I am Adhi,
I have been indulging myself in maximizing looks since I was 18, from the age of 9 to early 18 I was being bullied and hated for the way I looked, i was always underweight and so skinny that they always referred to me as "Vadi" meaning stick. It wasn't until the age of 15 when I was 39 kgs had i started going to the gym and eating so well that they stopped bullying me. The body transformation was so quick from the 6th to 9th month of going to the gym and eating well. Later in the 10th month my appetite stopped, I stopped eating because I wasn't hungry. I would vomit atleast 10 times a day if i eat or drink. I was more than 55kgs at the peak of my bulk and in just 2 months I Became 32 kgs and in the 4th month I was 28 kgs, later my 5th doctor identified that I have ibs (Irritable Bowel syndrome) and chronic constipation which lead to my dead appetite, loss of weight and vomiting. I couldnt live without taking pegfiber and sompraz d40. After a year i accepted the fate and just wanted to die. Because it clearly destroyed my mental health and physical health, I was more insecure than before but this time it wasn't about my physique it was about my looks. I was looking bad at every pics, I was looking deformed and ugly. I hated looking at my mirror, I was envious of handsome people as days went by blackpill edits were killing my sensitive heart. I tried drinking 1 litre raw milk everyday and exercising a bit but there was no transformation or any changes. I decided to go further and i was taking mineral,vitamin supplements thinking my skull will get bigger, later i saw no big changes in skull but my skin got a bit better and eyebrows grew longer because of biotin. After some time in January I had my wisdom tooth from the right side of the mandible because my palate was too narrow it couldnt fit in. I asked the doctor if the surgery will change how i look, he said "no, you'll look the same" 1 month later after all my swelling had been gone I looked so much better than how i used to look, I'm no implying it's the surgery but probably late puberty. So from then my skin got worsen and i started looking ugly until I started taking tretinoin. I look fairly decent now but I want to be more and more handsome, I need more advices on what to do take and what to do, so yeah that's it. I apologise for my bad english
I have been indulging myself in maximizing looks since I was 18, from the age of 9 to early 18 I was being bullied and hated for the way I looked, i was always underweight and so skinny that they always referred to me as "Vadi" meaning stick. It wasn't until the age of 15 when I was 39 kgs had i started going to the gym and eating so well that they stopped bullying me. The body transformation was so quick from the 6th to 9th month of going to the gym and eating well. Later in the 10th month my appetite stopped, I stopped eating because I wasn't hungry. I would vomit atleast 10 times a day if i eat or drink. I was more than 55kgs at the peak of my bulk and in just 2 months I Became 32 kgs and in the 4th month I was 28 kgs, later my 5th doctor identified that I have ibs (Irritable Bowel syndrome) and chronic constipation which lead to my dead appetite, loss of weight and vomiting. I couldnt live without taking pegfiber and sompraz d40. After a year i accepted the fate and just wanted to die. Because it clearly destroyed my mental health and physical health, I was more insecure than before but this time it wasn't about my physique it was about my looks. I was looking bad at every pics, I was looking deformed and ugly. I hated looking at my mirror, I was envious of handsome people as days went by blackpill edits were killing my sensitive heart. I tried drinking 1 litre raw milk everyday and exercising a bit but there was no transformation or any changes. I decided to go further and i was taking mineral,vitamin supplements thinking my skull will get bigger, later i saw no big changes in skull but my skin got a bit better and eyebrows grew longer because of biotin. After some time in January I had my wisdom tooth from the right side of the mandible because my palate was too narrow it couldnt fit in. I asked the doctor if the surgery will change how i look, he said "no, you'll look the same" 1 month later after all my swelling had been gone I looked so much better than how i used to look, I'm no implying it's the surgery but probably late puberty. So from then my skin got worsen and i started looking ugly until I started taking tretinoin. I look fairly decent now but I want to be more and more handsome, I need more advices on what to do take and what to do, so yeah that's it. I apologise for my bad english