i drove by the bride i was going to jump off a year ago

[Deleted Member 43587]

only reason i didn’t jump was because ellie happened to call me

maybe not all women are purely evil, although i remain steadfast in my belief most women are evil

i also dearly love my mother, very hard worker i love my mom

i was going to jump over some retarded shit too, glad i didnt

i drove by that road, i walked up and down that road late at night, not being able to man up

when she called me, i told her not i would jump and surely suicide myself

we just talked, she exclaimed why i was out so late at night, i used to enjoy running and jogging

she simply scolded me for being out, i told her i needed to clear my mind, so we talked, i walked up and down this 2 mile stretch of road

i remembered that time she called me, we spoke and she talked to me about how great it would be once we married and such, had children and such

 

[Deleted Member 43587]

ellie is the foid i posted the same one that made me delete ze org

 

[ey88]

im glad you didnt do it man

 

[Deleted Member 43587]

im glad you didnt do it man

thanks bro, im glad i didn’t do it either

even if i don’t have ellie anymore it’s fine in the end

 

[ey88]

thanks bro, im glad i didn’t do it either

even if i don’t have ellie anymore it’s fine in the end

is ellie the one u were talking about to me?

have u talked to her?

 

[Deleted Member 43587]

is ellie the one u were talking about to me?

have u talked to her?

yes the masculine foid

my ex, we dated for 9 months iirc

2024 august - 2025 april

 

[The cat from The Matrix]

Today I walked by the bridge i was gonna jump off of in hs. Felt weird

 

[Deleted Member 43587]

Today I walked by the bridge i was gonna jump off of in hs. Felt weird

i got nostalgic or something

i missed that starting relationship phase

very exciting stuff

 

[The cat from The Matrix]

i got nostalgic or something

i missed that starting relationship phase

very exciting stuff

I just kinda felt nothing. It's overlooking the freeway so I just kinda watched the cars. I wish someone back then would've said something. Anything. It matters more than people think

 

[Deleted Member 43587]

I just kinda felt nothing. It's overlooking the freeway so I just kinda watched the cars. I wish someone back then would've said something. Anything. It matters more than people think

same, it overlooks a highway, i remember that night i sat right on the edge

sat there a while, she called me

i got up as my tight pants didn’t let me take the phone out

she told me she loved me, unprompted

it felt so weird i couldn’t explain it with words, i walked away from the bridge

i told myself “i’ll come back and jump after i call her and my phone battery dies”

although i’m sure some subconscious part of me knew i wouldn’t come back to jump, so as i spoke to her i walked down the road a bit longer

we spoke for a while, as if god himself was letting my phone go on longer so i could speak to her

when the phone died all i thought was “i have to go home and charge my phone so i can call her back”

on my way back i simply walked past the bridge


even just something little like a conversation helps really, a reminder someone’s thinking of you