Story i don't feel like I'm here...

[2R0I2P0]

Tbh, couple of last months i don't even feel like I've been experiencing life myself I'm just going through the motions.

I see myself in third person, i've been trying to break the loop, but i just don't feel much. I think maybe whenever im not working and studying i'll manage to reach term with it.

Those who know me, or remember my posts know that i recently like a couple of months ago i lost vision in my right eye, since then i have fantasized of just scooping it out of my eye socket and putting it in a bottle . Constant fantasies of self-harm plague me. I know it's just my bad mental health, now that i cannot experience depth i just want it out of me as if it was a curse upon me.

Maybe it's cringy but i just want to get it out of my chest.
I won't do anything stupid the last thing i need is to be institutionalized
But yeah that's about it

 

[ceeuonthetop]

Tbh, couple of last months i don't even feel like I've been experiencing life myself I'm just going through the motions.

I see myself in third person, i've been trying to break the loop, but i just don't feel much. I think maybe whenever im not working and studying i'll manage to reach term with it.

Those who know me, or remember my posts know that i recently like a couple of months ago i lost vision in my right eye, since then i have fantasized of just scooping it out of my eye socket and putting it in a bottle . Constant fantasies of self-harm plague me. I know it's just my bad mental health, now that i cannot experience depth i just want it out of me as if it was a curse upon me.

Maybe it's cringy but i just want to get it out of my chest.
I won't do anything stupid the last thing i need is to be institutionalized
But yeah that's about it

Try talking with your parents about this, if they cant find any support then try to atleast get them to apply u to a ward to be safe if its a serious problem, hope you do well man

 

[2R0I2P0]

Try talking with your parents about this, if they cant find any support then try to atleast get them to apply u to a ward to be safe if its a serious problem, hope you do well man

im going to the uni hospital when im done with exams to see if they can help me

if i go to my parents, they might withdraw me from uni, because i have been in the ward before, so ill go for help if i think i absolutely need it but i prefer not to.

 

[ceeuonthetop]

im going to the uni hospital when im done with exams to see if they can help me

if i go to my parents, they might withdraw me from uni, because i have been in the ward before, so ill go for help if i think i absolutely need it but i prefer not to.

Just stay mentally sound for now, gl

 

[2R0I2P0]

Just stay mentally sound for now, gl

thanks sir