Story Killing myself tonight

[Archelaus]

I'm going to kill myself tonight.

I hope no mod or anything takes this down, it'd be a great favor I'm asking for them to keep this up.

To clarify, this thread is not asking for sympathy or anything, so please don't bother telling me stuff like "life's got more to it" blah blah blah, and no I won't elaborate on why I'm doing this either, just know it's gonna most likely happen unless a miracle strikes.

I always said I'm not as good as people here told me i am when i was making the info threads. It would make me seem like a helpful person sharing knowledge, but the reason i was doing that was thinking that maybe if i do good, it'll cancel out the bad i did.

I'm an unhealthy person mentally, and I've been since i was born, i did horrible stuff and i would be lying to say I'm not proud of it. Sounds weird but i just have no sense of morality at this point. Also makes you ask why am i trying to do good to cancel out the bad?

It's because I can't accept the fact that I'm unlovable if I'm authentic, and I'm sure everyone knows to be loved is to be seen and accepted, and to be seen you have to be authentic. The thing is, I'm the ugliest person there is when I'm authentic, and it would be selfish to hope that when people see me they'd accept me.

Archelaus is the persona i made in hopes of a new start i can identify myself with, it started as that, so i can still be authentic in a way atleast in a way, I'd say I'm a helpful person and all of that bs. But then I couldn't cope with the past so i just hoped I'd be able to be both a bad and good person.

But the thing is, Archelaus isn't actually me, it's not the authentic me. It's just me pretending to be someone I'm not.

Well anyways, that is the actual explanation to the reason i made this account.

One of the reasons I'm ending everything tonight is because i went and looked for a person who I'd be able to be authentic with, for that to happen they'd have to be just as unhealthy as me mentally and went through a lot with people as horrible as me. I stalked this person for months, and i actually mean stalking not just the "teehee I'm stalking their reposts", at this point i am sure i know more about their life and family history than they do themselves.

I did get accepted for a while, which was wonderful, I was happy, but again, I'm unhealthy so it wasn't bound to go perfectly. Well, long story short, i ruined it for basically no reason. and when i say no reason, I don't mean a meaningless reason, i genuinely mean i ruined it for the sake of doing that.

I have never been accepted before fully, authentically, the one time I do i ruin it.

This isn't the reason I'm ending it, i was planning to anyways for multiple reasons but delayed it because i thought I'd be happy if I don't fuck it up. And now that it is over, i find no reason to stop. Again i must remind you, don't try to reason with me, stop me or anything similar, it's futile and I won't even read it. And no please don't ask me to vent to you or anything similar either because I don't want to face any legal consequences, which i would if i was completely authentic.

I don't know why I'm writing this but i felt like writing it would make it more real, so here it is. If I'm back online tomorrow or in the future, then the clouds of heaven moved and so did my fate.
Also it makes it easier for me to wish that i live another day to have the chance to get back online and realize (as in make it real) that I'm not dead, easier to wish for this than wish for everything to go perfectly in my last night.

(Btw I'm not a girl, i larped as it to make the identity different, wasn't planning on it since Archelaus means prince of the people but then just stuck to it.)

 

[Deleted Member 86948]

Holy fuck

 

[Deleted Member 90602]

dnr

 

[Superior]

I'm going to kill myself tonight.

I hope no mod or anything takes this down, it'd be a great favor I'm asking for them to keep this up.

To clarify, this thread is not asking for sympathy or anything, so please don't bother telling me stuff like "life's got more to it" blah blah blah, and no I won't elaborate on why I'm doing this either, just know it's gonna most likely happen unless a miracle strikes.

I always said I'm not as good as people here told me i am when i was making the info threads. It would make me seem like a helpful person sharing knowledge, but the reason i was doing that was thinking that maybe if i do good, it'll cancel out the bad i did.

I'm an unhealthy person mentally, and I've been since i was born, i did horrible stuff and i would be lying to say I'm not proud of it. Sounds weird but i just have no sense of morality at this point. Also makes you ask why am i trying to do good to cancel out the bad?

