Rage i'm a double faced liar who is fake and full of bs

[Ibn]

i have these two friends (person A whos more outgoing and social and has good looks but is a liar and a bully) and person B whos more introverted and nerdy and less attractive but trustworthy and kind, and they both dont like each other but i pretend with each person that I also am on thier side and hate the other person as well. I joined in with pressuring person B to do different things to make themselves seem more cooler in an attempt to make myself look better (because i want to be seen with interesting and good looking people)


Anyway, i grew up with no real friends, super strict parents, did't do any usual kids things as a kid until the age of 19 never even got to go to the local park with my friends to kick ball got bullied ended in the hospital one time, had really bad social skills basically what most of everyone on this forum went through)
the second thing is im starting college and on my social's i've put fake instagram reels and pics of my "lifestyle" like holidays abroad, wild camping, skateboarding, going to religious places, eBikes, Gaming consoles and stuff and when texting and talking to people i make myself seem like im into the same things they are into (since i have a lot of knowledge on a lot of topics like games, shows, sports, cultures, hobbies, its easy 4 me since i started researching all this stuff before college because so i could larp these things) so if someone is into sports and anime, ill talk about how much i love that or someone whos into gaming and f1 ill say that etc, or with religious people I act religious and non religious i act non religious, or people who are into boxing etc i act more tougher and egotistical with them, but with some other softer people i act like im not into those things and i send pics of me doing my drawings/paintings and updates on me watching shows and baking etc, i fake pics and vids and change my locations all the time usign tools to make it seem im always doing something interesting but the thing is it works and i have so many more people who im talking to and know and my social circle has improved sooo much and people think so much better of me now and respect me more.

(btw not unemployed and it does't take as much time as u think, like i have my part time side job as well as studying, so im not a complete looser, but its understandable why i do this rightt, or am i js stupid? Any advice on what to do?)

 

[True Spaniard]

i have these two friends (person A whos more outgoing and social and has good looks but is a liar and a bully) and person B whos more introverted and nerdy and less attractive but trustworthy and kind, and they both dont like each other but i pretend with each person that I also am on thier side and hate the other person as well. I joined in with pressuring person B to do different things to make themselves seem more cooler in an attempt to make myself look better (because i want to be seen with interesting and good looking people)


Anyway, i grew up with no real friends, super strict parents, did't do any usual kids things as a kid until the age of 19 never even got to go to the local park with my friends to kick ball got bullied ended in the hospital one time, had really bad social skills basically what most of everyone on this forum went through)
the second thing is im starting college and on my social's i've put fake instagram reels and pics of my "lifestyle" like holidays abroad, wild camping, skateboarding, going to religious places, eBikes, Gaming consoles and stuff and when texting and talking to people i make myself seem like im into the same things they are into (since i have a lot of knowledge on a lot of topics like games, shows, sports, cultures, hobbies, its easy 4 me since i started researching all this stuff before college because so i could larp these things) so if someone is into sports and anime, ill talk about how much i love that or someone whos into gaming and f1 ill say that etc, or with religious people I act religious and non religious i act non religious, or people who are into boxing etc i act more tougher and egotistical with them, but with some other softer people i act like im not into those things and i send pics of me doing my drawings/paintings and updates on me watching shows and baking etc, i fake pics and vids and change my locations all the time usign tools to make it seem im always doing something interesting but the thing is it works and i have so many more people who im talking to and know and my social circle has improved sooo much and people think so much better of me now and respect me more.

(btw not unemployed and it does't take as much time as u think, like i have my part time side job as well as studying, so im not a complete looser, but its understandable why i do this rightt, or am i js stupid? Any advice on what to do?)

It doesnt seem like youre a bad person or anything G, its just that youre trying to fit on an enviroment that you dont really belong to, you shouldnt really worry about what other people think about you, just be yourself and do what you really enjoy instead of trying to be performative

 

[Br4va]

Personally I don’t really understand why you would do this ? Trying to relate artificially ?

I guess if you just want to fit with people it’s fine but you gotta realize you will never find real friends like that.

And about your two friends I would recommend you to try to make them make up for it. A thing you could do is whenever you are alone with one of them ask why they feel like this to the other friend.

Maybe buy them both a gift fuck it why not that might help.

 

[Ibn]

It doesnt seem like youre a bad person or anything G, its just that youre trying to fit on an enviroment that you dont really belong to, you shouldnt really worry about what other people think about you, just be yourself and do what you really enjoy instead of trying to be performative

thanks i'm trying bhai

 

[Ibn]

Personally I don’t really understand why you would do this ? Trying to relate artificially ?

I guess if you just want to fit with people it’s fine but you gotta realize you will never find real friends like that.

And about your two friends I would recommend you to try to make them make up for it. A thing you could do is whenever you are alone with one of them ask why they feel like this to the other friend.

