I hate it. I hate how I look at every guy I walk past. I hate how I want every guy I walk past to look at me. I hate how much more I would rather talk with guys than girls and I fucking hate knowing that I would do anything for some validation from a guy irl
And what's even worse is that I know that it's not love that I want, I just want a confirmation that someone finds me attractive or/ and Interesting
This is so annoying, i don't know why I'm like this. I feel like such a pick me and recently I've been noticing just how much misogyny I have within me.
I just want to become a monk and feel no emotions other than calmness and peace of mind