GingerLTN
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FEEL FREE TO DNR IM JUST RANTING
While I can respect the fact that it can def be worse, I hate my current lifestyle, but have no will to do anything about it.
Like, I wake up in the morning, and i realize that i was mouth breathing in my sleep again, and get pissed off at that. Then i get up to see my reflection when i go to have my morning shower, i still look like me (FML), and im still fat. so i hop in the shower and hate it the whole time, and like, i fw showering, not myself, feel me?
or, ill set up a plan to workout, get distracted at the time i set the workout at, and feel ashamed that i missed it and have no motivation to get up after the fact to get the workout in, then more shame comes.
then ill get a snap from this girl i like, i go to snap back, and i see what i look like, and my smile is wiped off my face INSTATNLY, and then i spend the next min fixing my hair just to apply a filter that alters my face to absolute oblivion so i don't have to show other what i look like. then i hop back on the game or continue the video or show im watching.
on top of all of this, Im still underdeveloped for my age because of delayed puberty, so im 5'5, 5'6 with shoes on, and i feel like im just at the stage now, where i shouldve been at 14. This has to have the biggest toll on my mental health purely because its the reason im not pursuing this girl as much as i could be, because i feel like im behind, and need to catch up before i can "compete in the big league"
but its wtv, fuck it we ball amarite?
While I can respect the fact that it can def be worse, I hate my current lifestyle, but have no will to do anything about it.
Like, I wake up in the morning, and i realize that i was mouth breathing in my sleep again, and get pissed off at that. Then i get up to see my reflection when i go to have my morning shower, i still look like me (FML), and im still fat. so i hop in the shower and hate it the whole time, and like, i fw showering, not myself, feel me?
or, ill set up a plan to workout, get distracted at the time i set the workout at, and feel ashamed that i missed it and have no motivation to get up after the fact to get the workout in, then more shame comes.
then ill get a snap from this girl i like, i go to snap back, and i see what i look like, and my smile is wiped off my face INSTATNLY, and then i spend the next min fixing my hair just to apply a filter that alters my face to absolute oblivion so i don't have to show other what i look like. then i hop back on the game or continue the video or show im watching.
on top of all of this, Im still underdeveloped for my age because of delayed puberty, so im 5'5, 5'6 with shoes on, and i feel like im just at the stage now, where i shouldve been at 14. This has to have the biggest toll on my mental health purely because its the reason im not pursuing this girl as much as i could be, because i feel like im behind, and need to catch up before i can "compete in the big league"
but its wtv, fuck it we ball amarite?
