ive always felt alone

[Alurmo]

legit my whole life, honestly idk if this is ideal or if i like it, but growing up isoloated made me used to being in solitude
when i was younger i hated public spaces with a passion bc i was conditioned to feel judged by people and through years of mental abuse, made me always feel watched
but now i just prefer being alone, i dont know how to socialize anyways

but theres one thing that i know from being isolated, is that ur brain doesnt think the same way a normal person does, its wired 180 from the average person

 

[Alurmo]

bump

 

[ltb]

legit my whole life, honestly idk if this is ideal or if i like it, but growing up isoloated made me used to being in solitude
when i was younger i hated public spaces with a passion bc i was conditioned to feel judged by people and through years of mental abuse, made me always feel watched
but now i just prefer being alone, i dont know how to socialize anyways

but theres one thing that i know from being isolated, is that ur brain doesnt think the same way a normal person does, its wired 180 from the average person

get one of those therapistswho are obsessed with your childhood lmao

 

[limo8]

Yea happens

 

[Alurmo]

get one of those therapistswho are obsessed with your childhood lmao

no
western methods doesnt work on hunter gatherer descendant minds

 

[Alurmo]

Yea happens

yeah happens alot here and there

 

[Bideltoid]

legit my whole life, honestly idk if this is ideal or if i like it, but growing up isoloated made me used to being in solitude
when i was younger i hated public spaces with a passion bc i was conditioned to feel judged by people and through years of mental abuse, made me always feel watched
but now i just prefer being alone, i dont know how to socialize anyways

but theres one thing that i know from being isolated, is that ur brain doesnt think the same way a normal person does, its wired 180 from the average person

Solitude demands sacrifice, it is not state human can achieve, since humans are attentive being in very deep core. You demand attention, love and respect, but do not get it, so you cope with solitude when you are just lonely. People who claim to be in solitude are either nihilists or outcasts, you might be second one from your stand of point.
Do not mistake solitude into loneliness, they are not same thing. worst part is your brain gets used to loneliness, there is no way out, only thing you can do is to mitigate it, since loneliness never leaves, You came to live and will eventually die lonely. Only person you truly have is yourself.