So, as i said, im posting this story on something that happened to me on the beach and why i blame my friends to be absolute hypocrites and moralfags. To put yall in context, we were in the beach staying on a friends apartment with no parents whatsoever. The whole thing happened on the second and last night, basically the beach we went to was by day ok, but by night it was almost desertic, like im not exagerating you would see one person every 10 minutes walking on the promenade, so we went to a disco (we didnt enter) where we found a group of people our age outside ( like 3 men and 6 women aprox), so we talked and got along quite well, it was a relief for both of our groups to find each other bc we were prolly the only people around age 18 that were out that night. Keep track bc here begins the beggining of the whole situation, on this group i liked a girl, who was not blonde and not even that good looking i have to say (around hltb-lmtb), but i liked something about her, so we all decided to go downtown to see if we could fit on a disco or smth, after quite some time we gave up since we couldnt find something open on a tuesday that wasnt +21 or whatever, so we decided to go back to the disco of the beggining, on the way back a friend of the girl i liked asked for my number so after finishing on the disco he could call me and we could meet up at the beach, i saw her minutes previous this talking with him and smiling at me when he was asking for it, it was quite obvious.
Here comes the twist, when we arrived apparently digital ids where not valid so some of our friends couldnt get in, so of our friend group, only 3 of us could enter, the girl i liked entered and said we wait you there, i said i would enter in a minute, of us three, one very close friend, lets call him homeboy, and the other not so much, hes just in the friend group, so lets call him random nt, so i said ok lets get in asking both of them, i knew homeboy wanted to but he didnt say anything since random nt intervened first, saying it would be very disrespectful to enter the disco without our 4 other friends, 1 of them was extremly drunk since he drank almost a whole black label bottle straight, this was primarily because his girlfriend left him a very short time ago and he did what almost every other stupid (in the good way if that makes sense) teenager would do after he breaks up with his gf, for background, the last time we had a similar trip, we had a friend that did exactly the same and i had to take him home, put him in my bed and take care of him for a whole day because his mother couldnt see him that way, so i was quite tired of always having to be responsible of the stupid things my friends do regarding alcohol and similar topics. I basically said that i didnt care and that i was gonna enter regardless, i argued that i was many times in similar positions and i sacrificed so my friends could have a good time even if that meant i couldnt. F.e At the carnivals of our city we and my homeboy found two girls, one of them liked my homeboy and the other liked me but i didnt like her, i regardless intertained her and spent so much time doing small talk with an stranger foid ( which i find completely exhausting as an autist myself ), instead of enjoying the time there so he could just have a good time with the girl she liked.
Even after that he argued i was being selfish and egotistical, only thinking about my own benefits, talking about how i had always had the need to be different by not drinking or eating the slop sometimes they be eating outside with them, this n***a clearly doesnt understand my situation since hes an average retarded nt, meanwhile my homeboy was hearing all this not stepping on the conversation and he finally decided to not enter and moralfag aswell with all of my other friends, when he told me i was gonna end up with no friends and that i was being a jerk i totally lost it and almost hit him in the face, then a friend tried to separate me and talk with me and i was also really close to doing something really bad, he kept touching my arm so i hit him very hard every time he touched me, later i just went by myself and tried to calm myself.
Maybe im wrong and im not realizing it, but from my pov and the things ive lived with them and the action ive taken in the past regarding this topic i think it was pretty justified that i wanted to enter the disco without my friends for 30 minutes just to get to know better a girl i liked bc we were going to the beach later regardless all of us, if you got til here thanks for reading
