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I used to be obsessed with calmness,
I searched for piece in all kind of places,
Tried accepting what i cant change.
Was in love with nature and enjoyed every day that passed,
i changed bc there were things i couldnt accept,
All my "friends" used to bully me, i only felt at peace when i was alone, i knew it couldnt stay this way.
One day my "best friend" told me to kill myself, he told me i am worthless and that i will never have anyone to truly like me.
the memory is slowly starting to get blurry,
I was extremly relived, that day i was so happy, i cried tears of happiness, i got manipulated.
I got used for my money and my time,
i was so happy i was finally alone again,
3 months later i started talking to a girl, i already had found new friends and everything seemed to be getting brighter.
I still talk to the friends i made during that period, they are amazing people,
The girl actually seemed like the missing piece i was looking for, we shared interests, especially in music, we both loved the piano,
she was the ex of my "best friend"
We talked bc it felt like the only natural thing i could do.
2 months later she broke up with me, she texted with another person.
At that point i was at a weird point in my life,
my other friends left school and i had no connections to anyone.
I was alone, i saw it as a fresh start, and i promissed myself to not allow anything to happen like what happened in the past, that i would stand up for myself,
I started workint on myself, i even joined this forum out of all things i could do.
Then on3 day, i met a childhood friend, we didnt plan anything we just met, qnd it was like god send me somone bc he knew what the future would bring.
now, around 1 year later, i am able to look at life the same way again i used to look at life, i was able to mak3 peace with myself, although slme proplr stiml get on my nervers, i am still able to control myself. I am still recovering and i would lie if i saif that the past didnt effect me. But i can say that i am happy with my current life.
I can finally feel the feelint again,
The feeling i used to feel when looking at the clouds, trees, citys and the ocean.
at some points i was thinking about suicide, but i can proudly say that it does get better.
I hope this read was worth it, and i thank everyone who agtually took their time to read this!
its never worth it
I used to be obsessed with calmness,
I searched for piece in all kind of places,
Tried accepting what i cant change.
Was in love with nature and enjoyed every day that passed,
i changed bc there were things i couldnt accept,
All my "friends" used to bully me, i only felt at peace when i was alone, i knew it couldnt stay this way.
One day my "best friend" told me to kill myself, he told me i am worthless and that i will never have anyone to truly like me.
the memory is slowly starting to get blurry,
I was extremly relived, that day i was so happy, i cried tears of happiness, i got manipulated.
I got used for my money and my time,
i was so happy i was finally alone again,
3 months later i started talking to a girl, i already had found new friends and everything seemed to be getting brighter.
I still talk to the friends i made during that period, they are amazing people,
The girl actually seemed like the missing piece i was looking for, we shared interests, especially in music, we both loved the piano,
she was the ex of my "best friend"
We talked bc it felt like the only natural thing i could do.
2 months later she broke up with me, she texted with another person.
At that point i was at a weird point in my life,
my other friends left school and i had no connections to anyone.
I was alone, i saw it as a fresh start, and i promissed myself to not allow anything to happen like what happened in the past, that i would stand up for myself,
I started workint on myself, i even joined this forum out of all things i could do.
Then on3 day, i met a childhood friend, we didnt plan anything we just met, qnd it was like god send me somone bc he knew what the future would bring.
now, around 1 year later, i am able to look at life the same way again i used to look at life, i was able to mak3 peace with myself, although slme proplr stiml get on my nervers, i am still able to control myself. I am still recovering and i would lie if i saif that the past didnt effect me. But i can say that i am happy with my current life.
I can finally feel the feelint again,
The feeling i used to feel when looking at the clouds, trees, citys and the ocean.
at some points i was thinking about suicide, but i can proudly say that it does get better.
I hope this read was worth it, and i thank everyone who agtually took their time to read this!
its never worth it