It's because I can't accept the fact that I'm unlovable if I'm authentic, and I'm sure everyone knows to be loved is to be seen and accepted, and to be seen you have to be authentic. The thing is, I'm the ugliest person there is when I'm authentic, and it would be selfish to hope that when people see me they'd accept me.

Archelaus is the persona i made in hopes of a new start i can identify myself with, it started as that, so i can still be authentic in a way atleast in a way, I'd say I'm a helpful person and all of that bs. But then I couldn't cope with the past so i just hoped I'd be able to be both a bad and good person.

But the thing is, Archelaus isn't actually me, it's not the authentic me. It's just me pretending to be someone I'm not.

Well anyways, that is the actual explanation to the reason i made this account.

One of the reasons I'm ending everything tonight is because i went and looked for a person who I'd be able to be authentic with, for that to happen they'd have to be just as unhealthy as me mentally and went through a lot with people as horrible as me. I stalked this person for months, and i actually mean stalking not just the "teehee I'm stalking their reposts", at this point i am sure i know more about their life and family history than they do themselves.

I did get accepted for a while, which was wonderful, I was happy, but again, I'm unhealthy so it wasn't bound to go perfectly. Well, long story short, i ruined it for basically no reason. and when i say no reason, I don't mean a meaningless reason, i genuinely mean i ruined it for the sake of doing that.

I have never been accepted before fully, authentically, the one time I do i ruin it.

This isn't the reason I'm ending it, i was planning to anyways for multiple reasons but delayed it because i thought I'd be happy if I don't fuck it up. And now that it is over, i find no reason to stop. Again i must remind you, don't try to reason with me, stop me or anything similar, it's futile and I won't even read it. And no please don't ask me to vent to you or anything similar either because I don't want to face any legal consequences, which i would if i was completely authentic.

I don't know why I'm writing this but i felt like writing it would make it more real, so here it is. If I'm back online tomorrow or in the future, then the clouds of heaven moved and so did my fate.
Also it makes it easier for me to wish that i live another day to have the chance to get back online and realize (as in make it real) that I'm not dead, easier to wish for this than wish for everything to go perfectly in my last night.

(Btw I'm not a girl, i larped as it to make the identity different, wasn't planning on it since Archelaus means prince of the people but then just stuck to it.)

bro no I love your guides

 

[Аverymerrychristmas]

Wow. I really hope you don't. Life is beautiful, I wish you give it a second chance. May God have mercy on us all.

 

[Archelaus]

bro no I love your guides

There will probably be no more guides unless like i said something happens tonight and fixes it all

 

[gimp]

I'm going to kill myself tonight.

I hope no mod or anything takes this down, it'd be a great favor I'm asking for them to keep this up.

To clarify, this thread is not asking for sympathy or anything, so please don't bother telling me stuff like "life's got more to it" blah blah blah, and no I won't elaborate on why I'm doing this either, just know it's gonna most likely happen unless a miracle strikes.

I always said I'm not as good as people here told me i am when i was making the info threads. It would make me seem like a helpful person sharing knowledge, but the reason i was doing that was thinking that maybe if i do good, it'll cancel out the bad i did.

I'm an unhealthy person mentally, and I've been since i was born, i did horrible stuff and i would be lying to say I'm not proud of it. Sounds weird but i just have no sense of morality at this point. Also makes you ask why am i trying to do good to cancel out the bad?

It's because I can't accept the fact that I'm unlovable if I'm authentic, and I'm sure everyone knows to be loved is to be seen and accepted, and to be seen you have to be authentic. The thing is, I'm the ugliest person there is when I'm authentic, and it would be selfish to hope that when people see me they'd accept me.

Archelaus is the persona i made in hopes of a new start i can identify myself with, it started as that, so i can still be authentic in a way atleast in a way, I'd say I'm a helpful person and all of that bs. But then I couldn't cope with the past so i just hoped I'd be able to be both a bad and good person.

