I feel like I'm cheating

[junebug]

If I take meds while in uni
Like if I'm too lazy and stupid to get my degree unmedicated then why bother even getting it

 

[Rololongs]

If I take meds while in uni
Like if I'm too lazy and stupid to get my degree unmedicated then why bother even getting it

What degree you want

 

[Lacerate]

your brain works differently than people who don't need medication don't punish yourself for it by not taking your meds

 

[junebug]

What degree you want

Biochem

your brain works differently than people who don't need medication don't punish yourself for it by not taking your meds

I don't have meds yet but I'm thinking of getting some
I'm functioning, but barely.

 

[Slut]

If I take meds while in uni
Like if I'm too lazy and stupid to get my degree unmedicated then why bother even getting it

Pharmacology is the way of the future there’s no shame in utilizing it

 

[sub3 chud]

If I take meds while in uni
Like if I'm too lazy and stupid to get my degree unmedicated then why bother even getting it

I wonder how I would feel if i was normal and could do work

 

[junebug]

I wonder how I would feel if i was normal and could do work

I just want to be normal
I'm tired of my mom saying that eating more vegetables would fix me. I'm so tired. Nobody gets it.

 

[sub3 chud]

I just want to be normal
I'm tired of my mom saying that eating more vegetables would fix me. I'm so tired. Nobody gets it.

I wonder how much differently my life would've turned out
vegetables doesn't make a whole lot of sense and it's okay if you're tired of no one understanding you, it's repetitive and degrading, but you have to push through all those feelings and prove to yourself that you're good enough, not have someone else prove to you that you're good enough.

 

[Lmtnboy1748]

who cares is not a comptive match take them

 

[Methodical]

You should take meds if it'd help you, I don't think most people see it as cheating.

Though I sorta have a similar philosophy about studying. If I don't understand a concept the first time I learned about it, then I deserve to fail that test/class/whatever, so I don't study or do homework. Not because I think it's cheating to study, but it's "either I understand this or I don't."

When I take tests I usually mark/circle the answers I'm not confident are correct and then I will re-learn that concept afterwards, because the main issue lies with my hesitancy, not so much that it's wrong per se. But every time I get an answer wrong, it's always an answer I marked as unsure so I usually recognize my weaknesses in knowledge gaps while doing it anyways. If I marked an answer as unsure and it's correct I still force myself to re-learn it so I'm not guessing next time I guess.

It's actually not a very good method to get through school/classes but it's mainly because I don't want to spend extra time learning about concepts if I don't have to. It works for me (90%+ results usually) but it's because I know the punishment is me reading a bunch of books at home/work and I really don't wanna do that lol so I just focus the first time. The reason why it's not really a good method is because even though I still score high on tests, I could score higher if I studied, so if it matters to you to get good grades then don't be retarded like me.

But education is about learning, you should learn regardless if you have assistance with that or not. Learning is good for you.

 

[Lmtnboy1748]

You should take meds if it'd help you, I don't think most people see it as cheating.

Though I sorta have a similar philosophy about studying. If I don't understand a concept the first time I learned about it, then I deserve to fail that test/class/whatever, so I don't study or do homework. Not because I think it's cheating to study, but it's "either I understand this or I don't."

When I take tests I usually mark/circle the answers I'm not confident are correct and then I will re-learn that concept afterwards, because the main issue lies with my hesitancy, not so much that it's wrong per se. But every time I get an answer wrong, it's always an answer I marked as unsure so I usually recognize my weaknesses in knowledge gaps while doing it anyways. If I marked an answer as unsure and it's correct I still force myself to re-learn it so I'm not guessing next time I guess.

It's actually not a very good method to get through school/classes but it's mainly because I don't want to spend extra time learning about concepts if I don't have to. It works for me (90%+ results usually) but it's because I know the punishment is me reading a bunch of books at home/work and I really don't wanna do that lol so I just focus the first time. The reason why it's not really a good method is because even though I still score high on tests, I could score higher if I studied, so if it matters to you to get good grades then don't be retarded like me.

But education is about learning, you should learn regardless if you have assistance with that or not. Learning is good for you.

Wow dnr

 

[chudlite67]

If I take meds while in uni
Like if I'm too lazy and stupid to get my degree unmedicated then why bother even getting it

its not cheating its fine

 

[nervous]

If I take meds while in uni
Like if I'm too lazy and stupid to get my degree unmedicated then why bother even getting it

I’m unmedicated and it’s making my life a living hell
I had an exam today and spent half of it staring out the window because I got distracted by people walking past. My executive functions have been rapidly deteriorating if I could fucking choke myself out to be normal I would in a heartbeat.

