Happy new year everyone.
Since the age of 12, I had guessed that looks play a role.
However, I only fully became aware of it as I faced rejection after rejections, 9 in a row by 9 different girls (I am an 18yo M, being a rather sensitive guy, I am very affected by it), as well as discovering looksmaxxing in 2023, but began diving deep into the rabbit hole by the start of 2025.
After the lies, the ghosting I received from those girls, which reinforced my desire for a relationship, for hugs, kisses, sex, and all the rest, I was left frustrated, angry and sad, all alone once again.
The idea of doing anything romantic with the opposite gender vanished as another was engrained in my brain : I need to do something about my situation. And I got here. Knowing this site's userbase are half the looxmax.org's number wise, I thought I had a better chance of documenting my journey here and be heard. And I want to improve in order to have a shot at a romantic life, because I'm not mad at girls as a whole, I'm mad at human nature. All of us are by default favoring the better looking person according to our brains, especially in romantic settings, but you can't fight against it. You can only play by the rules.
I won't post my face since I already know where I stand at, I am anywhere between a hltn to a lmtn. However I will in future posts.
Here is what I planned on doing (I will make more in depth threads for each section below in the future) :
Rhinoplasty :
Since my nose is bulbous, The idea is to refine the bridge, the nasal width, as well as slightly reduce the inter alar width. In my option, the problem does not lie in the cartilage structure, but rather the skin not "sticking to the bone". (By the way, since I have noticed that pressing the skin on the cartilage made my nose more defined, this gave me an idea : create something wearable out of transparent modulable material that creates slight pressure on my skin in order to reshape the nose temporarily while waiting for the surgery.)
Regarding the money, I already have a little over 2500 euros, but need to get to 7000-8000 to comfortably afford it. I temporarily dropped out of my studies until September 2026, because I was not able to find an internship alongside my tourism management diploma. I will use this opportunity to work, and will try to apply as a cashier for a few months, either in France or in Switzerland (ideal since I could be paid more).
I have appointments with surgeons coming in the next months, and need to think about a way of getting there since I have not got a diver's license yet.
Since my nose is similar to the one of the left image below, that is a general idea of what I would like out of the surgery.
Hair "framing" :
While I have an ideal frontal jaw angle, my bigonial width is sightly too narrow compared to my bizygomatic width. The idea is to grow my hair to the neck level, and perm them wavy, in order to slightly cover my zygomatics, in order to give the illusion of a more rectangle face shape and highlight the frontal jaw angle. I have tried wearing a very cheap yet realistic wig and styling it, and it does make a positive visual impact.
Also, when well styled and with volume, I could be sticking out by contrasting with the short hair that the vast majority of men has.
Finally, I would like to experiment with hairstyles, to dye it lighter, probably a dark blonde and play around with facial contrast, and just see how I’d look with different hair.
My current hair on the front goes down a little under my nose, and on the side, it goes down to my cheekbones. Having to let them grow for 8-12 months, I surely will order a realistic wig and ask a hairstylist to shape it how I want, so I can benefit from the "framing" sooner.
The hairstyle on the image below is a pretty good idea of what I will do.
Teeth whitening :
You guessed it, my teeth aren't the whitest. I will go about whitening in one of two ways, either an at home kit brough in a dentist clinic (cheaper than the dentist doing it himself, and I need to save up for the surgery), or by following Pneguide (https://looksmax.org/threads/how-i-whitened-my-teeth-better-than-a-dentist-pics.534724/). If I go that route however, I will buy a H2O2 gel with less concentration than he suggested as I once had a bad experience with peroxide and ended up with stains/plaque on my teeth that made them yellower (fortunately going to the dentist got them removed). I don't want it to happen again.
