I hate how obsessed I am with myself
when I was at my grandmother's house earlier, being in the bathroom and staring at myself in the mirror was all I did (aside from drawing)
people would treat me better if I was prettier, my boyfriend (srry for bringing him up sm) always tells me how gorgeous I am and blah blah blah
but
is that really true? yes my looks have improved but I really want that top tier pretty privilege yk what I mean? i'm average looking which I'm kinda grateful for bc at least my looks aren't the worst thing in the world but I want MORE
sometimes I spend 1-2 hours staring at myself in the mirror trying to figure out why I didn't end up with the perfect features my mom had when she was younger, she's SO pretty and my dad wasn't bad looking when he was younger too
so like what went wrong with me?
my lashes are naturally long, my side profile is REALLY good when I eat healthy, my body naturally has a good amount of muscle so it looks like I workout all the time (I do NOT), i'm smarter than most people or at least I used to be, my hair is fine, my lips are good and basically I have a huge amount of potential. however that's not enough
puberty is starting to hit me more, which is good but still, I feel like there's something missing
I want more piercings (currently I js have my stomach, doubles and septum done) and I think a nostril piercing would make me look better
I know what I want to do with myself but there's not enough resources for me to achieve the look that I want
does anyone else feel like this, or am I too stuck in my head?
I'm going crazy
when I was at my grandmother's house earlier, being in the bathroom and staring at myself in the mirror was all I did (aside from drawing)
people would treat me better if I was prettier, my boyfriend (srry for bringing him up sm) always tells me how gorgeous I am and blah blah blah
but
is that really true? yes my looks have improved but I really want that top tier pretty privilege yk what I mean? i'm average looking which I'm kinda grateful for bc at least my looks aren't the worst thing in the world but I want MORE
sometimes I spend 1-2 hours staring at myself in the mirror trying to figure out why I didn't end up with the perfect features my mom had when she was younger, she's SO pretty and my dad wasn't bad looking when he was younger too
so like what went wrong with me?
my lashes are naturally long, my side profile is REALLY good when I eat healthy, my body naturally has a good amount of muscle so it looks like I workout all the time (I do NOT), i'm smarter than most people or at least I used to be, my hair is fine, my lips are good and basically I have a huge amount of potential. however that's not enough
puberty is starting to hit me more, which is good but still, I feel like there's something missing
I want more piercings (currently I js have my stomach, doubles and septum done) and I think a nostril piercing would make me look better
I know what I want to do with myself but there's not enough resources for me to achieve the look that I want
does anyone else feel like this, or am I too stuck in my head?
I'm going crazy
poor babeh