I have seen people like you living as monks in India, Tibet, Bhutan, Thailand and Cambodia. People who choose monkhood have a very sad life.
If you have no issue with Eastern cultures, you can apply for monkhood. You have to give up everything.
You will have no desires in life when you have given up everything like Buddha. You won't have any needs which you couldn't satisfy. Just meditate, preach and feel the nature.
Sadly, only Buddhism and Hinduism have this life option. There are lots of Russians and Ukrainians living as Hari Krishna monks in India. Guess what? They had terrible lives. You will find lots of White Buddhist monks in Thailand. If you cannot leave meat eating, then don't fall for that.