It never goes away

[Deleted Member 110462]

I don’t think I ever got the love and nourishment I was supposed to throughout my entire childhood, including now. My parents are mentally ill and were always caught up in other things. No matter what great things happen, I feel as if there will always be a deep feeling of unfulfillment. I have the most lovely boyfriend who loves me very much, and I think I get to see him this Christmas. He just lives 5,000 miles away from me. I’m devoted to Christ, but i’ve found that it comes with feeling the world is meaningless. It’s not fully true, but I can’t help but feel it. I don’t know what to do. My parents hate me and I have not one friend except my boyfriend. I’m a repellent to those around me because of my sadness. I’m helpless

 

[sensitive young boy]

 

[vastumevasatyam]

I have the most lovely boyfriend who loves me very much, and I think I get to see him this Christmas.

I’m a repellent to those around me because of my sadness. I’m helpless

In same para btw. Damn.

 

[typhon]

DNR.

 

[AngelinaVnoah]

I don’t think I ever got the love and nourishment I was supposed to throughout my entire childhood, including now. My parents are mentally ill and were always caught up in other things. No matter what great things happen, I feel as if there will always be a deep feeling of unfulfillment. I have the most lovely boyfriend who loves me very much, and I think I get to see him this Christmas. He just lives 5,000 miles away from me. I’m devoted to Christ, but i’ve found that it comes with feeling the world is meaningless. It’s not fully true, but I can’t help but feel it. I don’t know what to do. My parents hate me and I have not one friend except my boyfriend. I’m a repellent to those around me because of my sadness. I’m helpless

I'm really sorry you're going through this. I don't think there's anything wrong with you just because you're sad. You deserve to be loved and to have people around you who care about you. If you want, we can be friends I'd be happy to talk to you.

 

[Deleted Member 110462]

In same para btw. Damn.

I’m talking about people in my everyday,
People at school, people at work, people in general. I have an online boyfriend, it isn’t that crazy.

 

[Deleted Member 110462]

I'm really sorry you're going through this. I don't think there's anything wrong with you just because you're sad. You deserve to be loved and to have people around you who care about you. If you want, we can be friends I'd be happy to talk to you.

Thank you. My problem is actually becoming friends with people online and not in real life. That’s why I req banned in the first place, to hopefully try and not dwell online and talk to people that don’t actually care for me, but thank you, let’s be friends

 

[saw_escapingmtn]

felt dis. how can i turn my brain off and stop thinking about it

 

[Deleted Member 110462]

felt dis. how can i turn my brain off and stop thinking about it

I don’t know, drugs probably.
But that’s even more pathetic

 

[pauseboicarti]

n*****s unironically be edating

 

[vastumevasatyam]

I’m talking about people in my everyday,
People at school, people at work, people in general. I have an online boyfriend, it isn’t that crazy.

Crazy. And you met him online?
And how do people even date online bro jfl

 

[saw_escapingmtn]

I don’t know, drugs probably.
But that’s even more pathetic

i think my issue is that i am aware of the negative physical effects of drugs and surely descending is just going to make us feel even worse. i think the root issue is one's mind. ultimately, you have a mind and while it does change to some extent, old habits and connections remain for an extremely long time. having a bad childhood is genuinely death tier for quality of life (i think it rivals looks)

 

[Deleted Member 110462]

n*****s unironically be edating

Crazy. And you met him online?
And how do people even date online bro jfl

I’ve known him for 2 years and we meet this year.
None of you know what it’s like to be so unloved, you search for superficial connection.
Not even a crazy concept to understand, maybe for good-looking people. I wouldn’t know.

 

[Deleted Member 110462]

i think my issue is that i am aware of the negative physical effects of drugs and surely descending is just going to make us feel even worse. i think the root issue is one's mind. ultimately, you have a mind and while it does change to some extent, old habits and connections remain for an extremely long time. having a bad childhood is genuinely death tier for quality of life (i think it rivals looks)

Most definitely. My parents fed me cereal for dinner quite often. When you have bad parents, then lay their bad habits and ways of life onto you. I never even got a chance.

 

[pauseboicarti]

I’ve known him for 2 years and we meet this year.
None of you know what it’s like to be so unloved, you search for superficial connection.
Not even a crazy concept to understand, maybe for good-looking people. I wouldn’t know.

self-inflicted btw u could just post a selfie on ig and n*****s would slide

 

[Deleted Member 110462]

self-inflicted btw u could just post a selfie on ig and n*****s would slide

You’re assuming i’m good looking.

 

[pauseboicarti]

You’re assuming i’m good looking.

u dont have to be, its enough for women to be healthy and not disfigured to have the smv of an htn

 

[Deleted Member 110462]

u dont have to be, its enough for women to be healthy and not disfigured to have the smv of an htn

SEX market value.
I want to liked by people. I want to have friends.

 

[pauseboicarti]

SEX market value.
I want to liked by people. I want to have friends.

its not the looks holding u back then

 

[AngelinaVnoah]

Thank you. My problem is actually becoming friends with people online and not in real life. That’s why I req banned in the first place, to hopefully try and not dwell online and talk to people that don’t actually care for me, but thank you, let’s be friends

yeah, of course, let's be friends but can I ask why you find it hard to make friends irl? is it because you're shy, you don't really like socialising, or do you feel like people just don't want to talk to you?

 

[vastumevasatyam]

yeah, of course, let's be friends but can I ask why you find it hard to make friends irl? is it because you're shy, you don't really like socialising, or do you feel like people just don't want to talk to you?

Exactly what my love says. She's always right!

 

[Deleted Member 110462]

yeah, of course, let's be friends but can I ask why you find it hard to make friends irl? is it because you're shy, you don't really like socialising, or do you feel like people just don't want to talk to you?

I guess I always thought it was because of my appearance but i’m thinking it might be because i’m just so awkward and my personality is unlikable

 

[AngelinaVnoah]

I guess I always thought it was because of my appearance but i’m thinking it might be because i’m just so awkward and my personality is unlikable

I don't think it's necessarily your looks. like, even if someone doesn't fit the beauty standards, it doesn't mean people won't want to be around them. but when you say you're socially awkward and that your personality is unlikable, what do you mean exactly? what do you do that makes you think that?