Maybe buy them both a gift fuck it why not that might help.

buying a gift might work, thanks

 

[True Spaniard]

thanks i'm trying bhai

Anytime brother

 

[Br4va]

buying a gift might work, thanks

Keep us updated

 

[Ibn]

Keep us updated

will do

 

[Slayer_inTraining]

i have these two friends (person A whos more outgoing and social and has good looks but is a liar and a bully) and person B whos more introverted and nerdy and less attractive but trustworthy and kind, and they both dont like each other but i pretend with each person that I also am on thier side and hate the other person as well. I joined in with pressuring person B to do different things to make themselves seem more cooler in an attempt to make myself look better (because i want to be seen with interesting and good looking people)


Anyway, i grew up with no real friends, super strict parents, did't do any usual kids things as a kid until the age of 19 never even got to go to the local park with my friends to kick ball got bullied ended in the hospital one time, had really bad social skills basically what most of everyone on this forum went through)
the second thing is im starting college and on my social's i've put fake instagram reels and pics of my "lifestyle" like holidays abroad, wild camping, skateboarding, going to religious places, eBikes, Gaming consoles and stuff and when texting and talking to people i make myself seem like im into the same things they are into (since i have a lot of knowledge on a lot of topics like games, shows, sports, cultures, hobbies, its easy 4 me since i started researching all this stuff before college because so i could larp these things) so if someone is into sports and anime, ill talk about how much i love that or someone whos into gaming and f1 ill say that etc, or with religious people I act religious and non religious i act non religious, or people who are into boxing etc i act more tougher and egotistical with them, but with some other softer people i act like im not into those things and i send pics of me doing my drawings/paintings and updates on me watching shows and baking etc, i fake pics and vids and change my locations all the time usign tools to make it seem im always doing something interesting but the thing is it works and i have so many more people who im talking to and know and my social circle has improved sooo much and people think so much better of me now and respect me more.

(btw not unemployed and it does't take as much time as u think, like i have my part time side job as well as studying, so im not a complete looser, but its understandable why i do this rightt, or am i js stupid? Any advice on what to do?)

Sounds like me lmao

 

[Ibn]

Sounds like me lmao

birds of a feather flock together ig

 

[Slayer_inTraining]

birds of a feather flock together ig

So much of what i show ppl is an act it's crazy

 

[Ibn]

So much of what i show ppl is an act it's crazy

probs others are doing the same as well, (maybe not to this length ig though )

 

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[MasterOfTheZygo]

i have these two friends (person A whos more outgoing and social and has good looks but is a liar and a bully) and person B whos more introverted and nerdy and less attractive but trustworthy and kind, and they both dont like each other but i pretend with each person that I also am on thier side and hate the other person as well. I joined in with pressuring person B to do different things to make themselves seem more cooler in an attempt to make myself look better (because i want to be seen with interesting and good looking people)


Anyway, i grew up with no real friends, super strict parents, did't do any usual kids things as a kid until the age of 19 never even got to go to the local park with my friends to kick ball got bullied ended in the hospital one time, had really bad social skills basically what most of everyone on this forum went through)
the second thing is im starting college and on my social's i've put fake instagram reels and pics of my "lifestyle" like holidays abroad, wild camping, skateboarding, going to religious places, eBikes, Gaming consoles and stuff and when texting and talking to people i make myself seem like im into the same things they are into (since i have a lot of knowledge on a lot of topics like games, shows, sports, cultures, hobbies, its easy 4 me since i started researching all this stuff before college because so i could larp these things) so if someone is into sports and anime, ill talk about how much i love that or someone whos into gaming and f1 ill say that etc, or with religious people I act religious and non religious i act non religious, or people who are into boxing etc i act more tougher and egotistical with them, but with some other softer people i act like im not into those things and i send pics of me doing my drawings/paintings and updates on me watching shows and baking etc, i fake pics and vids and change my locations all the time usign tools to make it seem im always doing something interesting but the thing is it works and i have so many more people who im talking to and know and my social circle has improved sooo much and people think so much better of me now and respect me more.

(btw not unemployed and it does't take as much time as u think, like i have my part time side job as well as studying, so im not a complete looser, but its understandable why i do this rightt, or am i js stupid? Any advice on what to do?)

I don't think the problem is you. I think its just how things are sometimes esspecially in times like this. Its super hard to not care what people think about you. Your not a bitch or anything but your just adapting to ur situations

 

[Vikram007]

pretty normal , its called fitting in according to surrounding
i do that too a lot
ps-i dnr'ed most of it but i get the jist of the post (in case you wrote smthn weird in between those paras)

 

[Slayer_inTraining]

pretty normal , its called fitting in according to surrounding
i do that too a lot
ps-i dnr'ed most of it but i get the jist of the post (in case you wrote smthn weird in between those paras)

Dnr = did not read

 

[Snowflake]

my guy, this make sense tbh, like obv its not the best thing to do but its understandable and what happened in hospital was it bad?

 

[Snowflake]

i'd say u should try and tell people instead that you're trying new things instead of just larping straight up as them, cuz some people will ask u more complicated questions like "oh what did u think of last years season of xyz what did you think of this team" or dy wanna go skateboarding this week? or hey man this movie is coming out wanna go watch it or people asking u to go out with them to do social stuff and if u are larping as them then they might catch u out and then rumours spread around

 

[Ibn]

i'd say u should try and tell people instead that you're trying new things instead of just larping straight up as them, cuz some people will ask u more complicated questions like "oh what did u think of last years season of xyz what did you think of this team" or dy wanna go skateboarding this week? or hey man this movie is coming out wanna go watch it or people asking u to go out with them to do social stuff and if u are larping as them then they might catch u out and then rumours spread around

ermmm, yeah thats true but i've done my research and im careful not to make myself seem like too much of an expert