You start because one comment lingers too long in your mind. Because the mirror stops feeling like a reflection and starts feeling like a judgment. Because you tell yourself it’s just a small change, just a little effort. Then it’s another. And another.
It’s never for fun. It’s for control. For validation. For the hope that if you change enough, you’ll finally feel like enough.
You start because the nights are too quiet, and your thoughts are too loud. Because you need something, anything, to make the weight in your chest feel lighter.
Because the first time feels harmless, the second feels like a choice, and by the third, you stop counting.
It’s never for fun. It’s for escape. And by the time you realize you weren’t just playing, it’s already too late to walk away.
My thoughts inspired by this one sound/ trend on TikTok ifykyk
My first Autistic thread, bye.