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I legit have always been so kind and shit but have had so many utterly brutal experiences then I locked in health maxed and shit I SHOCKED my doctors because of how well I improved
And what did i get?
A slew of new health problems since the start of last summer
I have found fixes for one of them btw
Onto of that Im genetically doomed in so many different ways
Like actually
I need to have more hate but Im just not and angry or hateful person im too fucking nice im so fucking ugly and ND
I legit can name one good thing about myself
My dedication
But no matter how hard I train or how good I eat or how much I try to be a good nice person it doesn't matter
Nothing has changed with girls I still get the same amount as when j was a subhuman ZERO
It's probably my fault somehow
I watched all my friends be unhealthy and shit and I get all the health issues
I get all the shit
I get all the flaws
I literally fucking hate my fucking life
My mom said she feels horrible for me she says she legit cries because she watched me take control of my life only for medical issues to just fuck me over again and again
I try so fucking hard
I do so fucking much
Nothing ever fucking works out for me
And I still try
Why do I still even try????
And what did i get?
A slew of new health problems since the start of last summer
I have found fixes for one of them btw
Onto of that Im genetically doomed in so many different ways
Like actually
I need to have more hate but Im just not and angry or hateful person im too fucking nice im so fucking ugly and ND
I legit can name one good thing about myself
My dedication
But no matter how hard I train or how good I eat or how much I try to be a good nice person it doesn't matter
Nothing has changed with girls I still get the same amount as when j was a subhuman ZERO
It's probably my fault somehow
I watched all my friends be unhealthy and shit and I get all the health issues
I get all the shit
I get all the flaws
I literally fucking hate my fucking life
My mom said she feels horrible for me she says she legit cries because she watched me take control of my life only for medical issues to just fuck me over again and again
I try so fucking hard
I do so fucking much
Nothing ever fucking works out for me
And I still try
Why do I still even try????