It Feels Like I’ve Lost Myself

[zygos]

Everyday, I’m just living. I feel like I have no personality. I mean sure I can laugh and giggle. When I’m alone I don’t think of anything unless I make myself. I just mindlessly scroll. I don’t know what to do with myself.

 

[zygos]

Everyday, I’m just living. I feel like I have no personality. I mean sure I can laugh and giggle. When I’m alone I don’t think of anything unless I make myself. I just mindlessly scroll. I don’t know what to do with myself.

People say I’m weird, I’m weird for the jokes I make, my facial expressions, my everything. But I’m just over the top so I don’t feel this empty pit of shallowness. I can cry and stuff. But I’m always aware I always know when to stop myself. I try to cry, be happy, be mad. To make myself seem like km like everyone else.

 

[ricecelthegoat]

I think this is accurate of most people on the forum, including myself. Just know you're not alone.

 

[LASACRKO]

Ur probably just emo

 

[zygos]

Ur probably just emo

Emo isn’t an emotion, I don’t understand.

 

[LASACRKO]

Emo isn’t an emotion, I don’t understand.

Well I’ve also lost emotions long ago whenever ppl ask me and I get it a lot that’s why I avoid talking to family cause I don’t think of anything so I don’t remember even if I feel anything

 

[zygos]

Well I’ve also lost emotions long ago whenever ppl ask me and I get it a lot that’s why I avoid talking to family cause I don’t think of anything so I don’t remember even if I feel anything

I’m sorry you feel this way. one day you will meet the right person, or just find it in yourself to feel again. Well, if that’s what you want.

 

[LASACRKO]

I’m sorry you feel this way. one day you will meet the right person, or just find it in yourself to feel again. Well, if that’s what you want.

Relationship is gay n***a ngl first step of being fulfilled is not depending on anyone

I don’t feel envy, mad, love or even miss anyone

I can show affection but I can move on as soon as that person does even the slightest thing I don’t like

Ppl are held captive by relationships and I’m not just talking romantic even family

 

[ricecelthegoat]

Relationship is gay n***a ngl first step of being fulfilled is not depending on anyone

I don’t feel envy, mad, love or even miss anyone

I can show affection but I can move on as soon as that person does even the slightest thing I don’t like

Ppl are held captive by relationships and I’m not just talking romantic even family

For me relationships are everything. Not with a girl or anything like that obviously, but some of my bonds I made with my close friends keep me going.

 

[adn]

it’ll get better trust keep working on urself i used to feel the exact same way

 

[Randomized Shame]

I used to be like that. It honestly requires a lot of discipline to get out of that deep hole. It's not bad or good, it just 'is'. At least I didn't view it as a bad thing when I was experiencing it. I just wanted something different for myself.

I worked on it by creating an 'ideal' version of me in my head. If I could be anything and anyone I wanted, how would I act? Well, the first thing I thought of was "Well, he would be educated." "He would be disciplined." "He would be someone who was okay with being by himself." "He would be higher in emotional intelligence." And so on. I picked a goal out of the list of traits I desired in myself and I worked on them.

I'm proud of the man I've become. Not because I've achieved anything in particular, but because this version only exists in a world where I cared enough to change.

 

[zygos]

Relationship is gay n***a ngl first step of being fulfilled is not depending on anyone

I don’t feel envy, mad, love or even miss anyone

I can show affection but I can move on as soon as that person does even the slightest thing I don’t like

Ppl are held captive by relationships and I’m not just talking romantic even family

Honestly, I relate.

 

[zygos]

For me relationships are everything. Not with a girl or anything like that obviously, but some of my bonds I made with my close friends keep me going.

I feel the same, but at the same time. I could let go of any of them if I wanted too.

 

[zygos]

I used to be like that. It honestly requires a lot of discipline to get out of that deep hole. It's not bad or good, it just 'is'. At least I didn't view it as a bad thing when I was experiencing it. I just wanted something different for myself.

I worked on it by creating an 'ideal' version of me in my head. If I could be anything and anyone I wanted, how would I act? Well, the first thing I thought of was "Well, he would be educated." "He would be disciplined." "He would be someone who was okay with being by himself." "He would be higher in emotional intelligence." And so on. I picked a goal out of the list of traits I desired in myself and I worked on them.

I'm proud of the man I've become. Not because I've achieved anything in particular, but because this version only exists in a world where I cared enough to change.

I’m going to write this out and put it on my wall.