But the thing is, Archelaus isn't actually me, it's not the authentic me. It's just me pretending to be someone I'm not.

Well anyways, that is the actual explanation to the reason i made this account.

One of the reasons I'm ending everything tonight is because i went and looked for a person who I'd be able to be authentic with, for that to happen they'd have to be just as unhealthy as me mentally and went through a lot with people as horrible as me. I stalked this person for months, and i actually mean stalking not just the "teehee I'm stalking their reposts", at this point i am sure i know more about their life and family history than they do themselves.

I did get accepted for a while, which was wonderful, I was happy, but again, I'm unhealthy so it wasn't bound to go perfectly. Well, long story short, i ruined it for basically no reason. and when i say no reason, I don't mean a meaningless reason, i genuinely mean i ruined it for the sake of doing that.

I have never been accepted before fully, authentically, the one time I do i ruin it.

This isn't the reason I'm ending it, i was planning to anyways for multiple reasons but delayed it because i thought I'd be happy if I don't fuck it up. And now that it is over, i find no reason to stop. Again i must remind you, don't try to reason with me, stop me or anything similar, it's futile and I won't even read it. And no please don't ask me to vent to you or anything similar either because I don't want to face any legal consequences, which i would if i was completely authentic.

I don't know why I'm writing this but i felt like writing it would make it more real, so here it is. If I'm back online tomorrow or in the future, then the clouds of heaven moved and so did my fate.
Also it makes it easier for me to wish that i live another day to have the chance to get back online and realize (as in make it real) that I'm not dead, easier to wish for this than wish for everything to go perfectly in my last night.

(Btw I'm not a girl, i larped as it to make the identity different, wasn't planning on it since Archelaus means prince of the people but then just stuck to it.)

Can you gimme a tldr ? And welcome back bud

 

[Penalizer69]

Legal consequences but you're roping anyway?

 

[PingPong]

dnrd but dont kys

 

[Archelaus]

Legal consequences but you're roping anyway?

in the case I don't do it, I'm hoping said miracle happens

 

[Chainsaw Man]

Dont rope let's run away to jamaica tigether and get a small house on the beach and have a healthy open romantic relationship

 

[Archelaus]

Dont rope let's run away to jamaica tigether and get a small house on the beach and have a healthy open romantic relationship

I'm a dude bro i think u should read it

 

[Chainsaw Man]

I'm a dude bro i think u should read it

I knew that before writing it

 

[Archelaus]

I knew that before writing it

tbh I'd grape @over0 [in Minecraft]

 

[Chainsaw Man]

tbh I'd grape @over0 [in Minecraft]

What about me

 

[Penalizer69]

tbh I'd grape @over0 [in Minecraft]

 

[Archelaus]

What about me

You first

 

[Archelaus]

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It ain't a choice mate

 

[Blackpillirony]

I'm going to kill myself tonight.

I hope no mod or anything takes this down, it'd be a great favor I'm asking for them to keep this up.

To clarify, this thread is not asking for sympathy or anything, so please don't bother telling me stuff like "life's got more to it" blah blah blah, and no I won't elaborate on why I'm doing this either, just know it's gonna most likely happen unless a miracle strikes.

I always said I'm not as good as people here told me i am when i was making the info threads. It would make me seem like a helpful person sharing knowledge, but the reason i was doing that was thinking that maybe if i do good, it'll cancel out the bad i did.

I'm an unhealthy person mentally, and I've been since i was born, i did horrible stuff and i would be lying to say I'm not proud of it. Sounds weird but i just have no sense of morality at this point. Also makes you ask why am i trying to do good to cancel out the bad?

It's because I can't accept the fact that I'm unlovable if I'm authentic, and I'm sure everyone knows to be loved is to be seen and accepted, and to be seen you have to be authentic. The thing is, I'm the ugliest person there is when I'm authentic, and it would be selfish to hope that when people see me they'd accept me.

