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[Deleted Member 46433]

i feel like i havent been a real person since january 2025

early january, i went on a spiritual refuge where i wasnt allowed to keep track of time and we would pray for 8 hours a day. they would feed us at random times and tell us lies to get us to open up emotionally. there were many times where i had to stay silent for days. there was a lot more that happened, but ever since then, it feels like im in another dimension

perhaps anybody else can relate somewhat? thoughts?

 

[Penalizer69]

Interesting lore drop

 

[Deleted Member 46433]

Intresting lore drop

it makes me uncomfortable, but i decided to anyways

 

[winterfoid]

i feel like i havent been a real person since january 2025

early january, i went on a spiritual refuge where i wasnt allowed to keep track of time and we would pray for 8 hours a day. they would feed us at random times and tell us lies to get us to open up emotionally. there were many times where i had to stay silent for days. there was a lot more that happened, but ever since then, it feels like im in another dimension

perhaps anybody else can relate somewhat? thoughts?

if this isnt larp lowk please see a doctor it sounds like you’re derealizing pretty badly and this reads like cptsd

 

[Penalizer69]

From what I've heard over doing meditation and/or prayer especially when you're not used to it can really fuck up your brain. If you can go to a doctor or something it's usually treatable though.

 

[Deleted Member 46433]

From what I've heard over doing meditation and/or prayer especially when you're not used to it can really fuck up your brain. If you can go to a doctor or something it's usually treatable though.

good ideas, thank you.

 

[97baHater]

i feel like i havent been a real person since january 2025

early january, i went on a spiritual refuge where i wasnt allowed to keep track of time and we would pray for 8 hours a day. they would feed us at random times and tell us lies to get us to open up emotionally. there were many times where i had to stay silent for days. there was a lot more that happened, but ever since then, it feels like im in another dimension

perhaps anybody else can relate somewhat? thoughts?

interesting story... why did u even go w them

 

[Deleted Member 46433]

interesting story... why did u even go w them

unfortunately, i was forced to go or else i wouldnt be able to graduate high school. i used to go to school in a convent

 

[97baHater]

unfortunately, i was forced to go or else i wouldnt be able to graduate high school. i used to go to school in a convent

sounds horrible they were brainwashing u it seems

 

[snoblomov]

the world has been off its ass since covid

 

[vespertine]

if you remove speech and social feedback it sort of shifts the brain "inward" from what i've read. speech is an important grounding behavior, and its absence is not neutral psychologically of course.

your brain may not have had the space and safety it needed to reintegrate. that sounds quite stressful. the more i think about it the more evil this sounds. i hope you feel better spuffy

 

[Deleted Member 46433]

the world has been off its ass since covid

in 7th grade, we had a very important assignment which required a 5 minute memorized presentation. i had not done the assignment, and came up with something 5 minutes before class started. i was shaking in my seat and hoping id be last while the others would take up class time, having an extra day to complete it. during that class, we got the news that our school will be shut down the rest of the year.

i was so thankful, and got to record my presentation later.

 

[Deleted Member 46433]

if you remove speech and social feedback it sort of shifts the brain "inward" from what i've read. speech is an important grounding behavior, and its absence is not neutral psychologically of course.

your brain may not have had the space and safety it needed to reintegrate. that sounds quite stressful. the more i think about it the more evil this sounds. i hope you feel better spuffy

this is very interesting. thank you for giving me something to try

 

[Anna]

n***a are u training to be batman or something?

Fair enough mirin the “retreat” it seems kinda surreal did u take drugs as well? Or was it like a Christian thing

 

[Anna]

if this isnt larp lowk please see a doctor it sounds like you’re derealizing pretty badly and this reads like cptsd

Xhey will just give her lithium or something that won’t rlly help

 

[snoblomov]

in 7th grade, we had a very important assignment which required a 5 minute memorized presentation. i had not done the assignment, and came up with something 5 minutes before class started. i was shaking in my seat and hoping id be last while the others would take up class time, having an extra day to complete it. during that class, we got the news that our school will be shut down the rest of the year.

i was so thankful, and got to record my presentation later.

I was skiing during spring break with a friend of mine when we heard the news. had the most amazing time little did we know it'd be all downhill from there

 

[vespertine]

n***a are u training to be batman or something?

