the people who were mean to me, cant really remember the people off the top of my head tho so idk

 

[Dancin]

i was doomed since the day i was born. im autistic and shit at speaking to people. i have no friends noone ever really checks up on me. i feel like such a waste of space. im going to be alone for the rest of my stupid life. noone has ever asked me out or had a crush on me irl. im going to live and die alone. there is no hope for me to be happy anymore. ive been alone for most of my life and i just cant do this anymore. im tired of being bullied and teased just for being born. i didnt choose to be born and it pisses me off so bad that my parents gave birth to me. if they just didnt give birth i wouldnt have to go through all of this bullshit. i hope reincarnation is real hopefully ill have a better life idk. i would kill myself but all of the medication and sharp objects are locked up in a safe i cant break in. im so stupid i should of just killed myself back then when i had the chance

foids when they only get 200 notifs and 8 cold approaches a day instead of the usual 300 notifs and 10 cold approaches

 

[mango_nectar]

foids when they only get 200 notifs and 8 cold approaches a day instead of the usual 300 notifs and 10 cold approaches

bro i barely get any notifications and noone approaches me in public

 

[Rololongs]

bro i barely get any notifications and noone approaches me in public

I think you should of censored the phone number

 

[mango_nectar]

I think you should of censored the phone number

yeah forgot abt that thanks

 

[Rololongs]

yeah forgot abt that thanks

No problem

 

[Nothing.special]

I hate you cause you wanted to kys

dude i have nothing left

 

[yyoloo]

i was doomed since the day i was born. im autistic and shit at speaking to people. i have no friends noone ever really checks up on me. i feel like such a waste of space. im going to be alone for the rest of my stupid life. noone has ever asked me out or had a crush on me irl. im going to live and die alone. there is no hope for me to be happy anymore. ive been alone for most of my life and i just cant do this anymore. im tired of being bullied and teased just for being born. i didnt choose to be born and it pisses me off so bad that my parents gave birth to me. if they just didnt give birth i wouldnt have to go through all of this bullshit. i hope reincarnation is real hopefully ill have a better life idk. i would kill myself but all of the medication and sharp objects are locked up in a safe i cant break in. im so stupid i should of just killed myself back then when i had the chance

it’s a struggle but even if it’s unconventional there’s so many people here that you could talk to or atleast relate to

 

[Cuckㅤ]

lmao, fucking ND softy faggots.

 

[yyoloo]

lmao, fucking ND softy faggots.

ur on the nd site wtf do u expect

 

[trueltbb]

foids when they only get 200 notifs and 8 cold approaches a day instead of the usual 300 notifs and 10 cold approaches

SOME men not being able to grasp the fact that women can be lonely too

 

[Cuckㅤ]

ur on the nd site wtf do u expect

Saar im autistic and that makes life impossible because im not like everyone else that is very much uniquely different!

It's so hard being me, I sit in my room all day with no will to practice and self pity is the only ruminating i do instead of figuring out ways to better my situations!

 

[yyoloo]

Saar im autistic and that makes life impossible because im not like everyone else that is very much uniquely different!

It's so hard being me, I sit in my room all day with no will to practice and self pity is the only ruminating i do instead of figuring out ways to better my situations!

well i’m not autistic so i wouldn’t know how it is

 

[Cuckㅤ]

well i’m not autistic so i wouldn’t know how it is

Yah and people that claim their deprived lifestyle like this don't deserve help, they deserve pity.

They lived their entire life getting told they are the way they are because of a mental illness, now it's the only thing they can talk about.

 

[i<3cats]

i was doomed since the day i was born. im autistic and shit at speaking to people. i have no friends noone ever really checks up on me. i feel like such a waste of space. im going to be alone for the rest of my stupid life. noone has ever asked me out or had a crush on me irl. im going to live and die alone. there is no hope for me to be happy anymore. ive been alone for most of my life and i just cant do this anymore. im tired of being bullied and teased just for being born. i didnt choose to be born and it pisses me off so bad that my parents gave birth to me. if they just didnt give birth i wouldnt have to go through all of this bullshit. i hope reincarnation is real hopefully ill have a better life idk. i would kill myself but all of the medication and sharp objects are locked up in a safe i cant break in. im so stupid i should of just killed myself back then when i had the chance

Do you have an autism diagnosis?

 

[mango_nectar]

Saar im autistic and that makes life impossible because im not like everyone else that is very much uniquely different!