Archelaus is the persona i made in hopes of a new start i can identify myself with, it started as that, so i can still be authentic in a way atleast in a way, I'd say I'm a helpful person and all of that bs. But then I couldn't cope with the past so i just hoped I'd be able to be both a bad and good person.

But the thing is, Archelaus isn't actually me, it's not the authentic me. It's just me pretending to be someone I'm not.

Well anyways, that is the actual explanation to the reason i made this account.

One of the reasons I'm ending everything tonight is because i went and looked for a person who I'd be able to be authentic with, for that to happen they'd have to be just as unhealthy as me mentally and went through a lot with people as horrible as me. I stalked this person for months, and i actually mean stalking not just the "teehee I'm stalking their reposts", at this point i am sure i know more about their life and family history than they do themselves.

I did get accepted for a while, which was wonderful, I was happy, but again, I'm unhealthy so it wasn't bound to go perfectly. Well, long story short, i ruined it for basically no reason. and when i say no reason, I don't mean a meaningless reason, i genuinely mean i ruined it for the sake of doing that.

I have never been accepted before fully, authentically, the one time I do i ruin it.

This isn't the reason I'm ending it, i was planning to anyways for multiple reasons but delayed it because i thought I'd be happy if I don't fuck it up. And now that it is over, i find no reason to stop. Again i must remind you, don't try to reason with me, stop me or anything similar, it's futile and I won't even read it. And no please don't ask me to vent to you or anything similar either because I don't want to face any legal consequences, which i would if i was completely authentic.

I don't know why I'm writing this but i felt like writing it would make it more real, so here it is. If I'm back online tomorrow or in the future, then the clouds of heaven moved and so did my fate.
Also it makes it easier for me to wish that i live another day to have the chance to get back online and realize (as in make it real) that I'm not dead, easier to wish for this than wish for everything to go perfectly in my last night.

(Btw I'm not a girl, i larped as it to make the identity different, wasn't planning on it since Archelaus means prince of the people but then just stuck to it.)

Please don’t, even if you did some horrible things you don’t regret this doesn’t mean you should end it all.

 

[Chainsaw Man]

You first

Lets roleplay till we can see eachother

 

[Archelaus]

Please don’t, even if you did some horrible things you don’t regret this doesn’t mean you should end it all.

I'm not ending it cuz i did horrible things, it's for multiple reasons other than that, i just mentioned it cuz i wanted to talk about the last straw, being unlovable

 

[Deleted Member 71746]

I'm going to kill myself tonight.

I hope no mod or anything takes this down, it'd be a great favor I'm asking for them to keep this up.

To clarify, this thread is not asking for sympathy or anything, so please don't bother telling me stuff like "life's got more to it" blah blah blah, and no I won't elaborate on why I'm doing this either, just know it's gonna most likely happen unless a miracle strikes.

I always said I'm not as good as people here told me i am when i was making the info threads. It would make me seem like a helpful person sharing knowledge, but the reason i was doing that was thinking that maybe if i do good, it'll cancel out the bad i did.

I'm an unhealthy person mentally, and I've been since i was born, i did horrible stuff and i would be lying to say I'm not proud of it. Sounds weird but i just have no sense of morality at this point. Also makes you ask why am i trying to do good to cancel out the bad?

It's because I can't accept the fact that I'm unlovable if I'm authentic, and I'm sure everyone knows to be loved is to be seen and accepted, and to be seen you have to be authentic. The thing is, I'm the ugliest person there is when I'm authentic, and it would be selfish to hope that when people see me they'd accept me.

Archelaus is the persona i made in hopes of a new start i can identify myself with, it started as that, so i can still be authentic in a way atleast in a way, I'd say I'm a helpful person and all of that bs. But then I couldn't cope with the past so i just hoped I'd be able to be both a bad and good person.

But the thing is, Archelaus isn't actually me, it's not the authentic me. It's just me pretending to be someone I'm not.

Well anyways, that is the actual explanation to the reason i made this account.