Fair enough mirin the “retreat” it seems kinda surreal did u take drugs as well? Or was it like a Christian thing

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_torture
its horrifying and involuntary.

but the christian thing is a good question. as someone who used to be catholic there were a lot of fucked up mind games the church plays with you

 

[Anna]

in 7th grade, we had a very important assignment which required a 5 minute memorized presentation. i had not done the assignment, and came up with something 5 minutes before class started. i was shaking in my seat and hoping id be last while the others would take up class time, having an extra day to complete it. during that class, we got the news that our school will be shut down the rest of the year.

i was so thankful, and got to record my presentation later.

Thought u were like 26 or something damn

 

[Anna]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_torture
its horrifying and involuntary.

but the christian thing is a good question. as someone who used to be catholic there were a lot of fucked up mind games the church plays with you

Dude churches are a bit messed up yeah I hate all the fear mongering and manipulation

 

[Deleted Member 108588]

january 2025, that's when i suffered the most

 

[Anna]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_torture
its horrifying and involuntary.

Wasn’t this at school damn that’s like handmaids tale or something

 

[Deleted Member 46433]

n***a are u training to be batman or something?

Fair enough mirin the “retreat” it seems kinda surreal did u take drugs as well? Or was it like a Christian thing

haha im not knowledgeable to get this batman reference, if it is one.

well, the retreat was a catholic thing. it was done in a very odd way though.

Thought u were like 26 or something damn

haha, i turned 19 recently

 

[𐲀 𐲢 𐲠 𐲀 𐲇 𐲰]

Where do I sign up

 

[Deleted Member 46433]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_torture
its horrifying and involuntary.

but the christian thing is a good question. as someone who used to be catholic there were a lot of fucked up mind games the church plays with you

Wasn’t this at school damn that’s like handmaids tale or something

and they used to play this one song on repeat all the time too. they never played anything else. i dont know the name of the song or the lyrics, if im honest

 

[Anna]

haha im not knowledgeable to get this batman reference, if it is one.

He spent a lot of time training with monks and stuff where he learnt a lot of techniques it’s like a meme kinda

well, the retreat was a catholic thing. it was done in a very odd way though.

haha, i turned 19 recently

u should prolly get professional help

 

[Anna]

and they used to play this one song on repeat all the time too. they never played anything else. i dont know the name of the song or the lyrics, if im honest

Sounds like a deepstate experiment lmao

if u ever go of the rails like ted kaczynksi I guess it’s fair enough

 

[snoblomov]

Sounds like a deepstate experiment lmao

if u ever go of the rails like ted kaczynksi I guess it’s fair enough

she's a church asset programmed to be activated the next time she hears the song.

what is her mission I wonder?

 

[Anna]

she's a church asset programmed to be activated the next time she hears the song.

what is her mission I wonder?

I don’t know maybe something to do with the new world order they might be like a terminator for those who oppose it

Nah but deadass wtf is going in America for seniors to be going on retreats like they are in the colonies in the handmaids tale or something

 

[RottingCarrie]

Was it like one of those things for troubled teens? That sounds horrible

 

[Deleted Member 46433]

Was it like one of those things for troubled teens? That sounds horrible

no, it was required for all the girls who were graduating with me. about 25 girls

 

[RottingCarrie]

no, it was required for all the girls who were graduating with me. about 29 girls

Thats honestly weird asf but religious schools are basically the opposite of what they preach

 

[winterfoid]

adding to what i said it will get worse if you don’t seek treatment and i know this from experience, it could be as little as talking to your general practitioner. if they offer you mood stabilizers i would personally refuse, they can fuck you up bad if you’re not in a very controlled environment with a lot of monitoring while starting them.

do you struggle a lot with memory during that time period/feeling like it was kind of a different person living in that time?

 

[TonyDr]

early january, i went on a spiritual refuge where i wasnt allowed to keep track of time and we would pray for 8 hours a day. they would feed us at random times and tell us lies to get us to open up emotionally. there were many times where i had to stay silent for days. there was a lot more that happened, but ever since then, it feels like im in another dimension

Feels like a sect

 

[lioralace]

i feel like i havent been a real person since january 2025

early january, i went on a spiritual refuge where i wasnt allowed to keep track of time and we would pray for 8 hours a day. they would feed us at random times and tell us lies to get us to open up emotionally. there were many times where i had to stay silent for days. there was a lot more that happened, but ever since then, it feels like im in another dimension

perhaps anybody else can relate somewhat? thoughts?

so valid lol

in march i joined a religious cult that was masked as a church and literally the lore is crazy i had NO independancy at all and it took so much for me to figure it out and leave lmao

still healing from that