I want to Die

[Hypergamous]

I've accepted the support and resources for years without any meaningful improvement

I'm alone, 18 years old, no family willing to support me

I grew up with a physically abusive mom and step dad for years

I never had any friends in school and was socially outcasted because of my previously unattractive appearance and neurodivergence

I was put into foster care at 10 years old and abused by group home staff for years

I moved into my grandparents at 15 years old but I wasn't ready for the responsibility and my behavior ultimately ruined the opportunity

I met the girl that changed me at 15 as well, and our relationship had a substantial impact on my mental health, we ended for good this April.

Currently

I live in a hotel paid for by children's aid until I move into my new place

I work at a restaurant
*slave*

I'm moving into a shared house with two other roommates for 1000$ a month, (no apartments available in town)

I'm not okay with any of this, I'm going to do something irrational soon.

 

[seduce]

never kys

 

[Hypergamous]

I aint readin alladat

 

[Hypergamous]

never kys

why not

 

[seduce]

w

why not

hy would you

 

[Hypergamous]

w

hy would you

I'm tired of experiencing my life without living, you can read my thread to understand a little more

 

[dontcallthemfoidsbro]

But you never know what's to come. When i was heavily suicidal, all of that "But life is great!" Bs never helped me, because it didnt feel that way. The one train of thought that did help me, was staying here because I'm curious to see how my story goes on, not because I think its fun or nice. Change your perspective, watch your life like a movie if you dont want to experience it yourself right now. You can't want to cut the movie short, you have to want to know how it ends. You don't have to think this way forever, just until it gets better. And it does. I know that may look impossible right now, but i promise it does eventually, for everyone.

 

[internetbirth]

lowk youre in a better position now than before. look forward to new beginnings in your new place away from the abuse. also a young relationship at 15 will not be that impactful years from now i promise you bro. youll be alright. its good to have your heart broken now than later when it means something. it feels way more dire now cause youre young and its recent but i promise you that teen love shit is not ever that deep at all.

 

[Magical Madi]

I've accepted the support and resources for years without any meaningful improvement

I'm alone, 18 years old, no family willing to support me

I grew up with a physically abusive mom and step dad for years

I never had any friends in school and was socially outcasted because of my previously unattractive appearance and neurodivergence

I was put into foster care at 10 years old and abused by group home staff for years

I moved into my grandparents at 15 years old but I wasn't ready for the responsibility and my behavior ultimately ruined the opportunity

I met the girl that changed me at 15 as well, and our relationship had a substantial impact on my mental health, we ended for good this April.

Currently

I live in a hotel paid for by children's aid until I move into my new place

I work at a restaurant
*slave*

I'm moving into a shared house with two other roommates for 1000$ a month, (no apartments available in town)

I'm not okay with any of this, I'm going to do something irrational soon.

dont rope you easily can improve you life trust me

 

[v3daddy]

save up for surgery, everyone will be deformed by 30 but you can be chad at 30