i will not have nothing to lose , my life is a constant hell in my mind and in my experience of living, my life is a straight line ————— nothing ever changes no matter if i achieve a goal and i am getting tired of this cycle , i am getting tired of envious people ,i am tired of retards in general , id you were me you would understand what it is to be me , i couldnt ever come out good in a photo cus i was a ugly bastard , but girls still liked me and now after surgeries i get called botched and i get hate all over the place and it seems my dating life isnt getting any better so im assuming i might have ruined my appeal pretty badly , and in my head people are the fauly for ruining me and causing this horrid body dysmorphia i have on a daily to the point i come out terrangular in every photo , this was supposed to mean i ascended but you fucking retards want to draw me back into the subhuman i used to be back then , ive onky felt pain over and over and i want to make you pay i want to be your worst nightmare i want u and your girlfriend to die
