It gets easier hang in there.
You can go from making some one on one laugh, interested, engaged to being ignored when another person joins the chat, it's brutal and what makes me blackpilled. Basically at times, ignored even if you're the ugliest, but mostly it's just women that do that.
Women are often vapid. I used to jestermax in my naive youth, yet you realise most women are incredibly dull - of course I'd swap it all to be Chad - but the juice ain't worth the squeeze, unless she's a unicorn and we all know they don't exist. Normie women get bored easily! They grind Chad down to a stage of where he ends up beta bucks (if he marries her) or they start nit-picking every single thing the guy does, they're demanding, annoying and if you're aspie/ADHD you're not going to be stimulated in a conversation with many. I find very attractive people on the whole very friendly though, then again look how validated they are just by going out the front door, no wonder many are pleasant.
I was a incel NPC in my 20s, well liked (by guys) the jestermax basically, you're meant to entertain whilst they kiss the girls in front of you at the same time. I had a big circle of acquaintances.
Few years back I stopped giving a f**k. Didn't go about acting fake tough guy, but I let all those one sided relationships just drift away, most of them end up doing that; but if anyone said a shitty remark I would give as much back.
You're not going to get the girl, but you'll gain some respect (from people worth respecting, build these friendships).
You'll stop giving a f**k the older you get, but I've never been happier to get rid of false friends.
I've got 2 Chad friends, both now married, seen women all over both them at times. This is what basically made me blackpilled, how a woman could laugh, act sweet with my Chad pal yet give me one word answers ; not even that she found me ugly, but the utter lack of empathy from another human to another due to uglyness. I tried to play the game just never got picked.
You'll get the last laugh though. These beautiful women who rejected you in their 20s, many will age like milk, or they'll f**k so many Chads who pump and dump, they'll be basically bipolar, crazy cat moms at 40 who hit the wall.
If you keep you're health, hobbies, money all to yourself you'll be able to provide a great life for yourself. The better a life you can build, the less you need these chumps too.