i think i understand suicidial people now

[MrMaxwell]

i cant handle this anymore

its weird how i am

i still feel happiness sometimes

but its fading.
sometimes im glad im alive
other times i want to die

i have had thoughts of suicide lately. i would never kill myself. i swore to myself i would never. i used to be confused about how someone would want to die

but i understand it now

i feel them now

i used a razor around my shoulder. i made only one mark. it was shallow, probably wont scar. i thought i would feel regret but i dont. i wont make more. it feels a weird way tho. i kind of like it.

fuck i need help

i hate my life


somehow i look my best and feel my worse

my best isnt even good looking too

i hate it here


i hope these words dont violate guidelines

fuck it i guess ill just press post and forget about it. im hesitant to press post but i will.

 

[dontcallthemfoidsbro]

I used to never understand suicidal people until I did, I get what you're saying. Sometimes I'm not even actively wanting death but I feel like I'm not living through my days anymore just sort of existing from day to day waiting for it to be over and then dreading the next one. I'm sorry you feel that way about life, it's not nice, but this forum may not be the best place to express that as the general community isn't typically all that compassionate when it comes to these things. I would say go find help, go find a therapist or a support center. People say they don't help but they do, i went to one for a separate reason and she was able to fix it. You'll get through this. Please attempt to get support rather than hurting yourself. Self harm won't solve anything and suicide is the biggest deciscion you'll ever make made in the worst state of mind you've ever been in and that's not a good combination. Wishing you the best.

 

[Suomi Volksgrenadier]

i cant handle this anymore

its weird how i am

i still feel happiness sometimes

but its fading.
sometimes im glad im alive
other times i want to die

i have had thoughts of suicide lately. i would never kill myself. i swore to myself i would never. i used to be confused about how someone would want to die

but i understand it now

i feel them now

i used a razor around my shoulder. i made only one mark. it was shallow, probably wont scar. i thought i would feel regret but i dont. i wont make more. it feels a weird way tho. i kind of like it.

fuck i need help

i hate my life


somehow i look my best and feel my worse

my best isnt even good looking too

i hate it here


i hope these words dont violate guidelines

fuck it i guess ill just press post and forget about it. im hesitant to press post but i will.

 

[MrMaxwell]

I used to never understand suicidal people until I did, I get what you're saying. Sometimes I'm not even actively wanting death but I feel like I'm not living through my days anymore just sort of existing from day to day waiting for it to be over and then dreading the next one. I'm sorry you feel that way about life, it's not nice, but this forum may not be the best place to express that as the general community isn't typically all that compassionate when it comes to these things. I would say go find help, go find a therapist or a support center. People say they don't help but they do, i went to one for a separate reason and she was able to fix it. You'll get through this. Please attempt to get support rather than hurting yourself. Self harm won't solve anything and suicide is the biggest deciscion you'll ever make made in the worst state of mind you've ever been in and that's not a good combination. Wishing you the best.

i know everything your saying is right but im still young and im scared of what people will think. i cant just tell my parents im depressed. especially since i come from an arab household, i feel like that would make it more difficult

 

[dontcallthemfoidsbro]

i know everything your saying is right but im still young and im scared of what people will think. i cant just tell my parents im depressed. especially since i come from an arab household, i feel like that would make it more difficult

That sucks dude, I see how that would make things harder. If you can't contact anyone due to your household or situation depending on where you live there's anonymous hotlines you can call. If you Google "anonymous mental health support line / suicide prevention hotline" with your country behind it you should get a number. They might not be a long term therapist but if you ever feel hopeless you can call them for free and talk to a professional for a while. They might also be able to provide resources for your specific situation if you ask.

 

[Dearpleasehelpme]

i cant handle this anymore

its weird how i am

i still feel happiness sometimes

but its fading.
sometimes im glad im alive
other times i want to die

i have had thoughts of suicide lately. i would never kill myself. i swore to myself i would never. i used to be confused about how someone would want to die

but i understand it now

i feel them now

i used a razor around my shoulder. i made only one mark. it was shallow, probably wont scar. i thought i would feel regret but i dont. i wont make more. it feels a weird way tho. i kind of like it.

fuck i need help

i hate my life


somehow i look my best and feel my worse

my best isnt even good looking too

i hate it here


i hope these words dont violate guidelines

fuck it i guess ill just press post and forget about it. im hesitant to press post but i will.

We feel you bru Dw, tired kms before but i got help n don’t rlly feel the urge anymore.

 

[limo8]

i cant handle this anymore

its weird how i am

i still feel happiness sometimes

but its fading.
sometimes im glad im alive
other times i want to die

i have had thoughts of suicide lately. i would never kill myself. i swore to myself i would never. i used to be confused about how someone would want to die

but i understand it now

i feel them now

i used a razor around my shoulder. i made only one mark. it was shallow, probably wont scar. i thought i would feel regret but i dont. i wont make more. it feels a weird way tho. i kind of like it.

fuck i need help

i hate my life


somehow i look my best and feel my worse

my best isnt even good looking too

i hate it here


i hope these words dont violate guidelines

fuck it i guess ill just press post and forget about it. im hesitant to press post but i will.

dont end your life there incels.is for "broken" ppl i rather you post your venting there cus there more ppl who could understand you