ErmErm
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I fucking HATE HATE HATE having a cute/innocent look. I know that’s what some girls dream of and I should be glad I’m slightly attractive but lord knows the hot girls always win. THEY GET AWAY WITH EBERYTHING! They’re more “mature” and when THEY ACT MASCULINE it’s soooooo hot and attractive but when I do it I’m a bitch or nerdy. God fucking forbid I don’t wanna be the small innocent wife girl you settle down with after fucking 20 Megan foxes in which you them cheat on me with another. I DINT WANNA BE RITA I WANNA BE LILA!!!! So what I get “chosen” for life, men will always chase fun. The only good thing is that when I say backhanded stuff I can act innocent and give em my big doe eyes BUT THSTS IT!!! Speaking of doe eyes HOW THE FUCK DO I GET RID OF MY HUGE PUPILS!!! I have zero contrast due to th fact my pupils are so huge they cover most of my eyes, which are blue. I was with a friend and it was extremely bright (the inky time you can see th color of my eyes properly) and they said to my face, “wow I barely noticed your eyes were so blue before!” and everyone always says to me, big pupils are attractive NO TH FUCK THEY AREMT!!! I also fucking hate being short. “Oh but guys LOVEEE short girls!!” THEY LIKE 5’2 GIRLS MOT 4’10 also due to my height I’m like wide.. nit fat wide but just not long... and I HATE IT!!! Also you know what a guy told me? “Well the reason I first talked to you was because your body was hot, but now that I know you, I like you for you!” Like yeah thanks for NOTHING!!!! Just proves my fear that guys will only want me for my body. And no it was not slit whore this time. UPDATE ON SLUT WHORE BTW he showed up at my door and I couldn’t just say no. I’m lowk scared of him. Took off his shirt AGAIN and he’s kinda gained good weight but that’s besdies the point. He bought me a milk shake and let me have bites of his two chicken burgers and a sip of his chocolate milk. He has very big hands. Wore Korn shirt cuz he knew I liked it. Stupid birch. I blame the fact I was starting my period that very day that I was lenient enough to lay my head on his shoulder and hold his hand (I was lowk passing out so if I wasn’t I prob would’ve fell over and hit my head and died) I SMELL HIM EVERYWWERE IM GOING CRAZY THIS BITCH IS MAKING ME NIT HATE HIM AND IT FUELS ME WITH RAGE!!! Killed two bugs for me. Carried me and we talked a lot. Stupid bitch. FUCKKKKK HIMM FUCK FUCK FUCK GAHHHHHH anyways update over. I made the mistake of adding a guy on snap after he kept bothering me and my friends abt it. Asked to see my fourth cat(I only have three) and keeps sending half hard boxers only crotch pics. Very scared. Save me. I might just block everyone I know. I feel like a whore via association with these hoes. I fear I am turning into what I feared most. Blond white girl who doesn’t block people she should and I am slowly hanging with the wrong crowd... pls get these whores out of here where are my alcoholics and stoners??? Also I found whore sluts moms insta, Facebook etc, found his Pinterest and am currently searching for Spotify. H said he made a playlist of songs that reminded him of me, bu I’m sure it’s just one of those generic playlist every guys shows to like 50+ girls and says is for them, I mean it’s liertslly just named “her” But anyway it’s 3am gotta run ladies. Moms gonna be PISSED!!!