 

[junebug]

You should take meds if it'd help you, I don't think most people see it as cheating.

Though I sorta have a similar philosophy about studying. If I don't understand a concept the first time I learned about it, then I deserve to fail that test/class/whatever, so I don't study or do homework. Not because I think it's cheating to study, but it's "either I understand this or I don't."

When I take tests I usually mark/circle the answers I'm not confident are correct and then I will re-learn that concept afterwards, because the main issue lies with my hesitancy, not so much that it's wrong per se. But every time I get an answer wrong, it's always an answer I marked as unsure so I usually recognize my weaknesses in knowledge gaps while doing it anyways. If I marked an answer as unsure and it's correct I still force myself to re-learn it so I'm not guessing next time I guess.

It's actually not a very good method to get through school/classes but it's mainly because I don't want to spend extra time learning about concepts if I don't have to. It works for me (90%+ results usually) but it's because I know the punishment is me reading a bunch of books at home/work and I really don't wanna do that lol so I just focus the first time. The reason why it's not really a good method is because even though I still score high on tests, I could score higher if I studied, so if it matters to you to get good grades then don't be retarded like me.

But education is about learning, you should learn regardless if you have assistance with that or not. Learning is good for you.

This is a really good idea. However, I cannot punish myself. I cannot reward myself.

Every time I say "We can play video games after this assignment", another voice says "Or we can just play video games now and do the assignment later..." and I never learn.

Every time I say "well, we failed this test so let's study the concept now" it's always "just watch a 5 minute youtube video on the concept, you got it..."

The voices win

 

[junebug]

I’m unmedicated and it’s making my life a living hell
I had an exam today and spent half of it staring out the window because I got distracted by people walking past. My functions have been rapidly deteriorating if I could fucking choke myself out to be normal I would in a heartbeat.

I'm so tired of being misunderstood as lazy or weak willed or prone to addiction when there's something seriously wrong with me. It hurts that I'm disconnected from every other person that doesn't get it.

 

[limo8]

If I take meds while in uni
Like if I'm too lazy and stupid to get my degree unmedicated then why bother even getting it

if kid need asthma/diabetic treatment to stay alive why bother living am i rite folks?

 

[junebug]

if kid need asthma/diabetic treatment to stay alive why bother living am i rite folks?

Yeah but I can DO it unmedicated, I've been doing it unmedicated my whole life. My quality of life is just shit because I put everything off.

 

[Methodical]

This is a really good idea. However, I cannot punish myself. I cannot reward myself.

Every time I say "We can play video games after this assignment", another voice says "Or we can just play video games now and do the assignment later..." and I never learn.

Every time I say "well, we failed this test so let's study the concept now" it's always "just watch a 5 minute youtube video on the concept, you got it..."

The voices win

I've always been good at punishing myself, never rewarding myself. My family asked me once why I got into the slow lane if nobody was in the passing lane and I said "It's because I was speeding and I'm trying to teach myself if I speed I'll just get to the destination slower, so I go behind a slow vehicle." and I got bullied to Hell and back and over it. But I do stuff like that all the time not recognizing it's what I'm doing.

But when it comes to rewarding myself, I fall into the same traps that you do lmao. I'm unfortunately addicted to my phone/PC so it's not much of a reward if I spend every free moment I have on it regardless, so I guess that's why it doesn't work. Might be why it doesn't work too much on you either.

 

[junebug]

I've always been good at punishing myself, never rewarding myself. My family asked me once why I got into the slow lane if nobody was in the passing lane and I said "It's because I was speeding and I'm trying to teach myself if I speed I'll just get to the destination slower, so I go behind a slow vehicle." and I got bullied to Hell and back and over it. But I do stuff like that all the time not recognizing it's what I'm doing.

But when it comes to rewarding myself, I fall into the same traps that you do lmao. I'm unfortunately addicted to my phone/PC so it's not much of a reward if I spend every free moment I have on it regardless, so I guess that's why it doesn't work. Might be why it doesn't work too much on you either.

Even with candy rewards or activity rewards...it's just, I can do it now. Why wait? My brain can't make the hypothetical cage around the candy bar or something.

 

[Methodical]

Yeah but I can DO it unmedicated, I've been doing it unmedicated my whole life. My quality of life is just shit because I put everything off.