Correcting lip seal :
I always had and still have a (upper) lip incompetence resulting in me forcefully closing my lips using the mentalis muscle (mentalis strain). It worsens facial aesthetics : making the filtrum too short and in consequence, the chin to filtrum ration, in my case making the mouth down turned thus giving a sad and dumb look, making my lower lip protrude from the side and making my chin look flat and inexistant also from the side, and making a weird shape from the front on the chin. Alongside that, this unideal seal fails to make my lips enough moist, meaning they always get dry, even in summer. This creates an unpleasant sensation that leads me to convulsively pick the lips' dead skin (dermatillomania), leaving me in pain, my lips sometimes bleeding a bit, and sometimes (I am guessing) seen as weird. I even noticed slight difficulties in pronouncing certain words or sets of syllables
Lip balm helps me, but only temporarily, and I have to put some all the time. The only real solution is taking an appointment with a speech therapist in order to work through this and fix it.
I don't think it is a structural problem nor a breathing one, as I have a normal bite and always breathe through my nose at rest, but rather, I believe that my upper lip is a bit too short, with less elasticity than average, and I have untrained orbicularis oris muscles (around the mouth) due to years of having a bad lip seal. For now, I'm doing exercises on my own, but rapidly feels exhausted and unable to hold what I think is a normal lip seal for long, which is probably explained by the reasons I mentioned earlier.
On the left, a person who has severely picked her lips, on the center, what a mentalis strain looks from the side, and on the right, what it looks like from the front.
Eyebrows :
Mine are dark brown colored already, but I would like them being a bit more striking, in order to increase perceived masculinity and contrast with the hair. I already ordered a black dye (works also for lashes). (What I bought : https://www.beautycoiffure.com/colo...rEwMeXCX65xlbNspiD4FjvM0tg1J_vuxoC-bUQAvD_BwE.)
I would also try to trim in order to make them more upturned, I personally believe that it could give me a more confident look.
Here is what I roughly aim at, though I will aim for a more natural look.
Physique :
My idea is to only focus on growing the shoulders as it will improve my waist to shoulder visually. In my opinion, It is one of the only muscle you can work out while leaving the rest and it won't look disproportionate if you don't overgrow them, and it is the most aesthetic muscle, as well as the most "dimorphic potential" (with the neck).
I dislike the gym as a sport anyways so will not spend much time and do not plan anything other that lateral raises and reverse fly for 20 minutes sessions (with breaks and sets of course) every two or three days.
Since there is only gymcel pictures whenever you search physique, I couldn't find a reference to show what I strive to achieve.
Other things I may be doing (even though I don't think I will) :
Buying fat dissolver and injecting it in my cheeks (I am already very lean so I don't think it will change anything), canthoplasty (I have neutral to slightly negative canthal tilt but I am afraid it will end up looking unnatural), heightboosters (I am not confortable with the idea of starting to live with someone and them finding out inevitably).
My mindset and "model" :
I want to be enough for myself, and for a romantic relationship : I do no want to look like a Chad because I know I don't have the base to, and it is an unrealistic expectation, but I want to be (clearly) above average looking as I believe I can achieve it.
I know it is a recurring thing to not feel enough after improving in this community, but I have morphed myself, sometimes used wigs and contour in real life to what I'll look like after doing what I listed above, and I genuinely feel satisfied knowing I could look like this.
Maybe you already guessed it, I would like to go for a somewhat Bjorn Andresen vibe but looking more dimorphic, as I already have a more dimorphic face than him and would like to emphasize that. My aim is to balance masculine and feminine facial feature in order to make my face broadly appealing.
Bjorn is a figure I can identify myself to because I relate to his traits, not so facially, but rather height wise and frame wise (even though I got a better waist to shoulders ratio). The dude was short, feminine looking, with a narrow frame, yet made many girls fantasize about him still to this day, and knowing this is hopefuel for me.
Finally, my presence on this website :
I am here to document my journey in long but readable threads, weather it is appearance wise, mental health wise (I struggle), fails or success, and my interests outside looksmaxxing, such as music, basketball, or writing my reflections for example.
I will not write much outside of my threads. I am not here to shit on people or spam them.
