On some real shit

[Ben07]

Most days i feel like im watching my life in third person, time goes day becomes night, night becomes morning. I go do whatever i have to do, but then what. Most of the time i just start thinking about what life really is and at the end i allways come to the same point. There is no meaning in life. No one has meaning in life some are just lucky to have a goal, but then what. I dont think im unlucky in any shape or form I just think that most of the time life is pointless unless you have a goal to reach.

 

[Balian]

Too vague

 

[Ben07]

Too vague

Let me explain it better


Most days it kinda feels like im watching my life instead of actually living it. Like everything just runs on autopilot. Morning comes then suddenly its night again then morning again, and I did stuff all day but I can barely remember being in it.

I do what im supposed to do. Go where I have to go, say what I need to say and act normal. And nothing is really wrong which almost makes it worse. Its just neutral. Pointless like im moving but not going anywhere.

My brain always goes to the same place when its quiet. I start thinking about what the point of it all this even is. People talk about purpose like everyone has one waiting for them but what if thats just something we made up so it doesnt feel this empty? Some people have goals, dreams, something theyre chasing. But even then like whatsafter that?

hard to care when everything feels like its happening on repeat.

life doesnt have meaning. Most of the time its just days passing and the only time it feels real is when you have something to reach for. And when you dont its just pointless