Rage I fear dying of rot. I wish to die soon.

[metacognitivemaxx]

Every time I pass a hospital or an area with a lot of old and/or sick people, it feels not only wrong to stand among them, but to see them in the first place

It's oddly unnatural, they all look deformed, like if they were already getting decomposed like fungi decomposes dead organic matter in the forest. it's interesting to see them walk and push on forwards

How do I want to die? Is it possible to try and evade death? Will the elite of our generation live to 140? Am I able to position myself to be one of those elite?

I have so many questions, but I don't want to think about it and want to focus on the journey there, and only this way I can guarantee that I will die in a way I am somewhat "fine" with.

Im "too young" to die. it's unprobable for it to happen any time soon. People say "live your life with the fear that tomorrow might be the day your story ends" or whatever, I am not fucking fulfilling my life at all.

Fuck now I'm getting into what's fulfillment, what do I even fucking want in this damn life anyways.

Prob the standard shit you see 50 year old Facebook mom's reposting on Facebook.

I see my current stage of life as a chase. A run, a momentum forwards. With no clue on what I'm actually chasing. Its fucking pointless worrying about it now when I'm still an uneducated r****d who doesn't even read books. Nor do I have any life experience or have met a lot of people.

Fuck, just delay it, and move on with the daily things i need to do.

 

[metacognitivemaxx]

Pointless rant with no end understanding

 

[rafidhi]

chase a death with meaning in a meaningless world

 

[metacognitivemaxx]

chase a death with meaning in a meaningless world

Beautiful holy shit

 

[rafidhi]

Beautiful holy shit

this is what you were talking about, in the thread prior
this compliment, for an average statement

 

[Bideltoid]

Every time I pass a hospital or an area with a lot of old and/or sick people, it feels not only wrong to stand among them, but to see them in the first place

It's oddly unnatural, they all look deformed, like if they were already getting decomposed like fungi decomposes dead organic matter in the forest. it's interesting to see them walk and push on forwards

How do I want to die? Is it possible to try and evade death? Will the elite of our generation live to 140? Am I able to position myself to be one of those elite?

I have so many questions, but I don't want to think about it and want to focus on the journey there, and only this way I can guarantee that I will die in a way I am somewhat "fine" with.

Im "too young" to die. it's unprobable for it to happen any time soon. People say "live your life with the fear that tomorrow might be the day your story ends" or whatever, I am not fucking fulfilling my life at all.

Fuck now I'm getting into what's fulfillment, what do I even fucking want in this damn life anyways.

Prob the standard shit you see 50 year old Facebook mom's reposting on Facebook.

I see my current stage of life as a chase. A run, a momentum forwards. With no clue on what I'm actually chasing. Its fucking pointless worrying about it now when I'm still an uneducated r****d who doesn't even read books. Nor do I have any life experience or have met a lot of people.

Fuck, just delay it, and move on with the daily things i need to do.

r****d, Who doesn't value life. This is what no bitches does to mf.

chase a death with meaning in a meaningless world

another r****d
There is no meaning, neither nothing matters in "death".

Why are people so fucking low IQ and ungratefull, I don't understand.

 

[Lamskiii]

Facts bro I’m just gonna blast gear and hope I die off that

 

[metacognitivemaxx]

r****d, Who doesn't value life. This is what no bitches does to mf.


Why are people so fucking low IQ and ungratefull, I don't understand.

Prob the standard shit you see 50 year old Facebook mom's reposting on Facebook.

I see my current stage of life as a chase. A run, a momentum forwards. With no clue on what I'm actually chasing.

I didn't mention that I don't value, I'm not a nihilist. I said I don't know yet. I'm chasing it, that by itself is great value honestly

 

[metacognitivemaxx]

Facts bro I’m just gonna blast gear and hope I die off that

Is it worth it? do you do it for yourself or for women/others?

 

[Lamskiii]

Is it worth it? do you do it for yourself or for women/others?

I’m doing it because I’m lost in life rn

Just turned 18 graduated hs going to uni

I have the friends and my family and parents in my life

But something is missing I feel alone I wanna cry sometimes but I never do and it feels like I’m just doing things to do them . So I’m juts gonna blast until I die I had heart problems before so it’s no telling when I will die hopefully soon

 

[rafidhi]

r****d, Who doesn't value life. This is what no bitches does to mf.

another r****d
There is no meaning, neither nothing matters in "death".

Why are people so fucking low IQ and ungratefull, I don't understand.

the transience of life is what makes it meaningful in the first place
death is a beautiful thing really it is sad that it has been diminished into a looming ‘curse’ which hints of decay and old age
we should embrace death insteD of fearingIT MY POINT

 

[metacognitivemaxx]

I’m doing it because I’m lost in life rn

Just turned 18 graduated hs going to uni

I have the friends and my family and parents in my life

But something is missing I feel alone I wanna cry sometimes but I never do and it feels like I’m just doing things to do them . So I’m juts gonna blast until I die I had heart problems before so it’s no telling when I will die hopefully soon

Pretty much spinning a revolver with 1 bullet in it and shooting it against your temple every 6 months but In your case but less dramatic

We will find the purpose, reach a level of deeper understanding to answer the core questions of why and how. towards everything

Brutally generic advice but the only solution I think is to just find purpose I guess. Chase it in some way aswell.

What else are you supposed to do anyways

 

[Lamskiii]

Pretty much spinning a revolver with 1 bullet in it and shooting it against your temple every 6 months but In your case but less dramatic

We will find the purpose, reach a level of deeper understanding to answer the core questions of why and how. towards everything

Brutally generic advice but the only solution I think is to just find purpose I guess. Chase it in some way aswell.

What else are you supposed to do anyways

I hope u find one hopefully im alive to see it

 

[Bideltoid]

the transience of life is what makes it meaningful in the first place
death is a beautiful thing really it is sad that it has been diminished into a looming ‘curse’ which hints of decay and old age
we should embrace death insteD of fearingIT MY POINT

There is nothing to embrace in death.

 

[rafidhi]

There is nothing to embrace in death.

its the fulfilment of life n****r its beautiful terrible beauty

 

[XWJJ]

It's oddly unnatural, they all look deformed, like if they were already getting decomposed like fungi decomposes dead organic matter in the forest. it's interesting to see them walk and push on forwards

I saw a guy at my work recently who was incredibly disfigured (severe burn wounds) and it really hurt my soul seeing someone like that. I remember he handed me his card with his stub fingers and looked up at me with his hauntingly sad eyes and it deeply upset me I cant stop thinking about it

Not what your post is about but I needed to get this off my chest and it reminded me