my whole life ive been r***d by mentalceldom

[bitchwhippr]

from extreme mania doing dangerous whatever

to the absolute lack of caring about anything ever

to obsessions over people who refuse to entertain me

to depressive lows so bad I'd hallucinate mother nature comforting me in my bed

my whole life I've been held down and r***d by pure mentalceldom

I was sexually abused multiple times at a young age by my male neighbor and have never told anyone, no police, doctors or parents

I've been so isolated I cant speak to people anymore

to anxiety so extreme I'd get nervous playing roblox because I felt like when peoples avatars stood still they were screenshotting it and laughing at me

and lots more stuff I do not want to post publicly here

 

[icky]

not to sound like a dick cause i’m sure you’ve thought about it, but have u considered therapy? if not, why is that?

 

[bitchwhippr]

not to sound like a dick cause i’m sure you’ve thought about it, but have u considered therapy? if not, why is that?

don't worry about sounding like a dick bb

yeah I've tried it, but honestly I don't need some uppity bitch in my face telling me the solution to all my problems is thinking positive and forgiving things

and I definitely don't need some SSRIs that statistically make mentalcels worse in the long term

this is why I've always said its truly over for mentalcels, there isn't really a solution other then death sometimes and unfortunately I'm too scared for that right now

 

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[jest]

not in a mean way at all but have u ever gotten a psych eval done?? this is very relatable and it sounds like u have a personality disorder and cptsd
you don't have to take any meds obviously but it might bring u some peace to know what you have and what you can naturally do to ease your symptoms

 

[icky]

don't worry about sounding like a dick bb

yeah I've tried it, but honestly I don't need some uppity bitch in my face telling me the solution to all my problems is thinking positive and forgiving things

and I definitely don't need some SSRIs that statistically make mentalcels worse in the long term

this is why I've always said its truly over for mentalcels, there isn't really a solution other then death sometimes and unfortunately I'm too scared for that right now

i get that, i’ve had similar life experiences and i’ve seen some of your other posts so i feel for you.

i’ve tried talk therapy as well and feel similarly towards it and got recommended for dbt therapy but never made the jump to do it.

on the other hand, i’ve taken anti-psychotics (abilify and seroquel) along with anti anxiety meds and ssris (pre diagnosis) and i had the best results with abilify but had to stop taking it due to nausea caused by smoking while taking it.

I say maybe give therapy another try as all therapy isn’t talk therapy where they try to placate u by telling u it’ll get better one day and blah blah blah.

 

[icky]

not in a mean way at all but have u ever gotten a psych eval done?? this is very relatable and it sounds like u have a personality disorder and cptsd
you don't have to take any meds obviously but it might bring u some peace to know what you have and what you can naturally do to ease your symptoms

i second this.

 

[bitchwhippr]

not in a mean way at all but have u ever gotten a psych eval done?? this is very relatable and it sounds like u have a personality disorder and cptsd
you don't have to take any meds obviously but it might bring u some peace to know what you have and what you can naturally do to ease your symptoms

I have yeah, they do suspect a personality disorder, and I don't really believe in PTSD

I have more serious deeper rooted, problematic issues that I choose not to speak about on here which I would prefer to seek help for though

 

[Evilemofoid]

n***a stop making these threads I have like the exact same backstory and mentalcel experience and ts is pmo
U a copy

 

[bitchwhippr]

i get that, i’ve had similar life experiences and i’ve seen some of your other posts so i feel for you.

i’ve tried talk therapy as well and feel similarly towards it and got recommended for dbt therapy but never made the jump to do it.

on the other hand, i’ve taken anti-psychotics (abilify and seroquel) along with anti anxiety meds and ssris (pre diagnosis) and i had the best results with abilify but had to stop taking it due to nausea caused by smoking while taking it.

I say maybe give therapy another try as all therapy isn’t talk therapy where they try to placate u by telling u it’ll get better one day and blah blah blah.

My mom is a worse mentalcel than I am

she's on many many medications, so in turn when she's not blaming me for things I didn't do (her delusions are focused around me for some unfortunate reason), she's nodding out in the back garden up until 3am udually, sometimes I find her asleep with her face in her food, other times she half admits her distdain for me while half conscious

so due to this I would do anything to stay away from medications, she's also been institutionalized three times now so again, i see how bullshit healthcare is for mentalcels and I do want to stay away from doctor

I will likely look at therapy again though, so thank you bb

 

[bitchwhippr]

n***a stop making these threads I have like the exact same backstory and mentalcel experience and ts is pmo
U a copy

shut the fuck up

I hate insufferable disgusting pig bitches like you

"my suffering is worse than yours!"

how about stick a knife in your fat r***d throat like the ugly whore you are

 

[jest]

I have yeah, they do suspect a personality disorder, and I don't really believe in PTSD