Embers
Since the age of 12, I had guessed that looks play a role.
However, I only fully became aware of it as I faced rejection after rejections, 9 in a row by 9 different girls (I am an 18yo M, being a rather sensitive guy, I am very affected by it), as well as discovering looksmaxxing in 2023, but began diving deep into the rabbit hole by the start of 2025.
After the lies, the ghosting I received from those girls, which reinforced my desire for a relationship, for hugs, kisses, sex, and all the rest, I was left frustrated, angry and sad, all alone once again.
The idea of doing anything romantic with the opposite gender vanished as another was engrained in my brain : I need to do something about my situation. And I got here. Knowing this site's userbase are half the looxmax.org's number wise, I thought I had a better chance of documenting my journey here and be heard. And I want to improve in order to have a shot at a romantic life, because I'm not mad at girls as a whole, I'm mad at human nature. All of us are by default favoring the better looking person according to our brains, especially in romantic settings, but you can't fight against it. You can only play by the rules.
I won't post my face since I already know where I stand at, I am anywhere between a hltn to a lmtn. However I will in future posts.
Here is what I planned on doing (I will make more in depth threads for each section below in the future) :
Rhinoplasty :
Since my nose is bulbous, The idea is to refine the bridge, the nasal width, as well as slightly reduce the inter alar width. In my option, the problem does not lie in the cartilage structure, but rather the skin not "sticking to the bone". (By the way, since I have noticed that pressing the skin on the cartilage made my nose more defined, this gave me an idea : create something wearable out of transparent modulable material that creates slight pressure on my skin in order to reshape the nose temporarily while waiting for the surgery.)
Regarding the money, I already have a little over 2500 euros, but need to get to 7000-8000 to comfortably afford it. I temporarily dropped out of my studies until September 2026, because I was not able to find an internship alongside my tourism management diploma. I will use this opportunity to work, and will try to apply as a cashier for a few months, either in France or in Switzerland (ideal since I could be paid more).
I have appointments with surgeons coming in the next months, and need to think about a way of getting there since I have not got a diver's license yet.
Since my nose is similar to the one of the left image below, that is a general idea of what I would like out of the surgery.
Hair "framing" :
While I have an ideal frontal jaw angle, my bigonial width is sightly too narrow compared to my bizygomatic width. The idea is to grow my hair to the neck level, and perm them wavy, in order to slightly cover my zygomatics, in order to give the illusion of a more rectangle face shape and highlight the frontal jaw angle. I have tried wearing a very cheap yet realistic wig and styling it, and it does make a positive visual impact.
Also, when well styled and with volume, I could be sticking out by contrasting with the short hair that the vast majority of men has.
Finally, I would like to experiment with hairstyles, to dye it lighter, probably a dark blonde and play around with facial contrast, and just see how I’d look with different hair.
My current hair on the front goes down a little under my nose, and on the side, it goes down to my cheekbones. Having to let them grow for 8-12 months, I surely will order a realistic wig and ask a hairstylist to shape it how I want, so I can benefit from the "framing" sooner.
The hairstyle on the image below is a pretty good idea of what I will do.
Teeth whitening :
You guessed it, my teeth aren't the whitest. I will go about whitening in one of two ways, either an at home kit brough in a dentist clinic (cheaper than the dentist doing it himself, and I need to save up for the surgery), or by following Pneguide (https://looksmax.org/threads/how-i-whitened-my-teeth-better-than-a-dentist-pics.534724/). If I go that route however, I will buy a H2O2 gel with less concentration than he suggested as I once had a bad experience with peroxide and ended up with stains/plaque on my teeth that made them yellower (fortunately going to the dentist got them removed). I don't want it to happen again.
