shit experiences
i have no goals
idc care about anything
my mom is the only one who cares about me but shes really stupid
dad also cares about me a lil but not sure cuz he is a very bad person
i am my sisters' laughingstock
i just wanna have a good life and a cute gf who loves me (with all my additional stuff )
i dont wanna be an inferior piece of shit
roiding was my hope but mom wouldn't let me
i am not good at anything and cant study
i have a shitty personality and attitude
i hate myself more than anyone and i hate this world too
i wish i never existed
and after sometime i die it will be like that only
but if i stay alive i will be the biggest failure ever and i rather be dead than that
if i stay alive idk for how long will i be (less than a decade definitely)
i am waiting for something intense to happen (if its good i live happily and give it everything if its bad i die)
i love u all tho
i also cant do it cause i care for my family ( a lil bit only but still i do )
so i am not going anywhere soon so chillax
i still feel like going but ill hold it for as long as i can and hope it gets better