One of the reasons I'm ending everything tonight is because i went and looked for a person who I'd be able to be authentic with, for that to happen they'd have to be just as unhealthy as me mentally and went through a lot with people as horrible as me. I stalked this person for months, and i actually mean stalking not just the "teehee I'm stalking their reposts", at this point i am sure i know more about their life and family history than they do themselves.

I did get accepted for a while, which was wonderful, I was happy, but again, I'm unhealthy so it wasn't bound to go perfectly. Well, long story short, i ruined it for basically no reason. and when i say no reason, I don't mean a meaningless reason, i genuinely mean i ruined it for the sake of doing that.

I have never been accepted before fully, authentically, the one time I do i ruin it.

This isn't the reason I'm ending it, i was planning to anyways for multiple reasons but delayed it because i thought I'd be happy if I don't fuck it up. And now that it is over, i find no reason to stop. Again i must remind you, don't try to reason with me, stop me or anything similar, it's futile and I won't even read it. And no please don't ask me to vent to you or anything similar either because I don't want to face any legal consequences, which i would if i was completely authentic.

I don't know why I'm writing this but i felt like writing it would make it more real, so here it is. If I'm back online tomorrow or in the future, then the clouds of heaven moved and so did my fate.
Also it makes it easier for me to wish that i live another day to have the chance to get back online and realize (as in make it real) that I'm not dead, easier to wish for this than wish for everything to go perfectly in my last night.

(Btw I'm not a girl, i larped as it to make the identity different, wasn't planning on it since Archelaus means prince of the people but then just stuck to it.)

I was trynna do dat but i’m staying just to see what’s next like absolutely no reasons

 

[Archelaus]

I was trynna do dat but i’m staying just to see what’s next like absolutely no reasons

my attention span is too low to be entertained by what's gonna happen and I don't care much about what will happen tbh, that's why i think this doesn't apply to me. but mirin if it is what stopped u

 

[Blackpillirony]

I'm not ending it cuz i did horrible things, it's for multiple reasons other than that, i just mentioned it cuz i wanted to talk about the last straw, being unlovable

Well you’re liked in the community at least

 

[homiespidyhatesjuice]

I'm going to kill myself tonight.

I hope no mod or anything takes this down, it'd be a great favor I'm asking for them to keep this up.

To clarify, this thread is not asking for sympathy or anything, so please don't bother telling me stuff like "life's got more to it" blah blah blah, and no I won't elaborate on why I'm doing this either, just know it's gonna most likely happen unless a miracle strikes.

I always said I'm not as good as people here told me i am when i was making the info threads. It would make me seem like a helpful person sharing knowledge, but the reason i was doing that was thinking that maybe if i do good, it'll cancel out the bad i did.

I'm an unhealthy person mentally, and I've been since i was born, i did horrible stuff and i would be lying to say I'm not proud of it. Sounds weird but i just have no sense of morality at this point. Also makes you ask why am i trying to do good to cancel out the bad?

It's because I can't accept the fact that I'm unlovable if I'm authentic, and I'm sure everyone knows to be loved is to be seen and accepted, and to be seen you have to be authentic. The thing is, I'm the ugliest person there is when I'm authentic, and it would be selfish to hope that when people see me they'd accept me.

Archelaus is the persona i made in hopes of a new start i can identify myself with, it started as that, so i can still be authentic in a way atleast in a way, I'd say I'm a helpful person and all of that bs. But then I couldn't cope with the past so i just hoped I'd be able to be both a bad and good person.

But the thing is, Archelaus isn't actually me, it's not the authentic me. It's just me pretending to be someone I'm not.

Well anyways, that is the actual explanation to the reason i made this account.

One of the reasons I'm ending everything tonight is because i went and looked for a person who I'd be able to be authentic with, for that to happen they'd have to be just as unhealthy as me mentally and went through a lot with people as horrible as me. I stalked this person for months, and i actually mean stalking not just the "teehee I'm stalking their reposts", at this point i am sure i know more about their life and family history than they do themselves.