It's so hard being me, I sit in my room all day with no will to practice and self pity is the only ruminating i do instead of figuring out ways to better my situations!

ive been going to therapy since i was 7-8 years old bro ive basically tried everything to help myself but in the end nothing really worked out. and yes i have level 2 autism it impacts my life in a severe way. i can't process things the same way other people can, i cant express or explain my emotions at all, i cant tell how i emotionally feel about other people either. my emotions can be severe and very hard to deal with that can end me up in a psych ward sometimes. and alott of other problems i deal with that if i said them all here it would take me ages to write them

 

[yyoloo]

ive been going to therapy since i was 7-8 years old bro ive basically tried everything to help myself but in the end nothing really worked out. and yes i have level 2 autism it impacts my life in a severe way. i can't process things the same way other people can, i cant express or explain my emotions at all, i cant tell how i emotionally feel about other people either. my emotions can be severe and very hard to deal with that can end me up in a psych ward sometimes. and alott of other problems i deal with that if i said them all here it would take me ages to write them

ong therapy does not work

 

[mango_nectar]

Do you have an autism diagnosis?

yes i got it in grade 2

 

[Cuckㅤ]

ive been going to therapy since i was 7-8 years old bro ive basically tried everything to help myself but in the end nothing really worked out. and yes i have level 2 autism it impacts my life in a severe way. i can't process things the same way other people can, i cant express or explain my emotions at all, i cant tell how i emotionally feel about other people either. my emotions can be severe and very hard to deal with that can end me up in a psych ward sometimes. and alott of other problems i deal with that if i said them all here it would take me ages to write them

I got schizotypal, I get its hard but blaming everything on a mental illness isn't gonna do you good. My family member has level 2 autism and works with kids, shit isn't that deep unles you handle it better, relying on a therapist says everything i need to know, you aren't learning or teaching yourself things, you are just praying for an easy fix.

 

[Cuckㅤ]

ong therapy does not work

It does, people that say this are avoidant and barely interact with the help. They just talk and talk expecting the self sufficiency to help them when it doesnt with anyone else.

Ever heard of insanity being a cycle of doing something while nothing changes?

 

[yyoloo]

It does, people that say this are avoidant and barely interact with the help. They just talk and talk expecting the self sufficiency to help them when it doesnt with anyone else.

Ever heard of insanity being a cycle of doing something while nothing changes?

i tried it but they were telling my mom everything and it just felt invasive

 

[Cuckㅤ]

i tried it but they were telling my mom everything and it just felt invasive

That is and that therapist should be fired

 

[mango_nectar]

I got schizotypal, I get its hard but blaming everything on a mental illness isn't gonna do you good. My family member has level 2 autism and works with kids, shit isn't that deep unles you handle it better, relying on a therapist says everything i need to know, you aren't learning or teaching yourself things, you are just praying for an easy fix.

its not only therapy ive relied on, i have improved myself significantly this past year and i have only had a couple appointments this year so most of my improvement has been done by myself. last year i was having severe emotional reactions almost every day this year i have had one like once a month or 2 months. and my social skills and reading how other people felt was genuinely sooo bad last year aswell but it had improved alot to a noticeable extent with minimal help from therapy or meditations. i went to the mental hospital maybe like 7-8 times in 2025 and this year i only went for a really short stay there for depression. even though i have improved myself im still struggling immensely and i have a longgg way to go and i honestly doubt ill be able to reach it because i dont have the will for it if im being honest. ive just been so tired of trying and trying all of the time

 

[mango_nectar]

its not only therapy ive relied on, i have improved myself significantly this past year and i have only had a couple appointments this year so most of my improvement has been done by myself. last year i was having severe emotional reactions almost every day this year i have had one like once a month or 2 months. and my social skills and reading how other people felt was genuinely sooo bad last year aswell but it had improved alot to a noticeable extent with minimal help from therapy or meditations. i went to the mental hospital maybe like 7-8 times in 2025 and this year i only went for a really short stay there for depression. even though i have improved myself im still struggling immensely and i have a longgg way to go and i honestly doubt ill be able to reach it because i dont have the will for it if im being honest. ive just been so tired of trying and trying all of the time

its hard not to blame things on my mental illness sometimes because everyone else around me does aswell. i used to get called retarted and stuff by my parents and classmates sometimes and that my mum wished i wasnt autistic so i could be normal and not such a hassle to everyone

 

[mango_nectar]

Yah and people that claim their deprived lifestyle like this don't deserve help, they deserve pity.

They lived their entire life getting told they are the way they are because of a mental illness, now it's the only thing they can talk about.

and i didnt say the way i am like this is only because of my mental illness because i do know thats not true

 

[Nenestar]

when i say mentally ill or slightly depressed girls are cute (and close to optimal), i don't mean this, btw. just those who see the world a little more bleakly

 

[mango_nectar]

when i say mentally ill or slightly depressed girls are cute (and close to optimal), i don't mean this, btw. just those who see the world a little more bleakly

ok??? lmao