Correcting lip seal :
I always had and still have a (upper) lip incompetence resulting in me forcefully closing my lips using the mentalis muscle (mentalis strain). It worsens facial aesthetics : making the filtrum too short and in consequence, the chin to filtrum ration, in my case making the mouth down turned thus giving a sad and dumb look, making my lower lip protrude from the side and making my chin look flat and inexistant also from the side, and making a weird shape from the front on the chin. Alongside that, this unideal seal fails to make my lips enough moist, meaning they always get dry, even in summer. This creates an unpleasant sensation that leads me to convulsively pick the lips' dead skin (dermatillomania), leaving me in pain, my lips sometimes bleeding a bit, and sometimes (I am guessing) seen as weird. I even noticed slight difficulties in pronouncing certain words or sets of syllables
Lip balm helps me, but only temporarily, and I have to put some all the time. The only real solution is taking an appointment with a speech therapist in order to work through this and fix it.
I don't think it is a structural problem nor a breathing one, as I have a normal bite and always breathe through my nose at rest, but rather, I believe that my upper lip is a bit too short, with less elasticity than average, and I have untrained orbicularis oris muscles (around the mouth) due to years of having a bad lip seal. For now, I'm doing exercises on my own, but rapidly feels exhausted and unable to hold what I think is a normal lip seal for long, which is probably explained by the reasons I mentioned earlier.
On the left, a person who has severely picked her lips, on the center, what a mentalis strain looks from the side, and on the right, what it looks like from the front.
Eyebrows :
Mine are dark brown colored already, but I would like them being a bit more striking, in order to increase perceived masculinity and contrast with the hair. I already ordered a black dye (works also for lashes). (What I bought : https://www.beautycoiffure.com/colo...rEwMeXCX65xlbNspiD4FjvM0tg1J_vuxoC-bUQAvD_BwE.)
I would also try to trim in order to make them more upturned, I personally believe that it could give me a more confident look.
Here is what I roughly aim at, though I will aim for a more natural look.
Physique :
My idea is to only focus on growing the shoulders as it will improve my waist to shoulder visually. In my opinion, It is one of the only muscle you can work out while leaving the rest and it won't look disproportionate if you don't overgrow them, and it is the most aesthetic muscle, as well as the most "dimorphic potential" (with the neck).
I dislike the gym as a sport anyways so will not spend much time and do not plan anything other that lateral raises and reverse fly for 20 minutes sessions (with breaks and sets of course) every two or three days.
Since there is only gymcel pictures whenever you search physique, I couldn't find a reference to show what I strive to achieve.
Other things I may be doing (even though I don't think I will) :
Buying fat dissolver and injecting it in my cheeks (I am already very lean so I don't think it will change anything), canthoplasty (I have neutral to slightly negative canthal tilt but I am afraid it will end up looking unnatural), heightboosters (I am not confortable with the idea of starting to live with someone and them finding out inevitably).
My mindset and "model" :
I want to be enough for myself, and for a romantic relationship : I do no want to look like a Chad because I know I don't have the base to, and it is an unrealistic expectation, but I want to be (clearly) above average looking as I believe I can achieve it.
I know it is a recurring thing to not feel enough after improving in this community, but I have morphed myself, sometimes used wigs and contour in real life to what I'll look like after doing what I listed above, and I genuinely feel satisfied knowing I could look like this.
Maybe you already guessed it, I would like to go for a somewhat Bjorn Andresen vibe but looking more dimorphic, as I already have a more dimorphic face than him and would like to emphasize that. My aim is to balance masculine and feminine facial feature in order to make my face broadly appealing.
Bjorn is a figure I can identify myself to because I relate to his traits, not so facially, but rather height wise and frame wise (even though I got a better waist to shoulders ratio). The dude was short, feminine looking, with a narrow frame, yet made many girls fantasize about him still to this day, and knowing this is hopefuel for me.
Finally, my presence on this website :
I am here to document my journey in long but readable threads, weather it is appearance wise, mental health wise (I struggle), fails or success, and my interests outside looksmaxxing, such as music, basketball, or writing my reflections for example.
I will not write much outside of my threads. I am not here to shit on people or spam them.
Embers
hope ya the best man