I did get accepted for a while, which was wonderful, I was happy, but again, I'm unhealthy so it wasn't bound to go perfectly. Well, long story short, i ruined it for basically no reason. and when i say no reason, I don't mean a meaningless reason, i genuinely mean i ruined it for the sake of doing that.

I have never been accepted before fully, authentically, the one time I do i ruin it.

This isn't the reason I'm ending it, i was planning to anyways for multiple reasons but delayed it because i thought I'd be happy if I don't fuck it up. And now that it is over, i find no reason to stop. Again i must remind you, don't try to reason with me, stop me or anything similar, it's futile and I won't even read it. And no please don't ask me to vent to you or anything similar either because I don't want to face any legal consequences, which i would if i was completely authentic.

I don't know why I'm writing this but i felt like writing it would make it more real, so here it is. If I'm back online tomorrow or in the future, then the clouds of heaven moved and so did my fate.
Also it makes it easier for me to wish that i live another day to have the chance to get back online and realize (as in make it real) that I'm not dead, easier to wish for this than wish for everything to go perfectly in my last night.

(Btw I'm not a girl, i larped as it to make the identity different, wasn't planning on it since Archelaus means prince of the people but then just stuck to it.)

dont do it pls

 

[homiespidyhatesjuice]

I'm not ending it cuz i did horrible things, it's for multiple reasons other than that, i just mentioned it cuz i wanted to talk about the last straw, being unlovable

i love u no diddy

 

[Archelaus]

Well you’re liked in the community at least

yeah used to cope with that but I'm not authentic with myself tbh

 

[Chainsaw Man]

yeah used to cope with that but I'm not authentic with myself tbh

Can we have sex before you die atleast

 

[Archelaus]

i love u no diddy

Likewise, but tbh you only know what i chose to share not everything about me, that's what the thread is about, no authenticity because it'll ruin everything sadly

 

[Archelaus]

Can we have sex before you die atleast

I'm heterosexual sorry man

 

[Chainsaw Man]

I'm heterosexual sorry man

Even if i femboymaxx for you?

 

[Archelaus]

Even if i femboymaxx for you?

I'm sorry I'm fully hetero, although my friend @tbl12 would probably love you alot and take care of you

 

[Blackpillirony]

yeah used to cope with that but I'm not authentic with myself tbh

Well maybe, but is it possible for you to be authentic without taking your own life ?

 

[Chainsaw Man]

I'm sorry I'm fully hetero, although my friend @tbl12 would probably love you alot and take care of you

No im sorry my lustful desires were only for you

 

[Archelaus]

Well maybe, but is it possible for you to be authentic without taking your own life ?

Honestly, if everything tonight goes well yeah sure, i could be and i wouldn't end my life

 

[Huntergirl]

Considering you’re being your most authentic self right now and being real about your mistakes sounds actually like the opposite of being someone with no morality. People with no moral compass don’t think about the impact they’ve had, let alone put it out there for others to see. The fact that you’re reflecting on it like this proves there’s still something real in you so maybe let yourself try to do better and don't make this the endpoint

 

[TonyDr]

I'm going to kill myself tonight.

I hope no mod or anything takes this down, it'd be a great favor I'm asking for them to keep this up.

To clarify, this thread is not asking for sympathy or anything, so please don't bother telling me stuff like "life's got more to it" blah blah blah, and no I won't elaborate on why I'm doing this either, just know it's gonna most likely happen unless a miracle strikes.

I always said I'm not as good as people here told me i am when i was making the info threads. It would make me seem like a helpful person sharing knowledge, but the reason i was doing that was thinking that maybe if i do good, it'll cancel out the bad i did.

I'm an unhealthy person mentally, and I've been since i was born, i did horrible stuff and i would be lying to say I'm not proud of it. Sounds weird but i just have no sense of morality at this point. Also makes you ask why am i trying to do good to cancel out the bad?