I have more serious deeper rooted, problematic issues that I choose not to speak about on here which I would prefer to seek help for though

crazy i knew it
could i ask which personality disorder they are suspecting??? and if you're comfortable elaborating, what do you mean by you don't believe in ptsd?
i totally understand what you mean. you remind me of myself a lot actually (from this convo) and i obviously don't know what else you are dealing with but here are some things i have done that you can look into that has helped me. maybe any of these can help you?
•exposure therapy (i did this on myself, no therapist involved)
•dbt therapy
•outpatient
i don't take meds for what i have either, would rather not but these things have helped me. i don't see a therapist anymore either. i hope any of these can help, and a lot of these can be performed on yourself if you know what you are doing

 

[Evilemofoid]

shut the fuck up

I hate insufferable disgusting pig bitches like you

"my suffering is worse than yours!"

how about stick a knife in your fat r***d throat like the ugly whore you are

Im not saying that you absolute ragefueled lowiq loser
Im saying our suffering is similar
Grow the fuck up jfl

 

[bitchwhippr]

crazy i knew it
could i ask which personality disorder they are suspecting??? and if you're comfortable elaborating, what do you mean by you don't believe in ptsd?
i totally understand what you mean. you remind me of myself a lot actually (from this convo) and i obviously don't know what else you are dealing with but here are some things i have done that you can look into that has helped me. maybe any of these can help you?
•exposure therapy (i did this on myself, no therapist involved)
•dbt therapy
•outpatient
i don't take meds for what i have either, would rather not but these things have helped me. i don't see a therapist anymore either. i hope any of these can help, and a lot of these can be performed on yourself if you know what you are doing

borderline

I do believe in PTSD, but not that I have it

I don't really feel like I can get trauma as stupid as it sounds, I've never really cared about stuff in that way. If I could move on from the constant feeling, I have I wouldnt really give a fuck about my past

My dad has forced me into exposure therapy quite a bit so that has helped with my discomfort in social places

DBT therapy seems like a good idea, but I feel like my negative thoughts are impulsive more than axtive, I don't actively think I want to kill myself, more like 1000 thoughts being flooded at the same time that I can't really xontrol

If it gets bad enough I'd force myself as an outpatient, but on the other hand I don't want to get better yk. I don't want to spend my whole life coping just to feel happy, a happiness that is equivalent to the baseline for normal people

I just use here as a place to talk about it

thank you for taking the time to reply though bb ❤

 

[bitchwhippr]

Im not saying that you absolute ragefueled lowiq loser
Im saying our suffering is similar
Grow the fuck up jfl

foid rageslop dnr hope you get r***d

 

[loox]

to anxiety so extreme I'd get nervous playing roblox

i only laughed at this part

 

[jest]

borderline

I do believe in PTSD, but not that I have it

I don't really feel like I can get trauma as stupid as it sounds, I've never really cared about stuff in that way. If I could move on from the constant feeling, I have I wouldnt really give a fuck about my past

My dad has forced me into exposure therapy quite a bit so that has helped with my discomfort in social places

DBT therapy seems like a good idea, but I feel like my negative thoughts are impulsive more than axtive, I don't actively think I want to kill myself, more like 1000 thoughts being flooded at the same time that I can't really xontrol

If it gets bad enough I'd force myself as an outpatient, but on the other hand I don't want to get better yk. I don't want to spend my whole life coping just to feel happy, a happiness that is equivalent to the baseline for normal people

I just use here as a place to talk about it

thank you for taking the time to reply though bb ❤

i knew it!!!! i have borderline as well

i understand what you mean about the ptsd thing now as well, BUT ...... what you described is basically cptsd in a nutshell LOL
that is how i feel about ptsd about myself as well and then i was diagnosed with cptsd
im glad to hear about the exposure therapy! keep working at it!

and for the dbt, i would try to consider taking another look at it because it actually helps with impulsive thoughts (instead of active) as well! i too, do not have active thoughts but instead impulsive

and i understand your thoughts about the outpatient as well. if it's any comfort, there is usually different intensities of care (ex. 1 time a week 4 hours or every day 8 hours)

i don't mean to make this about myself but WOW it's scary how close our minds work if that makes sense. you have said a lot of things that i have said before!!!!!!! you get it

and of course!!! i hope you find something that helps you in any way if you do choose to look for help. have a good day!

 

[loox]

Im not saying that you absolute ragefueled lowiq loser
Im saying our suffering is similar
Grow the fuck up jfl

why you get him banned

 

[submissivechud]

why you get him banned

sinister

 

[jkcwakcjw]

from extreme mania doing dangerous whatever

to the absolute lack of caring about anything ever

to obsessions over people who refuse to entertain me

to depressive lows so bad I'd hallucinate mother nature comforting me in my bed

my whole life I've been held down and r***d by pure mentalceldom

I was sexually abused multiple times at a young age by my male neighbor and have never told anyone, no police, doctors or parents

I've been so isolated I cant speak to people anymore

to anxiety so extreme I'd get nervous playing roblox because I felt like when peoples avatars stood still they were screenshotting it and laughing at me

and lots more stuff I do not want to post publicly here

u should see a professional to deal with this
this is more than just being a bit anxious or needing help talk to ppl/girls
this is a serious thing especially the sixth line bro

 

[Evilemofoid]

why you get him banned

I didnt
But that just made me gigle