Funnily enough how I felt about my glasses at first. I've been navigating the world without glasses the whole time, why would I get them now if I can live normally without them. I say just get the glasses (meds) ngl. Life is better with them, same applies to meds.

 

[junebug]

Funnily enough how I felt about my glasses at first. I've been navigating the world without glasses the whole time, why would I get them now if I can live normally without them. I say just get the glasses (meds) ngl. Life is better with them, same applies to meds.

I just feel like it's not entirely necessary. I want them but I'm doing okay enough without them. I mean, I'm passing. That's enough. I'm just sick of the 2-hours-to-complete-one-assignment loop of doom.

 

[Methodical]

I just feel like it's not entirely necessary. I want them but I'm doing okay enough without them. I mean, I'm passing. That's enough. I'm just sick of the 2-hours-to-complete-one-assignment loop of doom.

I also got by fine without glasses, because it's all I ever knew. I couldn't navigate a world that isn't my own, and I grew up without glasses. I just don't see a point of intentionally forcing yourself to struggle when you recognize it's a weakness in you. When I started my antidepressants, I asked myself "Why suffer when you can be a better person?" So why struggle when you can do better?

 

[junebug]

I also got by fine without glasses, because it's all I ever knew. I couldn't navigate a world that isn't my own, and I grew up without glasses. I just don't see a point of intentionally forcing yourself to struggle when you recognize it's a weakness in you. When I started my antidepressants, I asked myself "Why suffer when you can be a better person?" So why struggle when you can do better?

You know what
You're right
Thank you

 

[Lacerate]

Biochem

I don't have meds yet but I'm thinking of getting some
I'm functioning, but barely.

what do you think you have/need

 

[nervous]

I'm so tired of being misunderstood as lazy or weak willed or prone to addiction when there's something seriously wrong with me. It hurts that I'm disconnected from every other person that doesn't get it.

I get you more than you know.
sorry it’s taking a while for me to write because I can’t stop crying

It’s so much more than getting off your phone or cleaning your room when it starts getting messy. I feel like such a failure for being unable to do tasks that I really want to do. Staring at it hoping it sinks in after the third time rereading it. Having your brain play an auto loop of every time I fucked up in the last year while being unable to recall any positive memories. Telling people you struggle and being met with a “why don’t you try harder, you should know better” or cruel fucks who smile in your face knowing it’s easier to fake support and then drop you later when it inconveniences them.

trying to focus on focusing while focusing on trying to focus while focusing on trying to focus while focusing on focusing while trying to focus on focusing

When before I could panic hard enough and force myself to get shit done the consequences don’t feel grave enough anymore. why bother when I could just listen to the little voice that keeps telling me to just delete myself already. I want it to go away why can’t god take it away why can’t I be whole

 

[junebug]

what do you think you have/need

ADHD. Been struggling with the symptoms for about 6 years and have tried just about everything to alleviate the struggle.

 

[junebug]

I get you more than you know.
sorry it’s taking a while for me to write because I can’t stop crying

It’s so much more than getting off your phone or cleaning your room when it starts getting messy. I feel like such a failure for being unable to do tasks that I really want to do. Staring at it hoping it sinks in after the third time rereading it. Having your brain play an auto loop of every time I fucked up in the last year while being unable to recall any positive memories. Telling people you struggle and being met with a “why don’t you try harder, you should know better” or cruel fucks who smile in your face knowing it’s easier to fake support and then drop you later when it inconveniences them.

trying to focus on focusing while focusing on trying to focus while focusing on trying to focus while focusing on focusing while trying to focus on focusing

When before I could panic hard enough and force myself to get shit done the consequences don’t feel grave enough when the little voice in the back of my head keeps telling me to just delete myself already. I want it to go away why can’t god take it away why can’t I be whole

I'm crying now too I've been crying a lot today. I understand. It sucks so hard. And it's not just being lazy even though that's what I tell myself all the time. There's something misaligned and it's ok to get help.

 

[Lacerate]

ADHD. Been struggling with the symptoms for about 6 years and have tried just about everything to alleviate the struggle.

yeah adhd is brutal especially in uni when you have to manage everything yourself definitely recommend getting medication if you can + accommodations if youre in america you can get extra test time extra time on assignments and such good luck!

 

[junebug]

yeah adhd is brutal especially in uni when you have to manage everything yourself definitely recommend getting medication if you can + accommodations if youre in america you can get extra test time extra time on assignments and such good luck!

I don't need extra test time, I had the opportunity to when I was younger but timing isn't really a huge deal. If I know it I can do it fast, if not I don't do it.

Meds sound nice tho