It's because I can't accept the fact that I'm unlovable if I'm authentic, and I'm sure everyone knows to be loved is to be seen and accepted, and to be seen you have to be authentic. The thing is, I'm the ugliest person there is when I'm authentic, and it would be selfish to hope that when people see me they'd accept me.

Archelaus is the persona i made in hopes of a new start i can identify myself with, it started as that, so i can still be authentic in a way atleast in a way, I'd say I'm a helpful person and all of that bs. But then I couldn't cope with the past so i just hoped I'd be able to be both a bad and good person.

But the thing is, Archelaus isn't actually me, it's not the authentic me. It's just me pretending to be someone I'm not.

Well anyways, that is the actual explanation to the reason i made this account.

One of the reasons I'm ending everything tonight is because i went and looked for a person who I'd be able to be authentic with, for that to happen they'd have to be just as unhealthy as me mentally and went through a lot with people as horrible as me. I stalked this person for months, and i actually mean stalking not just the "teehee I'm stalking their reposts", at this point i am sure i know more about their life and family history than they do themselves.

I did get accepted for a while, which was wonderful, I was happy, but again, I'm unhealthy so it wasn't bound to go perfectly. Well, long story short, i ruined it for basically no reason. and when i say no reason, I don't mean a meaningless reason, i genuinely mean i ruined it for the sake of doing that.

I have never been accepted before fully, authentically, the one time I do i ruin it.

This isn't the reason I'm ending it, i was planning to anyways for multiple reasons but delayed it because i thought I'd be happy if I don't fuck it up. And now that it is over, i find no reason to stop. Again i must remind you, don't try to reason with me, stop me or anything similar, it's futile and I won't even read it. And no please don't ask me to vent to you or anything similar either because I don't want to face any legal consequences, which i would if i was completely authentic.

I don't know why I'm writing this but i felt like writing it would make it more real, so here it is. If I'm back online tomorrow or in the future, then the clouds of heaven moved and so did my fate.
Also it makes it easier for me to wish that i live another day to have the chance to get back online and realize (as in make it real) that I'm not dead, easier to wish for this than wish for everything to go perfectly in my last night.

(Btw I'm not a girl, i larped as it to make the identity different, wasn't planning on it since Archelaus means prince of the people but then just stuck to it.)

Wtf bro don't do that

 

[Blackpillirony]

Honestly, if everything tonight goes well yeah sure, i could be and i wouldn't end my life

What happens tonight ? Also do you mind sharing what’s your age ?

 

[Chainsaw Man]

Start skateboarding thats authentic

 

[Archelaus]

Considering you’re being your most authentic self right now and being real about your mistakes sounds actually like the opposite of being someone with no morality. People with no moral compass don’t think about the impact they’ve had, let alone put it out there for others to see. The fact that you’re reflecting on it like this proves there’s still something real in you so maybe let yourself try to do better and don't make this the endpoint

Only reason I'm being real about it is because i had to mention it on why i could never be authentic to someone ik personally. Thanks for your reply, it's hopeful

 

[Archelaus]

What happens tonight ? Also do you mind sharing what’s your age ?

can't share either but it'll be the last attempt at me fixing everything. obviously it doesn't matter how hard i try since I'm not the only one involved so ig it also depends on the others involved

 

[Randomized]

Life ends 100% the same way. 100% of us dies 100% of the time. Why cut it short early? What the point of cutting the bud of a rose before it blossoms? Or what's the point of being impatient about things eventually getting better?

I can't make you view life differently, but what prevented me from killing myself was realizing the result was the same, but there was a possibility that things got better. There was no point on cutting it short besides robbing myself a different emotional response to my life. I could die miserable and young or maybe I could die old and loved. It did eventually change for me though. I found my wife, I feel less alone.

If you die at 80 alone, the only thing you wasted was time, and when you die it's not like time matters.

 

[Archelaus]

Life ends 100% the same way. 100% of us dies 100% of the time. Why cut it short early? What the point of cutting the bud of a rose before it blossoms? Or what's the point of being impatient about things eventually getting better?

