Rant because im having a serious crisis

[Evilemofoid]

I just realized that I never got to be a kid and spent that time taking care of myself and being a teen
And now that im a teen ive spent my years working, navigating living, and figuring out how to live without hs, like an adult

Im really really scared my whole life is just gonna be chasing stages that I miss out on or being forced to mourn them

Why did I have to be cursed with such a brutally neglectful and doomed life
Why do I never get to walk the grad stage
Why did I have to learn to cook at 4
Why did I have to get emancipated at 15
I hate these people I hate this place I hate my family I hate any friend ive had I hate it I hate it

 

[Torontocel]

I just realized that I never got to be a kid and spent that time taking care of myself and being a teen
And now that im a teen ive spent my years working, navigating living, and figuring out how to live without hs, like an adult

Im really really scared my whole life is just gonna be chasing stages that I miss out on or being forced to mourn them

Why did I have to be cursed with such a brutally neglectful and doomed life
Why do I never get to walk the grad stage
Why did I have to learn to cook at 4
Why did I have to get emancipated at 15
I hate these people I hate this place I hate my family I hate any friend ive had I hate it I hate it

ong
when i was in elementary i was stuck in a windowless room at school and back home both parents worked almost 24/7

teenager years spent them getting bullied
turning 18 in a few days and i just realised that i neither have a childhood or teenage years

 

[Starlet]

I just realized that I never got to be a kid and spent that time taking care of myself and being a teen
And now that im a teen ive spent my years working, navigating living, and figuring out how to live without hs, like an adult

Im really really scared my whole life is just gonna be chasing stages that I miss out on or being forced to mourn them

Why did I have to be cursed with such a brutally neglectful and doomed life
Why do I never get to walk the grad stage
Why did I have to learn to cook at 4
Why did I have to get emancipated at 15
I hate these people I hate this place I hate my family I hate any friend ive had I hate it I hate it

I’ve learned to really not care and it helps a lot because you’ll never be disappointed or upset that you miss something. It happened enough times to me that I learned not to value it. Like when I graduated, everyone was trying to congratulate me and all I felt was , basically nothing, and it would be awkward. For other people it’s seen as a big deal so they couldn’t understand why I wasn’t excited or gave a fuck at all about going to the ceremony and dressing up