I feel like I've lost contact with reality

[Blackpillirony]

Everyday I spend my time on here being so emotionally invested in things that in the grand schemes of life don't matter. I tell myself everyday that I have to lock in and bust my ass off but I've been getting a bit depressed and discouraged, which just makes it harder for me to really work and get shit done.

I'm always late, I never make plans in advance and always do shit at the last minute if not a bit after things are due. It just makes me feel more like shit and it has for consequence for me to just do nothing and that's a vicious cycle I want to get out of.

And everytime I see my friends it's just some very mundane and painfully short conversations. I haven't seen those I consider to be my closest friends in months now since they are in another campus. I don't know if I really miss them but I used to have fun with them you know ?

When I think about my future it's a bit too abstract and distant for me, even if I'm accepted in uni it's not sure if I'm going to go there this fall.

 

[Trevor]

Well, stop procrastinating then

 

[chudlite67]

Everyday I spend my time on here being so emotionally invested in things that in the grand schemes of life don't matter. I tell myself everyday that I have to lock in and bust my ass off but I've been getting a bit depressed and discouraged, which just makes it harder for me to really work and get shit done.

I'm always late, I never make plans in advance and always do shit at the last minute if not a bit after things are due. It just makes me feel more like shit and it has for consequence for me to just do nothing and that's a vicious cycle I want to get out of.

And everytime I see my friends it's just some very mundane and painfully short conversations. I haven't seen those I consider to be my closest friends in months now since they are in another campus. I don't know if I really miss them but I used to have fun with them you know ?

When I think about my future it's a bit too abstract and distant for me, even if I'm accepted in uni it's not sure if I'm going to go there this fall.

What’s stopping you from asking your friends to hangout? :3

 

[Blackpillirony]

Well, stop procrastinating then

That's the thing, it's an addiction and it's confortable, even tho it's just causing me more stress in the long term. It's not that easy

What’s stopping you from asking your friends to hangout? :3

Time, availability, end of session.

 

[chudlite67]

Time, availability, end of session.

Ah right unfortunate

 

[1894]

If it was easy everyone would’ve done it

 

[Blackpillirony]

If it was easy everyone would’ve done it

That's what I always think to myself, but I lack discipline

 

[1894]

That's what I always think to myself, but I lack discipline

Dude just forget about the discipline bs if you have to do something like force yourself and I mean really force yourself to stay on it for 10-15 mins without any distractions and then you’ll just easily continue

 

[Aryy]

things always change
it always gets better and worse

 

[1894]

things always change
it always gets better and worse

Grass is green ahh

 

[Aryy]

Grass is green ahh

im just saying it will get better ofc
then worse again

 

[Pentatonic]

Basing value from outer interactions is a curse man, sometimes gotta stop interacting with people and listen to your own head sometimes, works for me

 

[Blackpillirony]

Update : I got a 86% for a redaction I was so not prepared for, life's good