I can't make you view life differently, but what prevented me from killing myself was realizing the result was the same, but there was a possibility that things got better. There was no point on cutting it short besides robbing myself a different emotional response to my life. I could die miserable and young or maybe I could die old and loved. It did eventually change for me though. I found my wife, I feel less alone.

If you die at 80 alone, the only thing you wasted was time, and when you die it's not like time matters.

I will look tonight for solutions or some way to delay my death, hopefully the former is what i find, thanks

 

[Zillophone]

for by grace have ye been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; 9not of works, that no man should glory. 10For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God afore prepared that we should walk in them.
11Wherefore remember, that once ye, the Gentiles in the flesh, who are called Uncircumcision by that which is called Circumcision, in the flesh, made by hands; 12that ye were at that time separate from Christ, alienated from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers from the covenants of the promise, having no hope and without God in the world. 13But now in Christ Jesus ye that once were far off are made nigh in the blood of Christ. 14For he is our peace, who made both one, and brake down the middle wall of partition, 15having abolished in his flesh the enmity, even the law of commandments contained in ordinances; that he might create in himself of the two one new man, so making peace; 16and might reconcile them both in one body unto God through the cross, having slain the enmity thereby

ephesians chapter 2 verses 8-16

 

[idkwhatodo]

for by grace have ye been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; 9not of works, that no man should glory. 10For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God afore prepared that we should walk in them.
11Wherefore remember, that once ye, the Gentiles in the flesh, who are called Uncircumcision by that which is called Circumcision, in the flesh, made by hands; 12that ye were at that time separate from Christ, alienated from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers from the covenants of the promise, having no hope and without God in the world. 13But now in Christ Jesus ye that once were far off are made nigh in the blood of Christ. 14For he is our peace, who made both one, and brake down the middle wall of partition, 15having abolished in his flesh the enmity, even the law of commandments contained in ordinances; that he might create in himself of the two one new man, so making peace; 16and might reconcile them both in one body unto God through the cross, having slain the enmity thereby

not tuff my guy

 

[Archelaus]

for by grace have ye been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; 9not of works, that no man should glory. 10For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God afore prepared that we should walk in them.
11Wherefore remember, that once ye, the Gentiles in the flesh, who are called Uncircumcision by that which is called Circumcision, in the flesh, made by hands; 12that ye were at that time separate from Christ, alienated from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers from the covenants of the promise, having no hope and without God in the world. 13But now in Christ Jesus ye that once were far off are made nigh in the blood of Christ. 14For he is our peace, who made both one, and brake down the middle wall of partition, 15having abolished in his flesh the enmity, even the law of commandments contained in ordinances; that he might create in himself of the two one new man, so making peace; 16and might reconcile them both in one body unto God through the cross, having slain the enmity thereby

ephesians chapter 2 verses 8-16

Thanks but I'm not religious

 

[Zillophone]

Thanks but I'm not religious

Wherefore thou art without excuse, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest: for wherein thou judgest another, thou condemnest thyself; for thou that judgest dost practise the same things. 2And we know that the judgment of God is according to truth against them that practise such things. 3And reckonest thou this, O man, who judgest them that practise such things, and doest the same, that thou shalt escape the judgment of God? 4Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering, not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance? 5but after thy hardness and impenitent heart treasurest up for thyself wrath in the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of God; 6who will render to every man according to his works: 7to them that by patience in well-doing seek for glory and honor and incorruption, eternal life: 8but unto them that are factious, and obey not the truth, but obey unrighteousness, shall be wrath and indignation, 9tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man that worketh evil, of the Jew first, and also of the Greek; 10but glory and honor and peace to every man that worketh good, to the Jew first, and also to the Greek:

romans 2 verses 1-10

 

[Ghoultune]

What do you think will happen when U die

 

[woof]

Soul-crushing read bro, hope it gets better for u tho

 

[Archelaus]

What do you think will happen when U die

Nothing