This is more to do with human psychology always looking for a challenge. If you were attractive (presuming you were born into such a phenotype) you would have had other concerns that would have been your ‘voids’. Simply unaware of what you in another life wanted was your uncounted gift in this one. The TikTok comments in that case would have been commonplace and thus to you normal. Similarly, I believe the gifts you have right now are immense. It’s not that this ‘void’ can not be filled but more so you have chosen for it to be empty always. This is the common self fulfilling prophecy bias. It’s as the quote goes “it doesn’t matter what we want, once we get it, then we want something else.” Life can indeed be lived in this way, always in a flux of desires. But the quote goes much deeper on further analysis, to have mental fortitude is to clarify to the world and yourself that it’s only you who chooses whether you will be happy or not, think of it this way, every version of you even the personified ideal you want to reach has issues, your mind will always return to a sort of equilibrium after it adjusts to environment. After which it will look for its next struggles. You would enjoy those TikTok comments but you’re maturing, this stage in life is one in which the most rapid personality development occurs. In short, those TikTok comments sure seem sweet dandy, but as an adult you simply have bigger issues. I assure you in 3 years time you will feel completely indifferent on some topics you’re passionate about today. I don’t mean to say you shouldn’t focusing on ascending, but I want you to realise that discounting your attractiveness is a cognitive bias more than an objective fact. Why can I tell? I have been in the exact same place, and grown from it.. I too struggle with looks, so does everyone here to a great extent. But you have the choice. You’re focusing on an extremely small place for fulfilled, with due time you’ll realise just how vast life is. I believe it in my bones and I know you do deep down as well.